Snooker near TBR

Today went to school at 12pm... woke up at 11am cause yesterday slept at 5am, so damn tired. Arrived in the parking lot and saw W's car, don't bother... Then into the lecture hall. Saw Alvin sat on one side, so I sat at another side. Wanted to go sit there cause LG sat on that side, but resisted. I don't want to look 'desperate' again. But when the class end I did say bye to her, seems like a routine to only say bye to her every lecture, haha...

After finished business with the lecturers, plan with friends on where to eat lunch. Then saw LG, which will also be joining us. Good... the more the merrier! I asked them if they wanted to take a lift in my car but because too many of them, some of them walked there (including her).

After parking my car, me, Robin and WMing head towards TBR. Saw an empty seat beside LG. I know WMing wanted to sit there, so I hurried my steps and sat next to her, hahaha! He already sat next to LG in the lecture hall, so my turn la right? lol... but actually I dowan to sit opposite of Kid only :P

We chat and ate... LG didn't eat only yamcha as she wait for her bro to fetch her. Although we sat next to each other, we didn't really talk much as we talked to other friends. So near yet so far, sadness..... Then she went back. Later I play pool with Danny, lepak a while in the snooker center which is located in TBR and then went to fetch my mom and bro from LRT.

Sigh... lately MC is having a headache of finding partners for the coming assignments, which is the same problem for me. At least she got 1 partner, I have none. W already said of finding a new partner, so I wouldn't want to go back to her group (although I want to group with CK only). Like a bubble, I am floating aimlessly... awaiting the time to be picked and 'popped' into a new group. Sad betul...

Sabar, sabar!!! ><''

School reopen but busier than holidays!

Wed went out... Thursday also went out! Tired, pokai... but super fun and enjoyable!

Wed we went for karaoke at Sg Wang. MC suddenly pm me in FB and told me on that day itself... lucky my bro was back from school at that time else I would not have any transport to LRT. Alvin also didn't go, so I went even though LG and CK didn't (I tried to persuade them but failed).

Overall it was fun. The most shocking was when I heard MC sang for the first time... her voice was very nice... beautiful in fact! Except LG and WingC, her voice was the best I have heard before... for a girl. Really shocking since she's a really quiet girl in life, haha... Other than that nothing much happened. Somehow Kid is trying to be good with me, so I 'tried' to repay back the favor. But in the end he did not want to go back with MC and wanted to go for movies, leaving me to go back myself. I was a bit mad cause I waited so long so we could go back together but end up dumped alone. Oh well... couldn't blame them 100%, haha.

Then on Thursday night saw MC's post in FB, asking anyone if they want to join them for dinner at Genting Klang. I asked Daniel and he said ok, so we went there later at night. I thought it was supposed to be only 3-4 person there, suddenly a bunch of people also joined... making a total of 10-11 people, including us. Luckily there was enough seat for us in the end else Daniel sure no syok liao, lol... After dinner we play 'Police and killer' with poker cards. It was actually fun although a bit uncomfortable because we are sitting on a straight role due to the square tables. I became cop once but failed miserably, haha... (Why do people always think I'm the killer when I'm not? -_-'')

Hanging out with young people do make us feel young once again, haha... I can see that Daniel was enjoying it, and he's not a bad 'killer' too (maybe having small eyes is an advantage, kakaka). Then yamcha with David where we talk about old games, movies and 'stuffs'.

That's all... oh, Alvin and CK broke up, so did Kelvin and Jui Ning... Sad to see 2 couple apart after nearly a year being together but Alvin was totally not a good bf. He's very emo... and the reason they broke up was because he loves anime more than her. Really WTF!?! Had a long chat with CK on Wed night, but she doesn't seem sad about it. She's actually getting matured lately, totally the opposite of her labelled as 'emo' last time. Yes, good... you are a good girl, and you deserve a person way better than Alvin. Gogogo girl!

First day of Sem 5

So the school have finally started again... With a half heavy, half light heart I head over to the college at 8am. The teacher was late. I look at the hall... where should I sit? Last sem without question I will find where is W and sit next to her or nearby her. But not now... not anymore. She have left a pain in my heart and I will not sit with her anymore.....

Went to sit with some U6 boys. Since I hang easily with people, I have no problem mixing into the gang. We chat, joke and talk... but somehow my eyes still look at 'that' place, sigh!

Finally the teacher came. There was some jokes, flash animation shows and 'acting' being done in that 2 hours. It wasn't boring and when I heard that his assignment needs a max of 2 person per team... my heart feel sad again. Shall I wonder aimlessly for a partner? Or should I do it alone this time? I feel more of doing it alone to prevent myself being used and hurt again...

After the lecture was over, I look over at 'that' side. W and CK was gone... but LG was there. Haha, LG... she still dress in plain and simple, but still look good for me. Maybe I was being 'perasan' again, but I feel like she's looking at me a couple of times. So finally I looked at her for a long time, waiting for her to look my way... which she did. Then I waved hi, and she smiled and waved hi too. Then she went back, alone. Like the wind... she comes and goes.....

Later thought of going out with Danny for snooker, but the emo Alvin was there... plus I need to go to the bank, so I skipped. Went back home and the lift was out of service, damn! Have to walk up 12 floors with pain, as my knee hurts nowadays... ><''

A sudden night movie

Last night I was suddenly invited by Daniel to join him yamcha with Eve, Gwen and Aaron in The Curve. Since there's a free ride and my holidays are going to be over... why not? So after parking the car, we went to meet Gwen and Aaron at a Laksa restaurant where they were having dinner.

After chatting for some time, we head over to the cinema to see if there is any good movies while waiting for Eve. When Eve arrived, we somehow are redirected for yamcha at Kim Gary. There, Eve was having dinner when another guest pop up. It was Ah Wai... and he say he saw me some where before, and vice versa for me. Maybe a long time ago in one of those KBox outings?

He also had his dinner there. After chit-chatting, we realized Daniel and Eve was the most 'siao' among us all, haha... Gwen can get a bit high too, although she was mostly 'quiet'. Then we head over to the cinema and watch 'Sorority Row' which starts at 12.10am. I was a bit 'shocked' by the loud noises from the sound effects in the cinema than the sudden killings. The Asian actress was hot too, haha...

After cinema we became 'bodyguards' and escorted Eve and Gwen to their cars. Gwen drives the same car as I do, haha... Then we head all the way back to our car and reached home around 3am. Although I was tired and slept around 4am (because of FB), I had a blast with the new 'gang'... But don't do it too often else I will really burn a hole in my pocket, haha :P

Fifth semester is coming soon...

Aihh... the new sem is coming soon. Usually I will be happy and can't wait for the new sem to start... the anticipation and waiting is a good thing. But this time I do not feel it anymore... it's actually sad and depressing. It's because I need to find a new 'group' when the sem starts.

The feeling of loneliness and confusion is bitter without a group to hang on to... I feel totally lost in the pit of abyss. No, it's not because I need a friend to cling on to. It's because I want to help them... as much as they help me. I will be happy in this mutual relationship... but now without a 'group', where am I to go?

I didn't know this would have such an impact on me... why should I care for people who doesn't care about me? Maybe it's because I put too much faith and hope on them... that they will do their best for me as I will for them. This trust is broken and I am deeply saddened. Why is it so hard to find true friends that will go through ups and downs with you in this world? Is true friends even harder to find than a needle in the hay?

Four more days to go... and I doesn't like the feeling at all. I wish to change class and forget all those so called 'friends', but with the class rep responsibility on my shoulders... I feel it is an irresponsible act. I must stay strong and face this challenge once again. I remembered last time when I have to change from one group to another in order to do group projects... and it was a terrible feeling. It is not that I am 'unwanted'... but I am the so called 'reserves', only picked because no group to join in. Now I felt what MC felt last time, when W didn't want her in her group. Hey, now W is DOING it to me! F**K her!!! >0

Forget it... like Eminem said 'You selfish B**ch I hope you F**ked in Hell and Shit!'. All I can do now is regret, learn and continue on with life. And even though I'm so mad, I still wish her Happy Bday yesterday... Damn! I'm like a good guy trying to be bad but gone all wrong... Shit! Shit!! Shit!!!

Hahahahaha..... Going to be crazy like Daniel liao, roflomgbbqsauce.....

That sicky feeling...

Argh... yesterday and today also feel sick. Have a bad sore throat and feeling weak all over... like going to fell ill any moment. Maybe it's because this week I went out for too much excitement liao. Long time didn't fell ill... and luckily school only reopens on the 5th. Had a check of my wallet and realized I used around RM100 in these 2 weeks... wth!? Happy... but sakit ><''

Yesterday had a chat with SP and gave her the link to my blog liao... so can't tease her in my blog liao (not that I did... did I? :P). Her wedding is coming soon, which fell on 10/10. Luckily I accepted her invitation earlier cause the next day another goof friend of mine also gave one, and they have the same day, same time! So sooooooooo sorry to my friend UmaShankar cause I can't go for your one as I already promised SP's side first. His bride is none other than Kavidha, haha... may God bless the two of you for all eternity! ^^

Oh no... the feeling of lovesick is slowly coming back... I can feel it. Luckily I don't see YL every week else I really will 'kena penyakit teruk' once again...! Please let her find a good bf as soon as possible... please dear God, please! I really wish for her the best... as my heart will be sad if she can't be with someone who can take good care of her for the rest of her life.

Thinking too much again...! *Piak!*

First love is the deepest...

Yesterday went out with a friend... to meet up with another friend for breakfast/ lunch. After chit chatting for a while, we head over to YL's house. She sounds happy when I said we wanted to go to her house, haha...

So at her house... I was happy, yet a bit awkward. Not every time do I spend time with her with so few ppl around. We chat a little and planned what to do in her 'so quiet' house. Finally with a little push, we were able to convince her to go out to 1 Utama. Else she would stay at home and watch HK drama series, haha...

At 1U, we thought of watching a movie but there was no suitable ones. So we had a scroll around 1U, then went to for some waffles as tea time/ dinner. Just the 3 of us still we had quite a lot to talk... which is good as long as she's happy and not bored at home. Finally the time for goodbye has come, as we company her to her sis which will take her home later. With a sad heart I say adieu...

Later came back and yamcha with Daniel, as David couldn't make it. We chat a lot on some love related stuffs... which in some weird way, I have the same philosophy as he do, lol... Being committed is not easy, although I wish I were in his shoes... sometimes. Like what most man will say 'Yau lui yan fan, mou lui yan yau hai fan'. Haha...

Later that night Dota with my friends and I told her today I was happy as I went out with my 8/9 year crush. He said I was very keng, but I said I was actually stupid... to cling on to something which will never happen, unable to let go. Then he said he respect me and then *tabib*... lol. A lovefool I am... am I not?

2 outing to cure the 'boring'

On Monday went out with the Jimmy, WingC and SG for karaoke at The Curve. Luckily my dad was back and so they decided to bring my grandma for a stroll at Ikano, since I'm heading that way. If not, take LRT can be quite a hassle...

CMing was supposed to join but suddenly say food poisoning. So we sang and ate our hearts out in Red Box. After that went for a stroll to find a good place to sit and 'yamcha'. All in all, we finally decided to go TRG Friday's. It was my first time at TGR, and it was really fun as I have seen on tv. The waiter was friendly and sometimes funny yet helpful too... although the price was a bit expensive, the food was not bad. I would go there more (if I am working), haha...

After that went to Tesco to shop for some grocery and Jimmy sent SG home before sending me to the LRT. Slept all the way to Wangsa Maju, which is nearly 40 min. Tired but happy.....

Yesterday went out again, with Jimmy, WingC, Daniel and Yling. It wasn't planned but sudden, cause YLing said she was bored, and Jimmy was at WingC's place. So he fetched YLing to our place for yamcha and dinner. Jimmy wanted to go for Chili's, but I mistaken Nando for Chili's, haha... So from Jusco Wangsa Maju, they meet us up and we went to search for a 'hidden' Jusco, somewhere deep inside Carefour area.

I was shocked to see a small Jusco there. Fooled 'twice', Jimmy was unhappy to see there wasn't a Chili's there too... haha. So no choice, we went to A&W cause YLing looked tired and restless due to hungry-ness, lol... The 5 of us spent a long time there as we chit chat, ate and looked at Daniel's Tibet vacation pictures, in his DSR camera. We also get free souveniers, which is some holographic postcards. It wasn't expensive but looked nice... a good value for money! Thx dude!

Then we head over to Cola Club, my suggestion. The food was not bad, a bit pricey... but there were live singers there. Too bad they started quite late, else we could enjoy it more. WingC said she need to go back early cause she's working the next day, so they left around 10.30pm. Oh, David also joined around an hour earlier before they left.

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YL... It's so nice to see her again. Although it will still be fun without her, but it's much 'sweet' if she is around XD... Listening to her on how she wants to go to Tibet too with her sis, I wish I was with her on THAT trip. Looking out for her... protecting her... taking nice shots of her and with her... Ah, that would be like a dream come true! However if she went there with just her sis, I felt uneasy... scared for her safety or never seeing her again. Although we are just friends, but I cared for her so much more... much much much more. But I couldn't tell her that as it may ruin our friendship. Seeing her happy is all I want. Take care YLing.....

Just 'friends'

Sad... Last semester was an enjoyable one. Why? It's because I thought I have found a group to hang out with... A group to share happiness and sadness together... A group that will do our work together... Truly one 'group'. But alas, all was fake and momentary. W just told me that next semester she don't want to be in the same group with me anymore. Why? I dont know why... Maybe she doesn't think I'm useful enough. Maybe she wants to try out new members. Whatever the reason is... I'm sad that she doesn't involve me as a 'part' of the group anymore.

Sigh... I know these things happen to many people, including me. I should not mind, care or keep it in heart that I doesn't belong in 'that' group. If they doesn't appreciate me, why should I do the same to them? But still I'm saddened... it's because I treated them truly as my best of friends, but did not received the same back. We are just normal 'friends'...

But I will stay strong! If they are not my true friends, then I shall keep finding for the ones called 'true'. I will not do anymore silly moves like help them do their assignments, when they are not in my group. I will concentrate more on myself and MY group... helping people nowadays is just a waste of time and energy (to most ungrateful people). Why am I so silly and stupid to always offer help to people, when I can't even help myself first?

Kindness... it's a trait I should have thrown out the window years ago. It has given me little help but mostly pain and misery. When can I become a 'normal' human being... a smart one... which only do what that is needed to be done, not any more or less... in order to take care of myself first? I must... I MUST LEARN TO SAY NO!!!

Another bday outing with my friends

Last week Sat we went to Kepong to have dinner and celebrate Jimmy + CMing's bday. At first should be me driving Sum there but then his gf also going, so we can't fit into Jimmy's Kenari. So no choice, into the 'Batmobile' (Honda Civic) we went!

Strange but this time Jimmy recomended us Satay Celup as dinner. Not that I'm complaining but at RM1 per stick... I think it would really burn a hole in our pockets. Plus after they survey, they wasn't many ppl inside there, haha... So we went back to the Steamboat+Teppanyaki style buffet that we went last time to celebrate YLing's bday.

It was fun, we hang out and chat all night long. Those involved were Sum and her gf Dianne (did I spelled correct?), WingC, Jimmy, Cming, Yling, SG and a person that didn't joined us for a long time liao... Sophiya! She didn't change much after all these years, haha...

One thing that 'shocked' me was when I first saw SG and WingC... they were back from a free cosmetic thingy, and man... their make-up was TOO much! It wasn't pretty in my opinion... like the time Zhao Wei over make-up in Kungfu Soccer, hahaha... But like SG said 'Jason still like the girls with natural looks', haha... she understands me well! ^^

Yling came and as usual, my eyes was on her (slap myself*piak*). Although she dressed 'cincai boncai'-ly, I didn't mind at all. I tried to joke with her as much as possible, because when she's happy... I'm happy. I cooked a lot for her too, haha...

Spent nearly RM30 to celebrate 2 friend's bday... which was totally worth it (ouch). Next bday celebration should be mine... I think. But that's on November! I want to hang out with them more!! >.<>

First time mad at LG

Yesterday was making a plan with MC to go out with the gang and fly kite... yes, the real fly kite in Kepong. But sadly most of the responses are either not going or see first. Then LG suddenly MSN me and ask me about the plan. At first she say want to go, then change her mind and say see first. It's because she don't want me to tell MC that she will go then FFK later...

This is what makes my blood started to boil... Then in a happy attitude she said 'I have never FFK ppl before'... WHAT?!? Deep inside I still remember the incident clearly, where we went for David's bday in Mid-Valley and she FFK us, when we are ALREADY there! And she dare say never fkk ppl before... so I just kept quiet and didn't say a word about THE incident.

Still I was mad... I keep 'advising' her that I, too, don't like ppl to ffk me. It's rude and make ppl unhappy. Then she keep denying of ffk-ing ppl, and ended with a 'hahahaha'... so I closed her MSN without replying her back. Denying is bliss I guess? -_-

Why am I so mad at her because of a simple 'ffk'? Maybe it's me... but I feel that she take things for granted. She doesn't think what if her actions will make ppl upset... she enjoys life just like that without giving anything back in return and her only skill is talking with ppl. Her weaknesses like forgetful and bad in using computer software are terrible, yet did not do much to fix them. No, I will not help her anymore since I did that so much in the past... and I don't want her to cling on to people's help and in the end, could not stand on her own two feet.

What will happen to her in the future...? I don't know. All I know is I should not care too much and just help her like an ordinary friend... nothing more.