Sick so no updates for a long time...

Argh... been so sick these couples of days, my bro jangkiti me. Hit by fever, headache and super pain sorethroat. Lucky Daniel send me see doctor that day else lagi susah... thx Daniel! Sigh, sien la... sick only suddenly got friend gathering, so I cant go meet back my old secondary school friends. can only hear from Daniel what going on with those guys and gals... anyway, feeling much better now since last week but still a bit headache (too much sleep? lol...) and need to do school projects somemore, so forgive me if I sometimes no update my blog >.<; cya...!

The holidays are over... but fun!

Wow, times sure fly when u r having fun... just 2 days holiday, mana cukup?!? well, at least I have fun on both days. Tuesday went to Sg Wang... see the cool (n expensive) IMAX 3D movie, which that we pick is Open Season. It was quite chun, cause u can see the movie is so 'close' to u, as though u can touch it... But Rm20 a movie, I think ot's a bit too expensive. Oh well, after movie go Lowyat, jimmy want to buy some DVD. Then yamcha at the Hainan, inside Lowyat. Eat my fav 'che cheong fan' while we talk and laugh... so good! Then walk back to Sg Wang where oon and Sg have to depart back liao, while me stay with WingC and Jimmy. Jimmy bought a new com spectacle which cost RM600++! But can claim company la, so nice...! After that see some game and DVD before going back home, by bus. Then have to wait quite a long time for the taxi, cause holiday season, not enough taxi!! >.< Reach home 10 something, argh...!

Wednesday go Sg Wang again, this time 'karaoke time'! At first my mom doesnt give cause went out till so late yesterday and I was so tired too... but called Daniel on Tuesday night and he baru balik from Thailand, and he say can go + drive there... so go la! :P He was late cause overslept, but drive there was quick so we are late a bit only. Sg and WingC in the room, and Oon still havent arrive. So we order food and sing first before he came later. I didnt sing much but watch them sing also okla, lol... Then go buy Sg's new keyboard and later go BP Plaza to wait for SG's mysterious 'net friend'. He didnt come! WingC then go back. So we decided to go yamcha at the newly renovated KFC in Sg Wang... While we were drinking, SG net friend called and wanted to come meet her.

So Daniel n Sg go fetch the guy while me and Oon waited in te KFC restaurant. All of them came later, and the 'mysterious' guy wasnt as bad as we thought. Looks successful, wore spectacles, quite tall with an average body size... the only problem with him is his conversation was boring and he was a bit timid, cause first time meet us all ma :P Daniel, like normal, break the ice and we hear him and the guy, Steven talk most of the time. He went to do something later and we continue to talk about Sg's new 'net friend' and gossip more, lol... Not too bad, I will give the guy a "B", hehe... Nearly six, then we went back home while me and Daniel chatted more in the car. The end of another nice and 'interesting' day in Sg Wang, woohoo...! ^^

Ah Ming, an old friend visited me tonight...

Long time no see him, and suddenly he asked to yamcha tonight. Because only him, I just said we chat at my apartment area only, no need suah payah go far2 to yamcha 2 person only... Talk a lot of stuffs, and seems like I'm not the only one who's being 'unlucky' in this world... Compared to his troubles, mine is C gred while his is A! His HP and his sister's has been cheated by a scumbag, who cheated a lot of ppl at the same time before disapearing to Hell!! Poor him... he already lost Rm2 k to the stupid direct selling company, now this. And to make things worse, his family member didnt support him and accused him of selling the HP for his own purpose...! -_-;

Argh, life is so full of hardship and suffering...! Sometimes we hope to just die and let it all passed, but it is not the real solution. What about your family? What about your parents? What about the people who cares for you? But do we live for ourselves or for them? We can't be perfect and make everyone happy, so what should we do!?!? Thinking more of this only makes my head and heart pains even more... Better just relax and go see a movie with my friends tomorrow. Friends is my source of 'power' to live on happily and see the world in a more 'positive' way...! @@;

Holiday season...

The holidays are here... most ppl balik kampung, some stayed in KL. I am one of those staying in KL, and when I see the streets less ppl and car, then I know "Wow, less ppl so not crowded liao!" lol... Oh well, today went pasar pagi with my mom and saw a relative there also. Looks like they are not going back too. Stay in KL and find more money, like most of us (and Eith, lol)... Anyway, Happy (belated) Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya to all! Peace!! ^^

Holidays coming...!

To those that is working, the holidays is coming liao... balik kampung or go vacation? Me ah? Looks like stay at home 'eat wind' la, lol... hope my friends can come up with a gathering else sure sien holiday at home! >.<;

Hazy and lazy...

What the Hell... so long and the haze is still so much in KL. When will Indonesia stop making us die faster? The haze make me cannot open the window or go out as frequent. My mom is also sick from the bloody haze... When will it all end!?!!

Malaysia or overseas?

More and more articles I read that says living in Malaysia is getting from worse to worse. If you got a chance will you still work in Malaysia or overseas? I wonder...

Freedom then doomsday...!

Wth is wrong with my school...!? Next week will be another holiday but then next week, we are supposed to do presentation on our progress!!! WTF?!?! We didnt do ANY cause busy with practical training (4 days a week plus one more day com class in school), and he expect us to finish it in less than 3 weeks!? Stupid school...!!!

And worse, our final presentation is on early December, or maybe early January! WTH?!? Isn't it supposed to be 3 months AFTER our practical only final...!!? Stupid school, like to chg rules suka-suka! Arghhh...!! No diplomacy!!! Shitty school...! >(

Can ex (or secret admire) become friends again?

Long have I seen this question, pooping up again from time to time... The real question is, can you become friend again with ur ex or secret admirer (or crush), friend? Well, most of the time... you can. But easier said than done, most ppl need time in doing so... some months, other years! A girl I once have a crush on rejected me, and I didn't want to see nor talk to her until like... 3 years later. Well, maybe I'm lucky (or not?)... but she got married, so I can feel 'better' when talking to her, not that awkward anymore. What can I say? Time will slowly heal a wound... but lucky I confronted her and expressed my feelings that time, else I will be 'stuck' like I am with 'her' until now... So take that final blow and heal later! lol...

A short poem

I have never thought, because I never forgot,
What it feels to be with a love one,
What I have sought, can never be bought,
In the end, again I aimlessly run...

Work and ambitions

Have you ever stop and think... 'Am I doing the job that I love, or just because there's no other choice?' As many of you would agree, what we wished to work as (our ambition), in the past, is not the same as what we turn up to work as, in the future. There's too many ppl, but too little work available. Getting a job now is considered lucky, but working in a job that you loved is super lucky! Thus I'm still thinking now... what will I do when I graduate? Will I become one among the working zombies? Or will I be happily participating everyday, working in the job that I love...? I donno, only time can tell (but I wish for choice 2!) ^^;

P/S: I salute to all the working ppl out there, that have to endure everyday of 'pain' until now... :P

First love

First love... isn't that a wonderful feeling? There is even a hit song named 'First love' from a Japanese singer, Utada Hikaru and it's still a nice song to be heard now. Maybe ppl like listen to it cause it reminds them of thier very own 'first love'...

And like I always said, first love is the deepest. If you are REALLY lucky, then the first love could in the end be your wife/ husband. Somehow... I think that first love relationships will go a loooooooong way, if both also have their lover as their first love. Why? Cause you will love truly, madly and deeply with your first love... because you have never love someone else before (except your parents) that much.

I've felt it before, that's why I know. I have seen my friends felt it before, that's why I know. Like me, their first love is hard to be forgotten and even if it doesn't work out, the memories will still live deep inside. Some may even HOPE he/ she will be together with his/ her first love again... but most failed, cause not everyone is lucky. So, be like me... and cherish the first love and let it go. The real 'one' is somewhere, out there and you will meet him/ her soon. All you can do now is let it be..... T_T

Denial... not Daniel *lol*

Long has I been in my group of friends, and I have seen so much denial. What is denial? Denial is when you don't acknowledge something which is true... and you keep on saying or thinking it's not. You might be the only one who say it's not, but all the ppl around you say it is. Is that not denial enough? Well... some still deny it till their last breath, and never awaken from their 'dream'.

It happened to me too... I denied what my friends said, and I still thought that I have a chance with her. Now I have awaken and will not deny it no more. I will accept the hard and harsh truth, and do something about it. Instead of pretending, why not change for the better right?

So, to those that have been denying something all this while... it's time to wake up. I know it won't feel good, sad or painful... but you need to accept it like I do and do the right thing. Denying it any further will only make it worse and depressing. If you dont know what you are denying, then you should even do more about it! Cheers... ^^

Feelings.....

Wow... Didn't really know until I finally made up my mind to not woo 'her' anymore, did I realized that apart of me feels... 'missing'. God didn't make the world in a day, so I couldn't forget her that fast too. Although I don't want to think of her anymore... deep inside my heart, I really feel 'empty'. Oh well, time will slowly heal my wounds. I hope I don't need to see her soon, so that I could recover peacefully and slowly. And please don't remind me of 'her', especially Eith and Rukawa... Else I cannot heal, then I blame you! LOL... :P

I have been a fool...

Yes, I admit I have been the lovefool all this while... but hearing it from someone else's mouth makes me feel like... an even bigger fool. All this while, I have tried hard to make her happy... but not only did she not appreciate it, she even avoided me. It was so obvious, I thought only I can see it... but now I know it's not. I feel so mad, now that I think of it... why didnt I wake up? Why did I keep on disgracing myself... for a girl who dont give a damn if I live or die in this world? My heart was crushed when I FINALLY awaken by the cruel fact... that it was really one sided all along, with no chance of success at all in the beginning...

Thus, with a heavy heart... I have declared myself to stop loving her. YES, really 100% STOP loving 'HER'...!!! The love of my life, which I never loved so much for so long before... will finally be erased from my heart. I will not feel jealous, mad nor sad... She is a nobody in my life already. I have so much more better friends than her, and I shall one day take the final step of erasing her h/p humber from my phone, and all the SMS's that I kept... i will never want to see her name anymore. I will not use her name in another game I play, and I will not even think that I have the slightest chance of being with her anymore, in the future. It will be a big step, but I shall walk the path of determination. I will not love but hate, I will not miss but despise... and I shall not fall beneath the cluthes of that evil witch, anymore!

I wont even give her a chance if she were to accept me in the future, cause all these six years of pain is more than enough to prove that she doesnt deserve my love at all. I will not wept for her, because I know it will be useless and she will only laugh at my misery. I shall become a stronger man and find someone worthy of my love. Begone you accursed woman, for I shall be reborn as a new man!!! Those who post comments in this post here, be my witness!

Yesterday was a fun and 'informative' day...

Went out with my friends yesterday. It was very sudden cause they informed me on Sat and I was about to go out with Sum on Sunday to play cards but as they asked me first, so I gave them the priority... lol. Wake up early morning at 730am, Sunday... omg, I must be crazy. Then chat with my dad in MSN cause he accidentally twisted his arm plus its his bday today! I made a Happy Bday picture and send to his email too. Then rush to prepare up myself and walk down the hill, in the hazy morning which is definitely bad for me! >.<; Lucky I didnt wait for long and the bus came, and as I reach wangsa maju the bus was just about to leave, so double lucky! ^^

Then reach Sg Wang early, terus walk to Times Square. Waited for nearly half an hour only SG came, alone. Saide Oon will be late, so we both go and try book Neway first. At Neway they say we need to wait till 1130 to see if there is still any room left, but that will make us left 1 and a half hour to sing! (cause lunch package till 1pm) Oon later reach, so we try calling Red Box. They say there is still room left at Sg Wang, so we walk all the way back there.

Went inside Redbox, sing out hearts out and ate. When nearly 1pm (which is the time we check out) Daniel came. Thought no need include him in the ppl list but then the staff came and say must order or 'bungkus' back. So shit! So Daniel ordered his food and ate, fortunately our time extended to 2pm also, donno why... :P

After that went to Sg Wang to buy some stuffs, then walk to lowyat and see some com stuffs. The 3 of them bought some com stuufs, then we walk down to yamcha at the Hainan restorant. Drink and rest there for quite some time, and it was really interesting and more enjoyable than with a bunch of ppl... donno why, lol. Wow, talk until so late liao, so we decided to continue our 'interesting' conversation over dinner. We walk for some time, thinking what to eat. Then I found an interesting place, Secret Recipe and we went to eat there. It was expensive but a bit worth it la, cause the food was nice. Chat some more 'interesting' conversations and it was really fun, wished it would continue for the whole night!

So we parted as it was 9pm++ liao... wow, so late! Me and Daniel took the bus home while SG and Oon took the Monorail. On the way continue some more 'interesting' conversation with Daniel and finally reached home at about 12am... siao. So today went out for more than 13 hours, gila man! But it was really enjoyable. I have a lot of fun talking with them and I learned a lot from my mistakes, my history and my weakness. I realised something important from the eye of another friend... and I realised I was such a fool. I was angry and sad, yet happy to know that I should not carry this burden anymore, cause it is not my fault but hers..... Next time we must have it again, just the four of us, LOL...! Didnt 'feel' so good for such a loooooooong time! ^^

The air pollution is back...

Yup, the haze IS BACK. With the current eye view, I couldn't even see the houses beneath my balcony (I live in high mountain area) and KLCC just 'vanished' without a trace. So serious, I have to close most of the windows and doors to not let the haze in. The ones working in office maybe not effected, but those who need to go to see clients sure 'kena' liao. MC! MC!! lol... Drink more water lor dudes... :P Dont say I didnt warn ya!

A new life awaits...

Went to see the teacher yesterday... and as expected, kena tiao... and worse of all, the teacher thinks it's my fault for kena sack. WTF, didnt he ever heard of 'berat sebelah' and unfairness? I was mistreated, hanged without a trial! Oh well, I'm starting to care less what the world thinks... tiao let them tiao, I dont care anymore.

And the shithead company writes that I have 'no interest' in working there... GO TO HELL LA U!!! I was doing the best I could, kena tiao also do like shit, no friends also work like shit... then she said I have no interest?!? Fu*k you Bit*h!!! Damn company politics... because I upset the art director, then he go complain to his bit*h creative director, and both gangbang 'kill' me on the spot, without me giving a chance to give any explanation. Life sucks when you see this kind of 'big rock kill small crab' situations. I wish them have a good life, in HELL!!!

Now I have to write a report on how my suckening life is, working with those bast*rds and bitc*es at that shit place... oh well, hope the teacher understands how I feel when I write how unfair I was treated there. If he STILL believe them, then to HELL with all of them... I don't care, I shouldn't care... I will become like Rukawa and don't give a damn liao how the world is... LOL.

P/S: Forgive me if there is too many 'tuutness' in this post. TY...

Cicilia Chung and Nicholas Tse married!

Wow... yesterday just saw her movie on the TV. It's a movie about the hardship of life, love and work. I saw it and almost shed a tear, so 'kam tong'... A very nice movie indeed, makes me think about my life too. Sigh...

Suddenly today saw in the newspaper that she is married to Nicholas Tze Ting Fong! Happy... to see her married a young, talented and handsome actor. Sad... cause she is not single anymore, lol. Oh well, I'm a fan of Cicilia Chung myself, so I wish her all the best with her new husband! Wish I get a gf as beautiful as her too... :P