Sigh, already start missing the holidays! CNY week was fun as we went to Genting and then my bro came to Penang for nearly a week. We also did 'bai tin kong' which we didnt do for a long time already. We even blasted one of the firecrackers that dad bought a long time ago (luckily still usable) and left 3/4 bunch. It was tiring (as we slept around 3am) but an experience nonetheless. Parents won some money in Genting, which was used a lot when we ate around 3-4k worth of food for the whole duration with my brother, his wife and my aunt. Happiness can't be bought with money, haha...
Bonus was good (around 1.6x) but I heard some other colleagues get only 1.1x (because not set by my dad but by the big bad CEO). How I know this is because one of the girl (Half) wanted to resign and after asking around, this maybe the reason. She started work nearly the same time as me (when the company just opened) and wanted to leave now is too... sudden. A bad boss that doesn't appreciate the staffs will end up with nothing in the end. She's the 'happy go lucky' girl of our company, hope she doesn't go.
Actually a lot of bad things happened this year. A few days ago our company got flooded on the top floor because of a clogged drainage, causing a lot of damages to files and documents (storage area). Yesterday one of our truck toppled in Laos causing a lot of damages (carrying solar panels). As for me, my new shirt was torn just one day wearing it (too small I presume haha) and my sturdy sandal also broken yesterday. Have to be careful this year...
Recently I think to myself, is it ok to fantasize and keep on dreaming? Yes, this is what I do nearly everyday. It keeps me motivated to live my life. It keeps me happy instead of worrying about life. It's what makes me sleep soundly until the next morning. But... is it REALLY ok? I think it's ok, as long as there is no harm to myself or to people around me. Your mind is what you make of it anyway.
Would it be better if you don't dream but feel empty and lonely everyday? Would it feel better if you stop fantasizing but put your feet on the ground and concentrate on work and money? I don't... that's why I live everyday as happy as I can make of it. I KNOW that my dreams won't be a reality. I UNDERSTAND that fantasies are just an illusion. The most important question is to ask yourself... Are You Happy NOW? I can say 70%, I AM~! And that's enough... for me. So I wish all of you are too. Live life happy, everyday. Adios~!
