The feeling of loneliness and confusion is bitter without a group to hang on to... I feel totally lost in the pit of abyss. No, it's not because I need a friend to cling on to. It's because I want to help them... as much as they help me. I will be happy in this mutual relationship... but now without a 'group', where am I to go?
I didn't know this would have such an impact on me... why should I care for people who doesn't care about me? Maybe it's because I put too much faith and hope on them... that they will do their best for me as I will for them. This trust is broken and I am deeply saddened. Why is it so hard to find true friends that will go through ups and downs with you in this world? Is true friends even harder to find than a needle in the hay?
Four more days to go... and I doesn't like the feeling at all. I wish to change class and forget all those so called 'friends', but with the class rep responsibility on my shoulders... I feel it is an irresponsible act. I must stay strong and face this challenge once again. I remembered last time when I have to change from one group to another in order to do group projects... and it was a terrible feeling. It is not that I am 'unwanted'... but I am the so called 'reserves', only picked because no group to join in. Now I felt what MC felt last time, when W didn't want her in her group. Hey, now W is DOING it to me! F**K her!!! >0
Forget it... like Eminem said 'You selfish B**ch I hope you F**ked in Hell and Shit!'. All I can do now is regret, learn and continue on with life. And even though I'm so mad, I still wish her Happy Bday yesterday... Damn! I'm like a good guy trying to be bad but gone all wrong... Shit! Shit!! Shit!!!
Hahahahaha..... Going to be crazy like Daniel liao, roflomgbbqsauce.....
