Another outing with LG

Thursday night I went out with Daniel, his bro Kevin and LG. It was a bit weird that LG is following us out, since it was actually to help Daniel buy his backpack bag. So after fetching LG around 9pm, we head over to One Utama. During the whole trip I was talking with LG at the back seat.

Then reached One Utama, it became me and Kevin talking most of the time, while LG listens and Daniel chatting with Eve who came to pass Daniel his lenses that Jessie Tan borrowed. Daniel bought the expensive backpack which cost nearly RM400. When Eve left later, it became LG talk with Daniel and I continue chatting with Kevin.

So we went for yamcha. The conversation was still the same... and sometimes I listen to what they say (LG and Daniel). Somehow I was a bit sad (or maybe jealous) cause what they talk are always those serious and love related stuffs, which doesn't involve me. Talking with Kevin made me realised that as we grow older, our life becomes less fun due to love, work and life. True... yet sad.

Then on the way back I did not talk with LG anymore... It was all LG and Daniel talking, while I listen to the radio and enjoy the sceneries outside the window. The ugly green monster is consuming me, but I hold it back. As we approach near to LG's place, Daniel offered to walk her back, so I didn't need to do that too. It would be better if Daniel do it too.....

So why am I still feeling this way? Is it because the feeling is still there...? One big weakness is I couldn't forget so easily, it takes a long time to totally forget that feeling. This holiday will be a good time to heal myself... and next sem, I vow not to look at her or even go out yamcha with her anymore. She likes another guy and it's time for me to wake up from this dream.

One thing I learned from Kevin is guys are egoistic, they like to sacrifice themselves to make girls happy although it will make them suffer in the end while girls are self centered... they love all the attention but only chose the best for themselves.

A boring break is approaching...

Aii... left next Sat for exam then will be bored at home liao, for nearly one month! Mr Daniel so ngam also going for vacation for 22 days, making me rot at home even more, haha... David pula busy with his programming (never ending) and my other classmates will go back hometown after exams too. SIEN!

Don't worry, I will find something to do... either benifitial or fun. Saw something I hate on FB again... it's that arrogant CS posting some crap for me to see on FFS (friends for sale). He 'bought' CMing, which is my 'pet' and write his nickname with 'some ppl so free dowan study and always go play fb'... so I tulan I bought back CMing and change his nick to 'Arrogant people knows nothing but themselves and making enemies'. Hahaha... I'm sure later that 'boy' will continue doing it, which is fine with me since I'm having a holiday now (or soon)... wakakaka! Bring it on you lowlife! >)

Haha, too sien until crazy liao... I think I will be learning on how to improve my Flash skill during the holidays. I wonder if I can post it on the web for people to play it? Oh well... until next time, ciao!

The end of sem 4 is coming

Hmm... donno should I be sad or happy. Yes, the end of semester is coming... I will be doing my last presentation tomorrow, then wait for next week Sat to take one exam only (English), which should be a walk in the park. Then I won't be able to see my college friends for 3 weeks + -.....

Doing this final assignment with W made me felt a bit guilty and sad. It's because I did not have a laptop, and all of them went to W's house to finish the assignment... and all I could do is finding sounds/editing them and pass to W through MSN. Also searching for some ingredients from the supermarket.

What I did, was it sufficient for the flash assignment that they did for the whole night without sleeping, until 7am? Guilt is consuming me... and I don't know if they think I'm worthless in this assignment. Thought about finding another new group next sem... if they really don't find me helpful in the team. Sigh... why am I doing this to myself? They don't really think that... do they!? >.<''

Argh... watever! Really need to stop making my ownself miserable by thinking too much... T_T

A day with LG

Yesterday was a tiring day... the day before I only got 2 hours worth of sleep, doing the freaking MSN and story Flash assignment. Then I realised I cant link it all together... and none of my friends know it because I use action script 3.0 -__- So no choice, called LG and ask for her help cause she using 3.0 also. So I went to the library to find her.

Thought she was the only one there, bit looks like JH, the guy I thought she like last time, was also there. He's very close with LG and is one of her team member in doing group assignments. We chatted and see each other's project. LG's MSN was better than mine but my story assignment was better than hers. Turn out she couldn't help me after all cause her one is helped by another friend thus she don't know how to do it at all. Oh well... T_T

Then the 3 of us went to TBR to eat, buy and print some stuffs. It was fun as we chat and talk about stuffs (including me teasing LG in numerous times, and JH 'helped' me, haha...). It's funny how I am able to mix in with their group so easily... cause most of their classmates didn't. Whatever the reason is, I am always happy to mix with more groups than concentrating on one. I like to be the 'Jack of all' than the 'King of one'... XD

Although I know she likes a guy from her hometown (not told by Daniel but my 'informer'), although I'm a bit sad deep inside... but overall, I still wish to be good friends with her. Yes, I maybe upset by her actions in the past, but when you want to be a true gentleman, you need to forgive and forget. So I can only keep the pain inside and show the happiness out... no, I will not reveal the sadness out nor shall I be labelled 'emo', the type of people I hate the most! ><

As it was a tiring and happy day, I later went out yamcha with the two Ds in Cola Club, which is now renovated and looks way better than last time. The atmosphere was very relaxing, with the 2 live people singing. They were talented and the songs they sang was all top notch + my favourite songs. Hanging out like that is what I love to do with my buddies... ^^

I didn't feel tired at all although only slept 2 hours... but later when I reach home, I was dead sleepy. Happy day... end! XD

Friends are best

Yesterday should be a day to celebrate Yling and Daniel's bday, since the weeks before both of them were busy. So in the morning after sending my bro to the LRT, later went to cousin's house in Kepong to visit them and my grandma. She fell down and hurt herself, I felt so sad for her... poor grandma. Then later went back to prepare going out at night.

Called Daniel, no answer... sms him, no reply... That guy always like that de. Since he went for Angeline's convo which only starts at 5pm, I presume he won't be joining us out. Even if he join us, I doubt he will come all the way from UM to fetch me then go to Kepong. No transport... how am I to join my friends in Kepong!?

Last resort... I asked my mom permission to drive there, cause I drove there quite frequently last time. She agreed! So this is OFFICIALLY my first time driving out of Wangsa Maju area, on my own! Yeah!! So I drove to Jimmy's house and parked my car there. Then went into his car and we went for buffet steamboat, somewhere in Kepong. Those joined were me, Jimmy, WingC, SG, YLing and CMing.

The food was ok... quite a good place for steamboat buffet. I ate a lot, especially the Wall's ice-creams. Pistachio ice-cream... yum yum! We chat and joke around for hours. Daniel at last smsed me and say he couldn't make it (expected). Bday boy couldn't make it, a lost for him indeed... (but he would just say 'dont care/ dont mind', haha...).

I don't know why but I was really happy enjoying with them... forgetting all the problems of the world. They are some of my rare friends who appreciate me for who I am, who understands me and doesn't look down on me for some mistakes I did in the past. Thy enjoy my company as much as I appreciate having them around. These are what true friends are... and should always be. I hope this gang would last longer... before all get married and busy with their family then, lol...

Went back around 11.30pm... Jimmy sent me back to his house where I took my car and drove back. Speeding like the wind, I feel freedom... driving on the streets by my own, haha. Reached home in less than 30 min, it was fast indeed. Hope to see them again in our next outing, which should be when celebrating CMing and SP's bday... can't wait! XD

P/S: It felt good when Yling praised me for becoming so considerate and kind for taking nice food for the gang, which I myself don't even eat. Hope she will be happy and able to find a good man, soon... God bless her.

Hard to be mad...

It's strange... I was very pissed on Thursday night due to LG. Then on Friday while I was waiting to fetch CK to Wangsa Maju, I saw her at the bus stand. I know she's going to Wangsa Maju... and my mind says 'Don't need to bother her... she will go there herself. She won't appreciate even if you offer to send her there!'. Yup... I think so too. But my heart just couldn't bear it... being evil even for a little bit is so hard for me. After getting myself a headache of asking her or not, I decided to do what I will do to everyone, not only her... and that is to offer a ride. -_-

But I did not do 'too' much. I just send her to the LRT Wangsa Maju, where I need to pass the car to my bro, and he will fetch my mom there. So she needs to go back home herself... which is quite far away. Again my devil and angel side said 'She deserves to walk far, it's nothing compared to the mockery she did to me!' and 'Ah, so dangerous... I wish I could walk with her home'. Haha... with one swipe, the two thoughts dissapeared... as Daniel's car has reached to take us for yamcha and dinner. Funny is when I get into his car, I totally forgot about LG...

It's silly and stupid of me to think so much for her when she doesn't give nuts about me. I guess that's why I'm a lovefool... stupid and innocent. Hanging out with CK and W is way more fun than with her, so I should not think so much anymore. She won't be joining us for yamcha anymore unless the D's ask her out... yay >.>

Today W ponteng class so didn't come to college at all. Suddenly a friend was teasing me last night with her, cause she trusted me and send me her whole English assignment file. I said it was nothing but he kept teasing me this and that with W. Oh no... I hope this rumour won't grow 'bigger' else I might lose the friendship bond between me and W! I don't think it would... will it? Sigh... I think too much again! >.<