All is said and passed...

My mom call me from her work place this evening and looks like she knew about my story. I think dad told her either by phone or on the email to her. She also took it ok and advice me to keep trying hard, etc. Fuh... I'm relieved all is past now, and my goal is to continue with my studies and finish my diploma asap. Please dont come out anymore bad suprises, I dont need another one...! >.<

But my parents was supportive and I'm glad all turned out fine for me. Oh well, on with life..... CHARGE! :P Thx to all that supported me through these few hard days... appreciate it very much. Ciao!

Not yet break the news...

omg, havent told my mom last night too... cause my fren David asked me to go play Magic cards, so I thought it would be good to release some 'tension' so I went, thus not yet telling my mom. Tonight then... :P

Last night went to Sum's house and saw his dog, so cheerful and playful. Makes me want to own a dog to... a dog could be your companion, u can tell ur problems to her/ him and he/ she will just sit there and listen with those cute little eyes (I want those breed)... Later when I got the money maybe, sigh... T_T

Wonderful last night...

Yesterday was really nice... I went shopping and bought a yummy Secret Recipe cake, have a feast at night when we celebrated my mom's bday. Ate fried meehoon, fried chicken (kentucky flour, nice!), agar-agar, cake and red bean tong sui. I was so full I couldnt take another bite! It was a happy day, and for the first time, a visitor celebrate with us. Oh, in case u dont know, my mom's fiend's daughter is living in our house now (first time a girl living with us). It's because she's going to work at Mid-valley and my mom will train her first before she work at the new branch. She just came last Sunday and will be with us for 2 weeks or more.

About my 'problem'... just talk with my dad on the MSN, and it looks like he takes it slowly. He was very supportive and asked me to try harder next time. Ah, it makes me feel so much better now. Hope my mom can take it like my dad or I'm sure to get it tonight... will I tell her tonight? I wonder.....

Today's my mom's birthday...

Sigh... the news havent told my mom yet, cause I wait after today, which is her bday. Going to Wangsa Maju later and buy a cake from Jaya Jusco at Secret Recipe. Though my heart still feels sad and my mind keep on thinking about that bad incident, I have to pretend nothing has happened and last though this important day for my mom...

Well, I dont want to say it... but here goes. The cause of my sadnest these past few days is because I called the company on Monday, and the fu**ing CD told me my contract has ended, and I don't need to go for practical training anymore. WTF!? I was waiting for their call cause they were fixing the comp, but when I called... they say I'm out!?? Oh man... I was hit by a ton of bricks and dont even know why. The b**ch just said if I wanted to know anything more, go find my teacher. Is that how you stop me from working? With not even an excuse why!?!

I really didnt expect it to happen... cause all I did wrong was one time. At that time, we did a project like usual... I passed up my work, but got rejected because I didnt do it correctly (yeah, I admit I'm a noob... -_-). After rejecting my work, I continue to fix it, but it was getting late. I havent finish correcting my work and the girl who sends me home wants to move out liao. What am I to do? Foolishly, I followed... but then when I packed up everything and prepared to move, a senior asked me why don't I finish it first. I was shocked, cause the deadline hasn't come and I thought of finishing it when I come back the net week. THEN he told me the deadline is on Monday!! WTF man... I have to follow her back, else I will do it until night time and have to take the bus, LRT and taxi home alone later (Cheras and my place is sooooooo far!). So I leave with a guilty heart and hope they could use other's ppl ideas instead of mine (3-4 ppl r doing that project, including me).

The next week I came back, I thought I dont need to continue with the last project, cause it was already handled down to the client. When I was surfing the net and waiting for the next project to come, the as**ole Art Director came to me and scolded me for not finishing my job. But I said isn't it passed up to the client liao? He fu**ed me and say "I dont care, I still need you to pass it up to me cause I want to show it to my boss!". I was shocked... cause is he trying to give a damn stupid excuse to humilate me and force me to do the job?... or is it his stupid excuse really REAL?!?? First time kena shit from a shithead... So I do it and pass it up, and everything went on as usual then. Until I was suddenly expelled...

Is one wrong doing and misunderstanding can determine my whole actions and cause me to be expelled? I didnt believe it, but now I know it could. That small incident made a huge impact on me, and the fuc**ng AD and CD dislike me already (I think they r lovers... no wonder they group up and 'kill' me -_-). I did all I could, I learn from my mistake and give 110% in my efforts. Hell, it was not good enough for them! They want very good graphic designers, when we are only trainees!!! Fu** them, I don't need a stupid company that is bias and... worse of all, I didn't even get ANY pay from them, after working for a month and a week...!!! Damn stingy and cheapskate company!!!!!

Ater today, I have to tell my mom of this 'bad' news, and find the teacher on what I should be doing later (and find out the reason why I was expelled). I should work until the end of next month, but now... sigh! And I should ask the teacher if they have the right of not paying me a single sen, after i worked for one month!!!

The world is cruel... and now I know it more. And ppl, please dont post bad comments, I will REALLY not appreciate it now. Thank you.

Saddest day of my life...

Sigh... today could be the saddest day of my life. I feel so down... down until the pits. Feel like just die and don't need to give a damn about the world anymore... So sad, because of one fu**ing phone call. Omg... I didn't know I could feel this 'deep' down in my life. Maybe cause I'm still young and inmature, or first time experienced 'it'. Sigh... don't feel like talking about it, but soon u will know. I am tring my best to look happy and calm in front of my friends and bro, but deep inside... my world is shattered and I felt so sad, so down, so so so... sad. No one to comfort me, I know... and tonight, my wound will end up deeper as I 'get it' from my mom and my family. I tried... but I failed. And now I will suffer, again. When will the nightmare ends? ...................................................

Holiday for 4 day...!

Wow, unexpectedly... I have 'taken' 4 days of holiday from work. Well, not that I wanted to say it but... IT FEELS GREAT!! Never would I realised I will appreciate holidays as much as now from work (cause I never work before :P). Tomorrow has finally arrived, where I will go for Magic The Gathering Pre-Release once again, my 2nd time. It will be super cool and I have waited for it until my hands itchy liao...!

Next week I will start my boring life of school and 4 days work again. Wow, I dont even want to think about it anymore... now already bored, later sure die haha. Oh well... life must go on! >.<

Rest at home, day 1...

Hmm... my first day of rest after more than a month working. Hate to say it, but I love and enjoy every moment of it...! :P Ahh... now I know why working ppl can't wait to go for holidays and vacations. It is SO GOOD not to WORK, lol. No stress, no workload, no boringness and no sleepy eyes. Maybe cause enjoyed the 'holiday' too much, didn't do any of my projects today >.<; But I shall start it tomorrow, hopefully...! rofl

No work... for how many days?

Just received a call today from my company saying I don't need to go for work these couple of days... no, I'm not fired! It's just that one of the PC in the office is down, and you know how important is a PC to a Graphic Designer. So the guy will be using my PC until his is fixed, and then the company will call me back to continue my training. Oh well, holidays for a few days then...! And just in time, cause I need to do the freaking 3D animation project which is due next Monday, and I couldn't possibly finish it if I work the next 4 days! :P

The 'face' tree

I bet you guys got see the newspaper (or maybe not) about the famous 'tree face'. It's a normal coconut tree (not sure) but on the tree trunks (green area) grew out a lump which is like a human face...! Some say it's a message from God, but the fact is it's just a coincidence... a kind of 'defect' maybe. 3 days ago, the face tree 'opened' it's eye, yesterday the eye closed liao. Wow, it's kind of amazing... yet ceepy at the same time. Imagine a 'face tree' outside your house, looking at you 24/7, sometimes open eye, sometimes closed. Won't it be... 'cool'? LOL ^^

Eating in the office...

Here I am, all alone eating bread in the office... Wanted to save some money and diet at the same time. Plus, I don't want to eat together with the damn AD (he is AD, not CD, my mistake). So I untung 3 things at one go, thats y I prefer eating alone in the office, haha... In the office somemore can play internet without anyone watching, and write my blog like I'm doing it now... So free, alone... well, sometimes I do feel the loneliness, but there are my songs to teman me and the internet too. Maybe I will go CC and chow kei today? Waste RM2 but saved RM4... good deal wat, LOL :P

Just another day...

Boring... do work, bla, bla, bla... maybe fortunate cause no kena scold today, but didnt pass up any work, thats y >.<; sound like always kena, lol... donno la, kena once feels like forever liao. stupid CD!!! Ruk going Indonesia, make me even more boring for the next 2 week... have to play games at home lor, what else? My friends sot liao, want to play back magic, a card game, back... so expensive! If really happen, maybe I will become sot and join them too... >.>; Why dont they stick to playing cheaper things like free online games or dota? -_- oh well, I feel so much tension now, anything to make the pain of work go away... hiyeeaahhhhh!!!

Life at work... vol 3

WTF... today another bad day at the office. The worse day to be exact... kena tuut by the tuut CD because of some misunderstanding...! Make me like a fool in front of so many ppl... damn that tuut CD. One day I shall put a bomb in his car and let him blast into kingdom kahm!! I wonder how some ppl uses their power just like that and get away with it without anyone to 'fight' against him. When I leave the office, I'll make sure to make a 'mark' for him to remember... that damn bloody tuut CD!!! ARGHHH!

How I celebrated the weekend...

On Sunday, went out with my friends to celebrate Jimmy and Cheong Ming (I didnt know it's his bday until that day) bday... The others that joined the karaoke is me, Sophiya, WingC, Oon and Sam. After the karaoke at Mid Valley Megamall's MyKTV, went to have a drink at the food court. Then went to WingC house, where we eat mooncakes and some hawker malay food (goreng pisang, kerepek, cempedak etc). After that went to Taman Paramount LRT to fetch YL, then we go to the pasar malam nearby there. As we walk, we try delicious food there (I tried the famous Uncle Bob Fried Chicken) and then yamcha at a nearby Chinese restaurant. After that, went to YL house (WingC go back first cause need to take mooncakes from some seller) and lepak there for a while. First time I went to 'her' house! But last time also, as she's moving to Subang later this Wednesday.

Then at 10pm++, finally we went back. Kanasai, we have to take LRT back cause nobody wanted to send me and Cheong Ming back... -_- The journey was soooooo long, finally reach LRT Wangsa Maju already 11pm++. Then Cheong Ming drove me home, poor him (really appreciate it CM, thanks!!) cause he was already dead tired. Reach home nearly 12am, so tired and frustrated cause nobody offered to send us home. I have learned my lesson and shall not stay so long with them anymore unless someone send me home. If CM wasn't there, I have to take a taxi home near 12am!! That is so *tuut* cause it is so hard to find a taxi that late, and robbers are on the streets then! NO MORE LATE NIGHT OUT FOR ME UNLESS SOMEBODY SEND ME HOME!!!!! >(

The whole day would have been perfect if there is somebody who would have sent us home that night... If I knew no one would, I definately wouldn't go for the pasar malam! Cis...

Ahh... relaxed for 3 nice days

Wow, it's been so enjoyable these 3 days, from Sat till today... Stay at home relax, play some games, sleep all I want... then went out with my friends until the wee hours... Tired but enjoyed every moment of it. Cause I know, all Hell will start again tomorrow... when I go for my training in the office again. Some bad things happened, and I dont want to talk about it. Still... live must go on. Tuut all the ppl who gives me trouble in the office... I will suffer for 1 and a 1/2 more months, then forever no need to see them again! Can't wait for the weekends to come again, sigh... T-T

Life at work... vol 2

TUUT la... today my prject kena tuut n rejected again, so tuut tuut tuut la... as days passed by, the amount of tuutness semakin banyak. I wonder how much more tuut I can take before I tuut the tuut tuut tuut back at them...! SO TUUUUT!!!

In the end, feeling sooooooo down, I reward myself with a nice A&W waffle and a single scoop ice-cream root beer. Ahhh... feels much better. Done a lot of thinking as I sit alone, enjoying my meal and looking outside the window. Will my life really end up like this in the future? Oh tuut tuut, I don't want this tuut tuut life in the future!!!! ARGGGHH!!!!!!

tuut = *mailto:*#&*^@*^#*)^@%#&$^$!*^^@&$^!*^!*^$!)*

So free!

Wow, since yesterday first time so free in the office... now only I realise there r times when u r super busy, and super free. Now so free, can even play arcade at kbox, chat, write blog and surf forums...! Yesterday play online kbox arcade games for 4 hours++...!!

Anyway, going to karaoke this Sunday. A lot ppl won't be coming (busy or lazy) but I will be happy with just the 7 of us. We will sing, eat and go jolly whole day long! Cheers!! ^^

P/S: Good luck to my friend Young Brat cause he will go back Ipoh and work there. Your memory will remain with us forever... :P

Life... and FRIENDS

As time goes by, I slowly feel sad. Sad... because I see my friends 'disappearing' one by one. Sad, because they do not value friendship more than their work. Sadness... to see them going into the abyss and turning into 'robots'. I don't understand why friends to them, are nothing more than a 'tool' to hang out with when you are lonely or depressed, sad or stressed. No wonder these so called 'friends' will not remain long in a group and will not find their REAL 'best friends' in their life, forever. Then they will blame the world, their friends... but have they ever thought what have they themselves sacrificed to be a 'friend'?

To be a true friend, you need to sacrifice and do what a TRUE friend do... care for each other. If you can't even do the basics, are you qualified to be even called a 'friend'...? Don't give me those garbage excuses you call work, work, work... If you can sacrifice for work, why can't you do the same for your friends? That means you value the WRONG thing! Repent and do whatever you could for your 'sins' my brother and sisters... NOW!! Or forever changed with the time and turn into a 'robot' with no friends, no feelings, no happiness... ~JIL words on friendship~

What bird are you?

Curi from AceOne blog, hehe... quite true fact of me, so I decided to post it here ^^ Me:

Raven


Date of Birth : 25 Nov - 23 Dec

Characteristics : Always impressive, Raven peoples are tower of strength.They are more intelligent than their peers and are adapt problem solvers.They enjoy challenges are stimulated by wild and exposed places.

Chun leh? Hehe... If ace allow it I will post his blog shortcut here la, if u want to try also :P

Rainy days...

Uhh... lately keep on raining, and I'm not at home to enjoy it! The office is already cold, with the rain outside, I feel even more cold!! Brrrr... Lucky I drank coffee just now, now I'm wide awake. Long time no make coffee, accidentally put two whole spoon of nescafe into my cup, *OMG! SO PAHIT!!*... so after drank a few gulps, throw the rest into the drain. What a waste... but I don't want to force myself and in the end might end up fever tomorrow, lol.

Oh, yesterday started to play forums in the office... yeah, bad me... but cause the office is not giving me my pay (until now), so might as well waste their resources as my 'payment', wahahaha...! Sot like Daniel liao, lol... :P

~Scold me for not forgetting you, broke my heart for not accepting me... yet, I still madly in love with you. Call me a lovefool, but I will rise and free myself from your grasp, one day, someday...~ JIL Words of Wisdom

The death of crocodile hunter...

Some of you may know him, some of you don't. He's a well know animal lover that made a lot of funny and useful documentaries for us to see. His famous jokes and bravery made him a well respectable Australian. But all good things come to an end, he died yesterday when he was doing a documentary in Australia's sea, filming stingrays. An intimidated stingray used it's venomous tail and strike through his cage ribs into his heart. A very sorrowful accident indeed. Goodbye crocodile hunter... your fond memories will remain in a lot of viewers(including me) for a very very long time.

Korean dramas and me...

After watching the 8.30pm Korean drama for some time, yesterday only did I realise that I'm quite like the 'lovefool' character in it. There's this lovefool guy who loves a girl so much, he keep on helping her, support and loving her even though the girl rejected him and fell for the main actor.

But he's much more 'wai tai' than me. He let the girl's whole family live in his house, played with her son, lend her money and pay for her debts. He help her in everyway he could, although rejected millions of time by the girl. The main actor didn't help the girl that much, but because of one fact 'I love him more'... so the poor soul is neglected.

Thinking back, why am I like the lovefool... I dont want to love her, but something keep on making me thinking of her day and night. I don't want to see her, but my heart keep on missing her every second of my life. A lovefool I am, but a lovefool I will not remain...! >.<;

Sick these couple of days...

Aih... maybe overdoing it, but got sick after returning home from Jimmy's house on 31 August. As expected, it was an enjoyable night that day. It could have been better if Jimmy and the gang was earlier. We waited for more than 2 hours before they finally arrived! It was all because of SG's collegue giving her trouble so she need to do extra and in the end delayed the whole plan drastically. Also the stupid jam, as always.

After all was there (yeah, I was happy to see her with her Redang pink long sleeve shirt), we went to eat at the place where Jimmy recomended us (cheap and ok ok food). The food was really okok (some taste nice and special) but not as cheap as expected >.<>.<) Just talk a bit with her... to be honest, we talk with her sister even more than with her! Pity her... maybe cause we have nothing to talk to her about. And her sister is a bit friendlier (or she seldom come with us, so we got more things to ask her). Her sis also cut her hair damn short, like last time 'her' tomboy look! :P Well, it makes me easier to differentiate the two maybe. my God, you wouldn't believe how identical the two are!! More identical than Daniel and his bro man! Serious!! The face, voice, height, face, face (and everything) and weight... Unbelievable! O.O;

No chance to sit beside her during the scary movie as told by Kim (cause she sit with her sis). I was joking anyway, not like it's gonna happen... LOL. Slept late that night cause we see another scary movie called 'staying alive'. Wow, a movie based on a game, super cool! Then kena bite by mosquitoes, argh! Sam too, lol... Jimmy, now u know ur house got mosquitoes la!! Then wake up early the next day to eat dim sum. Wow, this year first time (and after a looooooong time) eat dim sum. So fun and nice, delicious food too. A bit expensive, but okla. Once a yearr right? LOL.

Then go back Jimmy house, play and chat a while before Sam send us home cause he need to do work (on Merdeka!) like 'her' and some other poor souls. I went back, sleep, then wake up with a slight fever, lol. Maybe cause 'overheat', so the next day rest at home (yeah, first day no go work! yahoo!!) and it becomes a 4 day leave for me, hehe...

But last night accidentally sprained my back (tall ppl sickness) and today went to school with each step pain like Hell. Every step I take is a stab to the back with a dozen needles! But I force myself to go cause today need to pass up project to lecturer. What a big sacrifice I did... T_T

That's all for now... until next time, ciao! :P