Boring update

It's the first week of my holidays and I'm already dead bored... the other PC haven't fix, so no DOTA=more bored! So what to do, play Restaurant City in Facebook and 'My Brute' to cure a little bit of the boringness...

And when you're bored, you sure will have a lot of free time to do nothing. So LG again pops into my mind... that's why I hate boring holidays! But I noticed how silly man are to make themselves suffer (include myself) by thinking these stupid and useless things, while girls will not waste even one minute thinking about the boy... That is why although man are born with physical power than won most woman, they usually lost in terms of mental strength too (man get tension faster than woman do, scientifically proven). That shows how equal humans are...

Idiotically I suddenly have the urge and smsed her yesterday, asking how is her exams, is she back in hometown? One part of me says there is nothing wrong doing that, cause we are just friends... but another part of me says how stupid it is to that, because it will sound desperate and weak. F**k, I did it already, don't give a S**T about it anymore. And she haven't reply me... not that I care (haha...).

I need to change my attitude since the second year of my studies is coming... change my image too if possible. Change my feelings cause it's useless... and change my target too. Be a stronger class rep and a smarter student... This is my vow for the second year! Yataaa~!!

Living as a human is complicated

Just finished yamcha with Daniel, Devince and Jane at Steven Corner Pandan Indah... Very weird, cause usually Daniel won't go so late as Sunday morning got church. But still go cause Jane got a 'problem', haha... Moved at 11pm, ended around 4am, siao!

Talk about a lot of stuffs (although most of the time I just do the listening), but mostly on love and relationships. From what I heard, I can summarize that girls are greedy, boys are egoistic... in some way or another. Of course, not all are like that, but MOST are, haha. So why do I say that? Here are some examples:-

Girls- Love companionship, friendship, love-ship, outings, gifts, praises and the list goes on. But boys misunderstood most of these 'greediness' as love, thus in the end the boy will get hurt, thinking the girl love him. Actually she just like going out with him...

Boys- Damn egoistic, thinking they need to show power, pride, money, security and etc to girls in order to win their heart. But they didn't know that sometimes they are being used, and sometimes the girl don't feel anything at all no matter how much you do for her. Thus you can say the boy is digging his own grave for not knowing the real feeling and needs of the girl...


Hmm... actually what am I trying to say from the example above?? Just to let you know, humans are complicated creatures! XD

The level of kindness

There's very few kind people left in this world... or I could be wrong. Not to exaggerate, but I was once what they call 'kind till come out sauce' type (sound so wrong translated). But over the years becoming a human being, I slowly adept to the cruel and harsh world called 'reality'. Where crime does not pay, kindness have no value and kind ppl end up last in line...

Sure you need kindness, but how kind will you be 'kind'? From my observation, there's a couple of kindness. Giving an example:

There's a girl carrying a lot of baggage who seem to be lost. She ask you for directions. So what will a kind person do?

Level 1 kindness
You will tell her the way in detail if you know the way, else you will say sorry cause you also don't know where and leave...

Level 2 kindness
You will tell her the way and follow her halfway, in case she doesn't know the way. If you don't know the way, you will help ask people around and take her halfway there.

Level 3 kindness
You will help take her stuff and bring her to the place without asking anything in return. If you don't know the way, you will help take her baggage and ask around then walk until the destination before returning back her baggage.

How frequent will any of us reach level 3 kindness? Rare, because we are too busy with our own 'stuffs'. Many will think 'Why should I help her so much when I don't know her?' or 'What if she's a con-woman? I better mind my own business', etc... Isn't it sad to see how the world have developed until a stage where you need to think twice before helping somebody out?

Most will think it is better not to help and let her/him be independent. Some will think helping is a waste of time and may danger themselves. Others will think kindness is only for the ones you know, not for everyone or anyone on the streets...!

I was once lvl 2 or 3, but now turned to lvl 1, sadly. I can only say that many 'bad' incidents turned me around... many people affected me to 'downgrade'... many examples that shattered my feelings. What I hate most is that kindness are always taken for granted and not appreciated, turning my heart darker and darker. How I wish I could be like my mom, who did the above in kindness level 3... but I doubt so I could. Maybe in the far future... but not anytime soon.....

The case of Datuk Ahmad Ismail finally over?

As most of you have seen (or heard), Datuk Ahmad Ismail have been suspended of any post in the party for 3 years. This is the result of angering a lot of component party members, especially Gerakan. In my opinion, it is a fair judgement passed on to him for giving such racial remarks in the open, especially since he's not any ordinary citizen but the Bukit Bendera's division chief. With power comes responsibilities, so next time try to think 200% more before giving racist statements... even though it doesn't mean any harm or whatsoever. People are mighty sensitive in these stuffs! >.<

I'm not saying only him, but all people should stop hurling such insults in the open. How can Malaysia be a harmonious country if there is doubts and prejudice among each other? I think those racists should go back into college and study what I'm going to have as an exam this Friday... Hubungan Etnik! lol

p/s: Just my two cents of opinions, don't flame me k? :P

It's how you see life

This world is so hectic, so full of pain and suffering. It's not a perfect world, so most people feel sad or suffer more than the other lucky ones. You can see people died of diseases, people suffering from not enough food. There's people will lived in fear of war, and people who suddenly died in a car crash. So many deaths, so many suffering... it's sad to see them all.


For those who can help them, please do. It's because you're able, only do they end up being a better human being. For people who can't even take care of themselves yet (like me), we must try our best to be useful people and study smart, work hard. This is because we are lucky and we must feel grateful for we are blessed a better life than most are. Don't waste it by doing stupid things like taking drugs, rob, rape or committing suicide. You don't know how many people wish to be in your shoes, so don't waste it...!


But then, some are feeling down even though they are working or studying. Sure, life is full of ups and downs, but you can't let the little things pull you down. You need to think positively, and then most troubles will be solved easier. If you are scolded, take it as a remark to be stronger and better so you will be praised the next time. If you are troubled by something you did, do something about it or just let it slide... don't go to a corner of the room and wept, it will do you no good.


What I'm trying to say is it's how you see life, that determines how your life goes. If you think happy, you're a carefree person. If you think too much, you're gonna mess up your life with troubles. If you think sad, then the world will look gloomy and you are bound to be 'emo'. So try to be happy and don't let people's word make you depressed or angry. Take it as one ear in, the other ear out... live the life you want it to be, not the way people want you to be, and you will feel much better inside. What's happiness when you, yourself, aren't happy? :P

Only the calm and disiplined can gamble

One thing I learn from my parents, is the way they gamble (in casinos at Genting). My mom and dad are two person with different attitudes when they gamble on the roulette table. Why? Here's what I observed:

My dad is the 'lucky and big money' type. He always believes in his few favourites number to open. So, he will put a lot of chips on those numbers, then a little on some other, in case he don't win, he still get back some. The outcome? He will either win BIG or lose BIG, because he won't stop until the time comes. If win, he will keep going because he thought it is his 'day'. If lose, he will keep trying because he thought that sooner or later, his favourite number will surely come.


My mom on the other hand is the 'play safe' type of person. She only plays a certain amount (for instance RM300). Then she will find a place to sit and observes the number that comes. After quite some time, she will analyse what number that will comes next, and put a bit on some different numbers that she analysed. The outcome? She will either lose the small amount of money she used earlier, and walk away... OR she will win, small or big. Usually she wins more than lose, impressive!


So what can I conclude from this? It shows that men need to be thinking straight no matter what you are doing. They cannot give lust, greed or power to change their actions and mindset, which usually end up bad. They need to be rational and not greedy... because it is better to be safe than sorry, late than never. Trying to always take the easy and fast way will not guarantee success, and using dirty tactics will usually make you suffer. Keep going the straight road, and you will eventually reach the end... in one piece.



P/S: This post is not telling you that you should gamble in a 'good' way as your occupation or hobby, ok?

A strange and crazy world

Most of us are busy with our own lives. Some are busy working their lives off to find money. Some are dying of starvation and can do nothing about it except pray. Others are living their days like another normal day, with their own problems and happiness. Most are just busy trying to take care of their own lives before having the power to help others, if they want to...


Lately the prices of rice, an all important food especially for Asians, are sky-rocketing in other countries. This has causes so many people to unable to buy rice and they have to substitute it with other foods. No doubt Malaysia will be affected, and the prices of other foods like Mee Hoon will also rise because of this. Another hike!? Most probably...


Then comes news of the Math genius, Sufiah Yusof, who turns into a prostitute. It's a bit related to Malaysia because the mother comes from Johor. I was first curious, because I don't know there's a Math Genius from Malaysia (she went into Oxford at the age of 12... 12!?! I was happy to get 4As for my UPSR at 12, but she passed... OXFORD!?). Then I was shocked, because his dad was imprisoned for sexually assaulting two 15 years old girls, as he home tutored them in Math! What kind of pervert is he!?


Finally I was sad, that his once so smart and innocent girl, eventually turned into a prostitute to earn money for a living. Maybe she was mentally and physically abused when young, thus the outcome now. Sad... sad... I really hate those idiotic parents who forced their children so hard, that in the end, they do more harm than good. Some of my friends are like that too. Stupid fools!!


The world is getting weirder and crazier as we evolve. From mouse growing human ears at their back, to goats giving super threads as milk... this world is so advanced, it's scary. There are even robots that can combine themselves to become a bigger and better robot... on their own! No wonder people come up with movies that show the end of the world, in the hands of the thing we created ourselves. Maybe human will extinct because of their own actions in the future... if we don't die of pollution and global warming first!

Love is blind... or opposite attracts?

Everyone knows that love is a strange and funny thing. We cannot explain how love works or scientifically acknowledge how to control love. Love comes from the heart, mind and soul. But because of that, we sometimes choose the wrong partner based on the word 'love' alone...


So the question in my mind is, which is the cause of these random love? Do a girl love another guy who she never seen before in her life, because love is blind... or because the guy is totally the opposite of her? Why I ask this is because I have seen many couples which are totally the opposite of each other (example stingy/ kind, hard-headed/ understanding, short/ tall, fat/ thin, beautiful/ not beautiful), yet they stayed together and may even get married one day.


So, do these couples like each other because he/she can fill up the weakness of each another? Maybe, since bad and old habits are hard to change. Some doesn't even want to change as it build their characters. So finding a person who can love you for you are (even with your bad traits) will somehow develop the 'love' and 'like' feeling in the heart and mind, and eventually you will think he/she is the one for life!


But some 'ambitious' ones will think 'I will change his bad attitudes when we are married'. Come on... how many do you think can REALLY do that?!? For example, in the first place he like you because he thought you like him for who he is. But after married, the wife tries to change the husband, and eventually he will think 'I have fell in love with the wrong woman!'... so finally divorce will come soon after. Why don't she think of changing him BEFORE marriage? The reason maybe because she is confident he will change slowly but surely in the future OR she's scared she will lose him if she tries to change him now (but will get worse AFTER, lol). These thinking are sooooo wrong!


I really pity those that is trying hard to maintain their relationship but deep inside, the love is really slowly dying, without realising it. Love should not be so painful or suffering... love should be enjoyed by both and the feeling must be mutual and true. Trying to be one you are not or keeping everything inside will not make you happy, and after marriage it will get worse, believe me. So if you realised he/she is not the one you want for life, wake up NOW. There is still a lot of fishes in the sea, so why gamble and take a step that you will regret for the rest of your life?


If you are the one who thinks that love is blind, then sorry, I can't help you. Why? Because most of the people who thinks like that eventually will succumb into the love pit, and feel happy for the rest of their lives (or opposite)! XD



IQ Question: which part of the human body is the sweat-tiest of all? (means paling byk berpeluh loh) Answers in the comment box, and I will reveal later!

Do she need to pay the bill?

I had a dream about her and my friends last night. So simple yet nice, so normal yet... memorable. I miss them all.....

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Nowadays we say man and woman are equals, how true is that? One of the question I have been pondering, when you go out with your girlfriend, do you pay for her bill?

Some says no, some says yes. If yes, you need to pay... maybe because you are 'gentleman' mah. Gentleman need to show their 'good side' by paying for the girl. Girls also like guys who got 'money' and if you can pay for her bill everytime, it shows that you have 'cukup wang' and is in the running to be the next eligible husband!

But for me, I will say no. Why?? Because we are equals, I don't think you are weak nor that you do not have the ability to pay for yourself. IF you can't, then I will pay for you lah... Some more I prefer everything to be simple yet memorable, thus I don't need for us to go for expensive restaurants just for a lovely candlelight dinner. I prefer we enjoy ourselves on a normal place, with standard pricing. This way, we could BOTH can pay for our own meal, lol...

Maybe because I haven't go on a date, that's why I say like that. Still, I don't think I will be one of those men that will pay EVERYTIME they go for food. It's like a 'job' for them liao. I prefer to be equal beings, so I won't be bias or unfair. Everything happens based on your actions. If you don't like to pay everytime, try to tell her 'indirectly', so she won't be hurt. Too much of something is always not good...!

Treasure friendship

What is the true meaning of friendship to you? Some says friends are people who will be there for you when you need a shoulder to cry on. Friends could be people who are always beside you through thick and thin. Some thinks that friends are meant to be 'used', and be used for them in return (both benefit). Others may think that friends are nothing more than just human being, there are good ones and bad ones, and they will betray you when the time comes or help you when you are in need of help the most...


Everyone should have their own set of friends, so do I. For me, friends are truly an irreplaceable part of life. It takes fate to meet good friends who will be with you for the rest of your life, so I truly treasure them. Sometimes bad luck strikes and you will meet some 'bad' ones, but as soon as I know he's not what I call a 'friend', I will try to stay away from them and maybe even not meeting them anymore, for the rest of my life. But until now, there are really no such 'serious' ones, yet (maybe there's one, lol)...


From the first day I step into school until now, I have only 4 (now 3) friend which I still keep in contact since secondary school till now. They are considered my very good (maybe best) friends. The others are either busy with their own life or moved to another place. The second batch of my friends which I still hang out nowadays is from my first year of TARC. Most of them are busy with work too, but we will try to hang out once in a month (or two) or more, if the time permits.


I value them the most, because all my years of studies (TARC and MIA), none really suits me or really 'bond' with me as a good friend, like this gang. Although 'she' is also in the gang, I considered it as a bonus and will not give them up for any other. Thinking back, I miss the time when we used to hang out frequently. The laughter (and some romance) was really sweet, and will forever be embedded in my heart, till the day I die...


But time will soon come when I will find another new batch of friends. Though the age gap will be quite far, as long as I don't mind (and maybe don't tell them? :P), I hope I can make new (and good) friends. Will they be as good and true, as my current 1st batch of TARC friends? I don't know, but based on the lifestyle of the younger generation nowadays, anything is possible! Friendship is also determined by fate (yuen fan), if we have no fate, the friendship will not last long no matter how hard you try. Still, without any actions, fate won't come also, right? So I must go on with life with strength and determination. Charge...!

A shocking outcome from the General Election 2008

So as most of you have know... BN won more than 50% of votes ONLY, and didn't get 2/3 of the majority of votes like the last general election. Law and order will now need to be agreed by ALL before it is permitted and can be implemented. This happens when you don't get the full power...


So, is this a good sign, or a bad one? No one knows. In fact, how the outcome turned out to be like this really shocked a lot of people too. I was amazed how the opposition party gang up. If you noticed, in last general election, each state or parliamentary seat are usually contested by BN and another 2 opposition party. This causes the votes between the 2 opposition party to be split into two, thus BN won most of them. Now they are smart, and they only put ONE opposition party in each seat, thus making their positions stronger, and won a lot of BN seats.


The second reason why BN lost was maybe because they are too proud or lazy (maybe RASUAH is a reason too). They think they will continue to win FOREVER, thus not doing a lot of development. I'm not saying they didn't, just slower. Some only 'maintain' it without doing anything! This will of course upset the people. Who wants a slob as a leader?


The third reason could be because of people's thinking. I can see a lot of people thinking 'Sure, we support BN, but we cannot let them win too much or else they will think they are soooo powerful'. So what do they do? They will choose the opposition party so that the gap won't be that big. But a small fire can become large... since so many thinks like that and really do it, guess who'll be happy in the end?


Fourth reason... the government. We all thank them for doing a good job in keeping the peace and harmony in Malaysia. But what about those bad apples, hiding in the back? The continue to disgust Malaysia with their laziness, racism attitude, rasuah and ignorance. The people are mad because they can't complain when their words are not heard or ignored. Being pushed from one person to another in the complain department is NOT helping either. So what do they do? Revenge is the key...! The ONLY key.....


I felt sad that BN lost actually, maybe because I'm not sure if the opposition could do a better job or not + not all BN candidates are bad, just some are. But since the nasi sudah jadi bubur, what we can do now is see how well the future of Malaysia will be. As long it is for the better of ALL, whoever rules also not a problem. But if they suck, we know what to do in the next election! Right.....?


To be continue...

How many crush(es) did you have in your lifetime?

Haha, maybe it seems weird to be discussing this in my blog... but it's just one of the things you wonder and never really cared about... right? Is having too many crushes good or bad? Is having very few crushes means you are too busy to study/work or just too plain or boring?

I have friends who's crushes can make up to two football teams of people... and I got friends who only had the amount of one basketball team (of crushes). Maybe it's just me, but in my whole lifetime, I have only had 4-5 ones... and I'm pretty sure I was serious to all of them (although it was one sided, lol).

According to my survey, most of the crushes (the girls/boys you like) are found during your college life. That is when you really think about love and your hormones go crazy, itching to find your other half. But as time changes, I think love will occur even more during secondary schools nowadays compared to a few years back... The world is turning upside down, as my friend said, lol.

Since you (had) so many or so few crushes... have you ever stop and wonder what has happened to them now? No, right? Of course, it's because we let bygones be bygones, which means we don't seek what we have lost... Or is it really because we just don't give a damn anymore? Haha...

So let the past be history. Go on with our life and find a better one, as there are still many fishes in the sea. Remember the past, how it makes you feel good and all tingly inside... Remember the guts, when you dared yourself to tell her/him that you like her and got rejected... Remember the memories you had, one of the few rare moments in life that you were feeling the most happy and care-free of all... Remember and do not forget, but keep it inside and use it as a fuel to drive yourself to find another which is still waiting for you somewhere, out there!

Love makes you do curious stuffs, but remember... what you do will affect the rest of your (and another) life forever. So think wise, and be responsible. ~Cheers~

With power come responsibilities

No, I'm not talking about Spiderman here... It's about... man, in overall. Ok, maybe too broad... let's take an example from the coming election then. We the people voted them, so they won, and then they got the 'power' to do good (or bad). Most of the time of course they will do good... one thing because to make the people 'like' them. The second reason is so they can continue the post on the next election...

What I really makes me mad are those corrupted politicians. They say they will use the money for the people, but secretly behind our backs, they will take a part of the money to make their house bigger, buy a new car and go vacation in England. They can take 'some' for their hard work la, but TOO much makes you look like a hungry-sucking-ugly leeches! Damn those greedy politicians... take a few thousands not enough, take until a few MILLIONS? These useless bast**ds will surely go to Hell when they die, cause those money can be used to help people from dying or make the country a better place for all. Instead, they use it to make only themselves better. I for one vote them to... Hell!!

This not only goes for politicians, but all that have 'power' or status... like bosses, parents or farmers etc. Bosses should take care of the employees... if no employees, how you going to make more money? Parents should take care of their children... when you old, who will take care of you? Farmers should take care of their livestocks... if all are dead, how will you survive?

Thus I hope for those who DO have power or status and are reading this post, try not to be so stingy or angry... cool down, think of what you have done for them... and do it better. The more you give, the more you will receive. Do bad things to people, and you will get the payback you deserve in the future. In the end, just be nice to everyone, ok? XD

First week of New Year

So, 2008 is here... yet, it doesn't seem any different from last year. Maybe it's because of the holidays just past, I still have a bit of 'snaking' attitude this week. But I vow to start my studying of PHP next week!

The highlight event of the week was no doubt about the 'sex scandal' involving one of the higher rank politicians of MCA (I doubt you don't know who). He is old, yet still 'do' it with another younger girl who can be his daughter... then the process got 'taped' by some unknown party, which is then sold in DVDs. I did not see the 'movie' as it is sold mostly in the Johor area, but I don't want to see it either, haha...

Then he hope that the public will forgive him for all the good deeds he has done, instead of one bad one. But come on, let's face the facts of reality... which politician have you seen before that gets away with a 'sex scandal'? It doesn't even happen in the USA, wishing it would happen here would be rediculous. So, as expected, he resigned from all his post the next day, after apologizing through the press to everyone.

It's sad how a man can climb so hard to reach the top all his life, then fell to the bottomless pit in just one day, by one act, in one day... Sure, we would have avoided that if we were to become careful and not do something wrong in our life. But whenever a person holds a grudge on you, you will be suprised what he/she could do to make your life becomes Hell. How long can you 'block' and 'defend' yourself from all the evilness in the world? Not forever...

Becomes too good you 'die', becomes too bad you also 'die'. Human is a strange species and everyone can becomes an enemy when the time is 'right'. Hey, it's every man for himself/herself, right? Thus we should be extra careful when choosing friends and who to believe in your life. You will never know when he/she will stab you in the back just for that extra buck... those pathethic losers!

New year coming

Wah, just went out on Tues and Wed, tonight going out again... then maybe next week Mon night also going out! Memang a very busy weeek, but luckily busy to enjoy, not work! XD But I know I have to appreciate these moments as after that, the next holiday will be CNY then a looooong time no holiday liao...

Ah, these holidays, although not spending with a special someone, with friends also syok one... how long I wonder these fun moments will last, before I myself have to get myself busy with studying and working life too. When those time comes, even if I wanted to go out, time or some other important stuffs will prevent me to go. I know, cause I seen how my friends do it, for work. Sad, yet, a must... that's life for you kid!

The new year is just around the corner... I forgot my last new year resolution is what liao. Lazy check, I think it went un-accomplished. Oh well, resolutions are meant to be made and broken? :P I think my next year resolution should be 'stop thinking of her!' and 'exercise u bum!'... eh, I remember liao! Last resolution was 'to become a better man', which sounds too broad and hard. Next year only 2 to do, I think I can accomplish that... s l o w l y.......

Seems like my 'internet dream' has to be put on hold too, as David, the main programmer, is busy with his online business. There is only 2 option left... abandon it and do it at a later time, or find another 'partner' to do it. It's a pity I don't have the skills or money, else it could have been 'set on track' at an earlier time. Life is full of challenges, and I will take this as one... but I will not give up! Any programmer or website designer out there wanna do business with me........!?? T_T

Anyhow, I would like to take this opportunity to thank all the readers of my blog. Without you, this blog may have already dead a long time ago. Hope I can make this blog more 'special' next year. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

Christmas the season of love

Ah... Christmas is just around the corner. Yesterday was a holiday (Hari Raya Haji), then next Tuesday will be Christmas already. After that, the new year will be here... and then most of us will noticed 'Haha, I failed to do my new year resolution again last year'. Who never? XD

Christmas is a big day... not for Christians only, but for non-Christians as well. It's a day where we feel happy and jolly, hear Cristmas carols and listened to Jingle Bells in the radio. Maybe it's me, but I feel that some of the church songs like 'Silent Night' and 'The First Noel' is best played during Christmas... and with some added snow, it will be perfect! A perfect Christmas mood spend with a love one is just... priceless.

Although I know this year I won't be doing that (or any near future), still I am happy that my TARC friends organised a 'gift exchange' activity on Christmas day. The item is in the range of RM10 only, but it's the thought that counts. A few years back, when we did it for the first time, I remembered I received a tissue container. It's not those normal plastic ones, but a doll made into one... and it's a dog doll, lol. Until today, the tissue container still stands above my TV set... reminding me of the good old days.

It's sad that some of my friends aren't here anymore. They went to pursuit their careers in S'pore. When they were here, we were so happy together. Now that 'happiness' seem to be gone. Such a waste, I should have cherished those times more before it is gone... sigh. Hope they live happily over there.

A shift in career?

All this time I have only know that I love arts. That's why I finally studied graphic design after two years being 'misleaded' into studying Computer Science and Business Admin. Two years was a real waste, but it gave me the opportunity to learn something I love, rather than those annoying M-Maths related subjects.

But after 2 and a half year of studying GD, I start to doubt my own decision years ago. Sure... GD was fun. A lot of creativity and new stuffs could be gained from studying GD. But one thing I HATE is working as a GD. The working hour is longer, the workload is more... and the pay is less! Work like a dog is what I can describe it... -_-

Then suddenly my bro told me of a new course in TARC, which is game design. Hey... that doesn't sound bad! I love game, and combined with my knowledge in GD, maybe I could make it happen! But then I will waste a couple years studyng again. I wonder if my parents will allow it? Headache, headache... what should I do!?? >.<

Bravery

If there is one thing I learned from life (and DOTA), it's bravery... Yup, if you got the guts, you can do better, if you don't have what it takes to fight the big dogs, you become the prey. Sad to say I'm not one of them. Maybe cause I lack confidence or motivation... I need to work up! >.<

Lol... in real life and in the virtual life, I really become another 'person'. I will hunt and pawn people in DOTA, and it gives me the satisfaction I needed. But when I look in the mirror, how I wish I was that aggresive in real life... T_T No wonder so many ppl enjoy online games, it let you become the person you wish to be, but couldnt be, in real life...

Oh well, life is always like that, wanting to become the person better than you are now. Here's another question: What's the vegetable most people don't like to eat? Guess and put it in the comments! XD

Old friend gathering and people

Just turned down going out with TARC friends, then another invitation to go meet old secondary school friends, also this Sat night! Why this Sat night so kao special meh? Why everyone wanted to go celebrate this Sat?? >.<

But I turned them down, to be fair to my TARC friends... Besides, most of the secondary people going there I don't really mix with when I was in secondary school. They are from the 'upper' science stream while I'm from accounts. To be honest, I was really friendly with them when in primary school... cause at those time, everybody are friends, doesn't matter which status/race/family background/personality/looks etc you are...

But now... everything changes. People are divided into 'groups', whether you like it or not. People despise you when you are poor, low education, ugly, disabled, ... DIFFERENT. Sigh, sometimes we really should learn from the children. Naive and innocent is sometimes better than you really think... else where you think racist comes from? From stubborn and so called 'matured' adults la, who else..!? -_-

Anyhow... I wish someday our community will change, where everyone respect everyone, no matter how bad/stupid/ugly/poor that person is. Everyone deserves a second chance, and who are we to play GOD and defines who is bad and who is good? 'Yan yan peng tang' (everybody are equals), right...? XD

Blogging world...

Sigh... don't know why, but it seems like the blogging world is getting more and more boring, day after day. It maybe because ppl are getting busy... or it maybe because ppl are starting to get fed up and sien of blogging liao? As I predicted, all good things come to an end, eventually...! >.<

Lately I have been lazy to blog too... with Saidina in one hand, and Dota/RO/housework etc in another, no wonder I didn't blog... cause blogging takes a lot of my time away, everyday...! Fuh, blogging is not easy man. You need to think what to write everyday, and it need to be creative and not the same old stuffs. Then you need to blog-hop, which take most of your time away...

Blogging have been fun. In the beginning, before I started to blog, I was a lonely and shy/ timid guy. Slowly through blogging, it helps me to build confidence and I made a lot of new (blogger) friends on the way. Some blog is so funny and interesting, it light up my gloomy days too. By blogging, I 'turned' into a different 'character' who is brave to voice out his opinions and interact with ppl (fact: knows how to joke and communicate more).

My main objective in the beginning when I started to blog has also changed, turning this blog into a semi-diary rather than a full private diary (takut kena backstabbed, lol)... What to do, I must hide some secrets also. Without secrets, you lose your own personality right? :P

Anyway, I am sad that after just 4 days no blogging, my fav blogger Rabbit say she wants to quit blogging liao... I understand how she feel, and what she wrote is totally right too. Ppl who doesnt really blog for money (like me) will easily realised one day, 'Ha!? Why do I keep blogging?!? Waste my time and no profit also!'... and quits, just like that. No use activities of course stop ASAP is better, right? >.<

So what does this proves in the end? I dont know... but I feel that blogging is meant to be fun. I hope somebody can change the blogging world into a better one... somehow, someway. Keep blogging and don't give up until your last breath...! (ok, too much that one, lol) ~Ciao!~