Saddest day of my life...

Sigh... today could be the saddest day of my life. I feel so down... down until the pits. Feel like just die and don't need to give a damn about the world anymore... So sad, because of one fu**ing phone call. Omg... I didn't know I could feel this 'deep' down in my life. Maybe cause I'm still young and inmature, or first time experienced 'it'. Sigh... don't feel like talking about it, but soon u will know. I am tring my best to look happy and calm in front of my friends and bro, but deep inside... my world is shattered and I felt so sad, so down, so so so... sad. No one to comfort me, I know... and tonight, my wound will end up deeper as I 'get it' from my mom and my family. I tried... but I failed. And now I will suffer, again. When will the nightmare ends? ...................................................