The end is coming, a new beginning is approaching...

Wow... been quite a long time since I blogged. Can't be helped, cause every time I wanted to blog, there's this 'bad feeling' that haunts me. Bad memories of me and LG becoming enemies... seems like I still can't shake the feeling off even though she's in the wrong. Hmm, looks like my feeling for her indeed became deeper else I wouldn't give a damn about a girl like her. Sigh, why la!?

The one month holiday is coming to an end... will be starting college again next week. Again my heart feels heavy and uncomfortable. So many things are playing in my mind now until I have dreams about it, both good and bad. Some of them are losing my good friends... need to find new group members... need to find new people to hang out with... worrying who will be in my new class, and etc. No doubt LG plays the biggest fear of all, as I don't know if I will be in the same class with her next sem... and what will I do if she IS? Ignore her, chat with her like nothing happened or...??? Kns, why am I always worrying about these petty stuffs?!!

Advance diploma is coming... more things to learn, more burden to handle. I don't want to mess up my mind with love stuffs like LG anymore! ><''

Had a nightmare this morning on LG... and it felt so real. I went to a place and accidentally bumped into her, eye to eye. She said nothing, nor did I. We just go to our own destination as though the other didn't exist. First I was relieved... then I felt kind of sad... and more sad. What does it all mean?

Two weeks ago went for bbq at YL's house. At first I was very happy, awaiting to see YL again. But when I DO see her... somehow the 'umph!' was not there anymore. Seeing her felt more like... 'just another friend' liao. It becomes worse when I heard about her expectations in her future BF. CM did so much more than me in wooing her, following her and pindah here and there so he can be close to her. Sophiya told us about this, and I was shocked. Poor CM has no chance with her... and I felt even further from her. The 2 of us fell for the same person, and if he doesn't stand a chance, where do I even stand? No wonder my feelings for her is disappearing. The jargon between us is just too wide and far away. My 10 year crush is going to stop, soon.....

I think I should just concentrate on my studies, no need to bother about love and stuffs. It's just too complicated for me to handle. It gives me more pain than happiness. Just studying, playing games, hanging out with friends and flirting around seems more carefree and happy for me. Oh no, am I becoming like Daniel!? lol...

Yesterday and today

Looking back, I'm amazed how yesterday and today was different, totally different...! Yesterday went to Jusco with David, Daniel, Sum and Lisa. It's because David got a special birthday discount voucher from Padini, that entitles him to buy any non-discounted Padini 'normal items' at 30% discount.

Although I didn't buy any (cause no size, obviously -_-;), I was happy cause I was able to choose 2 nice clothes that Daniel and David bought in the end. The truth is I wanted to buy THOSE if I could, but since I couldn't, I recommended to them... and they bought it! See, my fashion sense not bad man! XD David also bought another t-shirt while Lisa bought a cute girl hat, that's round and white in color...

Then window shopping some more, after that headed for Dota. 3vs2, my team won (all 3)! But I was lucky for getting a good char too in AR, hehe... After that head back, but scolded by mom for buying food back (at first she ask me to eat out, then she cook for me -_-;). Oh well, had a blast earlier, so no worries... :P

Then a strange thing happened today. I think I had 2-3 dreams last night... and somehow, I managed to grasp a bit of what I dreamt when I woke up. With a sudden urge to become a successful man, I had another weird thinking of turning a little elements from the dream... to an idea. An idea to make a fun and facinating site, which if becomes successful, may even be as 'hot' and good as facebook!

Lol... sounds impossible right? I'm amazed myself... how could a nobody like me, thought of an idea that could maybe change the world? Of course the chances are slim... as slim as 0.001%? But it may happened! If the ideas I brainwashed could be turned into a nice website as I hoped (with David and Daniel's help, both in programming and finance), the website could be realised! But whether it could be accepted by the people, it's not yet analyzed. Whatever it is... I hope our wish to be young entrepreneurs will be successful. If not, at least we tried, right? Then, back to school for me... >.<'''

Dreams

2 days ago had a nightmare, where I was in my old school and no one knows me... and everybody treats me like a foreign object. Damn irritating dream...! -_-; But last night was rewarded with a nice dream... a dream of her. There was nearly a 'blue' scene, where we were acting like the foreigners. It was in the bathroom... She was taking a shower, and so am I. We were separated by the 'kain' (I forgot what they call those hanging kain liao >.<) in the bathroom... It was so embarassing! But it only happens in dreams... XD

The weird thing is nothing happened in the end. She dress up and go out through another door (there's another door behind the shower!?) then I follow suit. It got weirder when we were on a mission to save her dad, when in real life her dad has already passed away a long time ago. Three of us was on a mission... oh, did I forgot to tell you the third person is none other than, yes... Daniel! -_-; Maybe got no transport, thats why he is there, LOL! What mission I forgot liao, except the part where we need to find her father (for something).

I wonder what do that dream mean? Just last night I was thinking 'Oh, looks like I don't miss YL that much liao... wonder what she is doing nowadays?' and terus dreamt of her that same night. Swt... I'm still sick! Argghhhhh.....!! T_T

Who knows what word is this? Guess! XD

Can you control dreams?

Did you ever experience before, where you are sleeping and dreaming... but then you are half awake, and you KNOW you are dreaming? I have... but rare, cause most of the time ppl sleep of course full-sleep la, where got half-sleep one. I donno this morning or yesterday morning, I kena again...

I forget what the dream is about liao (cause sleeping) but I remembered the part where I think to myself 'Eh, I'm dreaming la... wonder if I can control my own dreams? I want to dream of YL! YL quickly show up in my dream, quick!' Swt... you also must be swt-ing and saying 'Ha!? Like that also can!?!?' and 'This guy is love sick again...!' -_-;

LOL... but sad to say, you CANT control your dream when you are half awake/ half sleep, eventhough you wanted to. I tried, and in the end also no fond memories of dreaming about YL... >.< From my 'experiments', I realised you normally dream of something/ someone when you think/ do it, a lot of times... when you are awake. Thinking of it when you gonna sleep or when sleeping tak jadi one! (usually) XD

Maybe I should become a dream scientist one day, who knows? :P

Nice dream and Jatukarm

Well... actually it was not THAT nice of a nice dream. Just dreamt that I went out to see the movies with my group of friends, and she came and sit beside me although she can sit with the other girls... What can I say, I'm easily happy with the simpliest things XD (Oh, this could be a sign... cause we are going out to see a movie later this month. If it really happened, then it means I could read the future! LOL)

Have you seen the newspaper on last Sat? I saw an article about a special pendant call 'Jatukarm'... it is from Thailand. Originally they were 300 of them, but it wasn't special and is very cheap only, when you buy it THEN. Now, those pendants are said to posses special good luck charm to those that wears it... and a millionaire bought one of the originals for RM200,000! A pendant that is not made of gold or diamonds, now worth THAT much... incredible!

The pendant is still being manufactured from a special sacred temple in Bangkok. Almost everyone in Bangkok have one, and that special pendant craze is said to boost Thailand's economy by 0.5%! Guess everyone including foreigners also want one. Oh, the original pendants is also said that it will grant it's bearer's wishes in an hour! I also want one of that!! XD

One of the story I remembered reading from the newspaper is that a person armed 5 of them, and wanted to go to the airport. He got an airport limousine at the cost of 50% off. Then upon arrival at the airport, he discovered the airport tax has been diminished and he saved some money again. At KLIA, he saw a friend who sent him home, so he saved again! Upon reaching his home, he received a mailed cheque in his postbox. Then he received a phone called that a friend of his offer him a 6ft tall, wooden Buddha statue that he was admiring at his home 2 months back... and he sent it to him the next day! A few days later a friend sent over a juicer he was so taken with at her home.....

Next time my friend goes to the bangkok, I must ask him/her to buy me a Jatukarm pendant from Nakorn Si Thammarat temple, which a clay one only cost Rm3... and a Jade one can cost until RM350. So are you convinced too? XD

Another weird dream...

Just have an afternoon nap, and then remembered I have another weird dream...

I was a detective... and whatever clues I say and guess will lead to another crime scene... But it was just me, I dont work with the police or anything. Then while on my 'investigations' on a crime scene, I saw Jimmy, WingC and YL. Looks like they are 'curious' and wanted to see how I was doing. Hey, I donno why... I feel more energetic and able to think even more clearly on solving the mysteries! Swt... how come she's in the picture again? >.<

Weird dreams...

Strange... this evening I slept and silly as it sounds, I was having a stomach ache in it (with my bro too, lol). But when I wake up, I really had a stomach ache! Half asleep, I went to the toilet after that. So from my pint of view, stange dreams happen when you either think/do repeatedly of something/ someone... or it will automaticly changed according to what is happening around you, when you are sleeping (like ppl call you, u dream u talking with that person etc.) It happens not so often, but when you think of it throughly... it does. Strange isn't it? @@;

Busy and sien...

Sigh, headache with this lightwave stuff... looks harder than I thought it would be. Cant do it well enough, so have to find some 'shortcut' cause tomorrow have to pass up liao >.<

This morning had a weird dream... forget about it liao, but I think I become a hero or something and help my friends out of troubles. LOL... I become Superfriend? Maybe my mind is playing tricks on me because of the project pressure and this coming Sunday, I will meet them to celebrate my belated bday. Oh well... back to work! >.<

Dream no. 8...

Finally, another weird realistic dream that I remembered... It's me and my gang of TARC (include Sum and Daniel) went to Genting. This time, me and YL were a couple! :P But weird... I realised that she weren't that 'perfect' I hope her to be, so when we DID couple, we are as close that time as we are NOW. Maybe my heart turned sour and finally I 'woke up', in my dreams! LOL..... I still love her (in the dream), but not as much as I am now. Maybe that's why they say a relationship isn't the same before and after it starts. Bummer...!

At that time, Genting sure turned super advanced. I only remembered the horrifying ride, in which you travel from one building to another (usually on cable cars) but this time just on seats! There is no cable car, just a couple of (super) ropes and a sit, and you're off! The cable was also moving fast, and we travelled through jungle and mountain areas without any protection!! As we are 'tangling' on the ropes, so the journey keep on swinging left, right, front, back, up and down! My heart nearly fell out when I finally were able to stand, on the other side of the building with my friends. I wonder if such an 'adrenaline pumping' ride will really exist in the future?? @_@;

Dream no. 7... and some other news

Lol, this time I dreamt of SG... no, not as a lover, but as a sister or step-sister. She was in my dream and I think not concentrating on her studies (like my bro) and wanted to change to another course. So my mom (with a loud voice) scolded her and ask her why don't she continue and tell her not to give up so easily... Lol, my dreams are getting weirder by the days. Last time I forget to post I was trying to woo Win Win, 'his' dream gf... WTH!? ROTFLMAO ^^;

Germany won against Ecuador by 3-0 while England lost, heard from the radio. Aiyah, I thought England was sure to qualify but now it seems like a bit impossible liao. Sayang...

For Maple Fans, Maple is having an Anniversary gathering in Malaysia soon. To my surprised, it will be held in Asia Pacific Institute of Information Technology (APIIT) at Technology Park Malaysia. So if anyone is going, make sure to tag me along! Else I won't be going cause it's sooooo far away! -_-;

Dream no. 6...

Wth... took a bit of nap this morning and dreamt again! This time it's really strange... something about my aunt from London come visiting, found some alien (who posed as humans) friends, fell in love with my relative's daughter (EWW!!) and called some ghost busters, Chinese style! Lol... come to think of it, all those things were so strange... how do I still believe it myself, inside the dream? Maybe you need to or it IS reality, in the dream...? No matter... it's all just a dream. Here's a poem for dreams, lol...

When I need you, I'll hold you tight,
When I want you, I'll miss you everynight,
Whenever I want to, all I have to do,
Is dreaaammmm... dream, dream, dream.....

Taste your lips sweet as wine,
Walk with you underneath the sun,
But all I know is just fake cream,
All I could do is only dream.....

Dream no. 5...

When I woke up at 6.45am today, I went to the toilet. While brushing my teeth in a half wake up state, I start to feel... that I had another 'deep' dream today. Trying hard to remember what I just dreamt... finally I remembered! Maybe cause my mind was 'itchy' and last night before I went to sleep, I think a bit of 'her'. Yup... you guess right, last night I dreamt of 'her', AGAIN! T_T

Maybe I asked for it... why did my hand become 'itchy' and take a look at my h/p, where I saw her face (in super small megapixel) with my other friends. Weird how dreams can sometimes be effected by our own doings... Anyway, the dream was NOT a sweet one. I just remembered the bad part of it, where (as realistic as it seems) she was there, and my friends took single picture with her. What else but the 'green monster' inside me was on 'angry mode' at that time. She even look so happy taking single pictures with them... but not me T-T... To make it worse, some of my friends (Eith, u ARE one of them!) tease me cause I don't go take a picture with her. What a nightmare! Luckily my alarm rang and it woke me up from that horrible, realistic dream...!

OkOK, I will stop now... If not nanti ppl will complain I write to much of her again, although I really do (somebody kill me now!) >.<; What to do, I considered this as my virtual diary and of course I write what I feel like in my diary, right? Nvm about me and go do your stuffs now... Cheers! ^^;

Dream no. 4...

Haha, strange... yesterday I suddenly talk with my bro about my friends, including SP... and last night I dreamt of her! LOL, dont misunderstand, it's not me and her as a pair... It's just like a normal gathering with friends, but some ppl didnt go. Then, with a cute and sad face, she tell us how she loved 'him' and cried... I, as a friend, with SG (I think, not sure who liao but is another girl) try to comfort her and talk with her to make her feel better. I also feel sad for her cause 'he' dont appreciate such a nice and cute girl like her, in the dream la... :P

Then *poof* I woke up... what a weird dream! Sigh... I also feel sad for her, cause maybe I was (or still am) in the same situation like her before. Love doesnt always go 2 way, like we hoped it would. But friends are always there for you, so appreciate friends more than your lover...!?? LOL, I also donno, just take it as crappiness... >.<

P/S: To protect the fame of 'him', his name will not be revealed in this blog... :P

Dream no. 3...

What (another) weird dream I had last night... Dreamt of meeting back my old girl friend, Wei Ing. She used to hang out a bit with me but now went overseas to study, I heard. In the dream, she came to my house. Then my mom talk and joke with her, as I listened to what they said. My mom even lend her a t-shirt to wear... the point is, she was so friendly with me and my mom in the dream... like we used to be. She was even more 'gentle' and beautiful too, in the dream.

It's a pity that dreams are just the opposite of reality. I was happy to see her and be friend with her once again, like last time. Sigh... thinking back now, most of my secondary school friends are also 'gone with the wind' liao... T-T

Dream no. 2...

Yesterday I dreamt that I was a cowboy, like Clint Eastwood... In a town people are struck with fear because of some bad apples in the town. Then I tell them, "Have no fear, go behind me, and I will protect you...!" Of course they all shelter behind me, and as I cross the town, I shoot down all the bad guys like swatting flies. Then I woke up... ah, another hero dream gone again! :P

Had a wonderful love dream last night!

Oh... what a wonderful dream I had last night. Lately been dreaming a lot, donno why. But last night is another love dream that I remembered and cherished. In the dream, I asked a cute but a bit short girl to be my gf, and she agreed! Then we kissed and dance in the ballroom where everyone is watching in envy, seeing us dance happily and lovingly.

Not sure who she is, but I remembered I need to bend down to kiss her, LOL... She's so cute, adorable, shy, short and nice! Ahh... Another dream that wont come true, sigh..... T_T