Stressed and lonely

As I wait here aimlessly in front of my computer for the arrival of my new LCD TV (yeah, finally changed my old 10++ year TV!), I start to think what am I doing with my life. Up until now I still feel pressured by the damn FYP because my supervisor ask me do this and when I present to a panel of lecturers, they rejected it. Mostly is my fault, cause now only I realized my storyboarding skill sucks... sigh!

Still hanging, dunno what to do... sms lecturer but no reply. I feel like giving up in this fyp... but its my last sem, I should finish it and start work... too old to still studying, sigh...! So to relieve myself from all this stress I turn to Magic... it can help me release tension, use some brain power and at the same time maybe profit from it. But all are too busy with their own work so I can't test my standard decks myself. Another dead end, sigh...!

So sien and tension I am that I have no time to think about love at all... unless somehow my mind wonders there again. YL... yeah, she can't seem to disappear from my mind no matter how hard I try. Then I read some quotes which fits me perfectly. It says 'You are not giving up in love but trying to move on' and 'I feel happy to love you from afar when I know I could not get your love'. It looks like I am not the only person in this situation, where I love her so much but people see me as silly to still cling on in this love. Ya, I know she won't love me but I just couldn't stop loving her from afar... it's too irresistible, the hope is undying, I feel happy whenever I think of her... you can say it's like a drug. A mind drug that makes me feel happy and sad... but the only feeling that I will never let go... the feeling of being alive.

I have a bad vibe that I will not able to graduate again, sigh... f**k it, let me end this misery now!

Problems getting solved, heart getting less frustrated...

Ah... this week has been quite a good week for me. First of my assignment which cannot find group members because of the b***h YC paid off when Bernard, my lecturer, actually remembers me well and is a understand person. When I asked him if I could make my group into 7 person (actually 6 is max), he thinks about it and then said 'err... okla, but the workload must be sufficient for 7 ppl). Yay! Then I tell my friend to tell YC, which she shows 'bad' face of not happy... which makes me even more happy! Wakakaka... In your face B***H!!! Steal my group member and still not happy when I join back with them, you are such a selfish pig you damn a**hole!

Then for my FYP, I suddenly have no members because they guy I should team with suddenly jump ship and wanted to do webpage design with my other group member. This time I did not feel angry nor wanted to jump ship with him because webpage is totally not my call... and he is more buddy with the other guy, so I understand if he joins him more than he joins me. So being solo, I thought of doing animation, cult animation, for my FYP. When I presented my idea to the lecturer, he was impressed and asked me to go along with it. But he warns me I need to make a creative character and storyline to sell the idea well, then I may even sell it later when I'm in the working world... wow, cool! haha XD

Two good news... I could not ask anything more. YL did not reply me in my FB that day... thus it must be unimportant for her to pm me in the first place. This semester I maybe too busy to even think of her anymore... a good thing I suppose. Time... all I need is time. ~END~

Love partner

Last weekend I went to Darren's wedding in Jalan Imbi with my bro, the two D's, Sum and his gf, WL, Dioz, Edmund and Wee. It was a happy and fun day. The food was ok... some quite bad because of the flour they used.

What kept me thinking is... am I ready to love? Yes, its been a long time since I loved YL... but if someday if I were really to have the option to woo her, will I do it? At first I would definitely said yes... but now, when I really took some time off and clear my mind to think... the answer is 'I don't know'.

I guess its because she's not the type of girl I really wanted as my wife. Her attitude is quite rough while I wanted a really gentle and cute girl. She is not romantic while I wanted a partner who loves the small and special things I do, just for her. YL... I think she should find someone who loves her more than I do. It will not benefit me or her if we were together, thus I should just forget this dream and be a bachelor for life... or until I am fit to love.

My mindset now is still too young... too naive. No it is not affected by the environment I'm in but it's just my natural characteristics. Somehow I like being 'nice', although most of the time I will be used or bullied by others. But sometimes the stress is too great for me to bear, and I will turn evil... but mostly in my thinking or talking but I do not make any movement for revenge or pay back. Yeah, I'm weak and a coward... why do I let people trample over me yet I do nothing to stop them? Maybe it's because I look myself down too much that helping those 'evil' people seems like a responsibility to me. Stupid and foolish... that's me, haha...

21/5/2011

I feel more and more tired of life. Again I'm having the same problem of finding a teammate for my assignment. &#)*&)*$! I know I am not weak but my communication skills must really sucks until no one wants me in their group. What I hated most is some bitches who only think about themselves but never think how I will feel when they took away my group member, leaving me alone. It's the f**king YC, MC's good friend. It's not the first time she did it, yet I forgive her and even help her pass her car sticker form that day. I should have throw her paper away so she can't apply for a car sticker this sem... that selfish pig!

All are selfish... only 2 person or 3 really treated me as a friend in the whole class. Yes, when they ask for your help they will smile and talk with you nicely. But when it comes to you needing their help, they quickly dodge you faster than a speeding bullet. Wow... humans are pathetic sometimes. I hope one day all the selfish ppl in the world will die of a disease or an act of God, even if it includes me. I don't want to see the world continue being tainted and effecting our future generations... DIE, SCUMS!!!

The end is coming, a new beginning is approaching...

Wow... been quite a long time since I blogged. Can't be helped, cause every time I wanted to blog, there's this 'bad feeling' that haunts me. Bad memories of me and LG becoming enemies... seems like I still can't shake the feeling off even though she's in the wrong. Hmm, looks like my feeling for her indeed became deeper else I wouldn't give a damn about a girl like her. Sigh, why la!?

The one month holiday is coming to an end... will be starting college again next week. Again my heart feels heavy and uncomfortable. So many things are playing in my mind now until I have dreams about it, both good and bad. Some of them are losing my good friends... need to find new group members... need to find new people to hang out with... worrying who will be in my new class, and etc. No doubt LG plays the biggest fear of all, as I don't know if I will be in the same class with her next sem... and what will I do if she IS? Ignore her, chat with her like nothing happened or...??? Kns, why am I always worrying about these petty stuffs?!!

Advance diploma is coming... more things to learn, more burden to handle. I don't want to mess up my mind with love stuffs like LG anymore! ><''

Had a nightmare this morning on LG... and it felt so real. I went to a place and accidentally bumped into her, eye to eye. She said nothing, nor did I. We just go to our own destination as though the other didn't exist. First I was relieved... then I felt kind of sad... and more sad. What does it all mean?

Two weeks ago went for bbq at YL's house. At first I was very happy, awaiting to see YL again. But when I DO see her... somehow the 'umph!' was not there anymore. Seeing her felt more like... 'just another friend' liao. It becomes worse when I heard about her expectations in her future BF. CM did so much more than me in wooing her, following her and pindah here and there so he can be close to her. Sophiya told us about this, and I was shocked. Poor CM has no chance with her... and I felt even further from her. The 2 of us fell for the same person, and if he doesn't stand a chance, where do I even stand? No wonder my feelings for her is disappearing. The jargon between us is just too wide and far away. My 10 year crush is going to stop, soon.....

I think I should just concentrate on my studies, no need to bother about love and stuffs. It's just too complicated for me to handle. It gives me more pain than happiness. Just studying, playing games, hanging out with friends and flirting around seems more carefree and happy for me. Oh no, am I becoming like Daniel!? lol...

It's a dangerous environment

Ah, finally did what I don't want to do the most... to make my blog private. Terpaksa! Because I thought my classmates wouldn't be so com savvy... suddenly I heard W go and googled a teacher's email and find out a lot of personal stuff about him. So, being scared, I tried on my own email... walao! Really kena this blog. I tried and tried but no other way to change it. So to not cause any more trouble, I decided to make it private... for the time being, or until I find a solution.

The tension between me and W is getting stronger since MC told me her 'doings' that night. I totally don't want to talk to her, unless absolutely necessary. Weird thing is another friend of mine asked me 'why is W so like... anti-social now?'. I did not know how to answer him. I asked him who told him that, and he said LG also felt that way. Oh, really??? I doubt it's my fault, so maybe it's she getting more 'sucked' into the Anime world so she doesn't think interacting with ppl is important. Since she would abandon her friends for success, I'm sure that she won't live peacefully in the future... Muahahahaha!!!

CK too... I only talked to her once in school this week. Maybe she didn't know that I knew she talked bad about me... maybe she didn't know that I was deeply hurt by her actions as I treated her so nicely everyday... Whatever the reason, I don't want to continue a friendship that is not... giving me a good feeling.

This week although my heart was still deeply sad, I did forget the pain once in a while when I hang out with my new 'group'. Including me it consists of 2 Chinese boy, 2 Indian guys and 1 Chindian girl. Somehow a 'half Chinese, half Indian' group, we had a lot of fun doing stuffs. I was actually the total opposite of them (they curse, they smoke and they are cool) but somehow I was accepted in it, which is a good thing! We did our first sound recording yesterday, and we had fun doing it... very much. Can't wait to do the mega project later, which is the music video. We can do it, and we will squash W's group to the ground, into a pulp!!! YEAH!

Lately there is no more love in my heart... maybe that's why every step I take feels heavier these days. LG hate me, W despise me, YL just treats me like a friend... only friends and games to keep me happy, to keep me moving forward in times of down. Sigh, sometimes I wish I didn't have a heart... this world is better off without it.

LG n me is getting closer... as good friends

Today early morning 8am got class... suddenly when go into the lab saw LG, which replaced her class. Very rare can see her join my class, haha. Thought want sit next to her but then... better dont. So sat in front of her. Then tutorial class the teacher show us how to create a pic from scan pics using illustrator. I did it with ease as I fully concentrated when he teached (plus I got a bit knowledge of it beforehand, hehe). Teacher was impressed cause I did it the fastest and very well too. I teached W some pointers, so is LG.

Then when the class ended, we were going to leave. I stayed to save my picture first so I can continue doing it at home. LG left late and approached me, asking me some more stuff she don't know about Illustrator. AFter teaching her, she asked if I know Photoshop cause she said she's not so good with it. I said yes, and you can come ask me anytime if you got problems with PS. She said when can I teach her? o.O! Err... takkan she want me teach her one on one!? Then she said maybe I can teach her when she join our class next time... I said 'Oh, ok...!' Haha, lucky no need teach her 1 on 1 or else... Ah, dont want to think so much! >.<

Then later in the evening went for basketball... wow, so long no bb liao, 1st time this sem! But luckily not so much out of shape, although didn't score much but was a 'bit' feared by the opponent as 'the big wall', haha... Ended up draw, fuh! Tonight thought of going out yamcha again with LG... will it work? We will see!

Life is fun when you're in college

Ah... life is, as I expected, so much better and fun in college than at home. I get to go out with my friends and ate outside together, chat and joke while having fun, then go CC for some 'Left 4 Dead' which increases the laughter and syok-ness... then we went back to college, study and go back home. Life is easy and care-free... how long more will it last?

So the results are out... got myself an A, 4 B's and a C (plus and minus). It's not bad (cause no fail) but not as good as I expected either. Lost (my results) to some of the students, although won most of them. I aim to win W, how come lost even worse than last sem to her!?

Poor LG... she failed another 2 subjects this sem, with 2 more C's and B's. I can see she was rather hardworking last sem, how come she still got bad results? Maybe it's the teacher's fault, who gave marks unevenly. It's not my doing, is it? Haha... like I have a BIG impact on her... hahaha. But I still feel sad for her, wish I could have done something to help.

Which I did... first, I smiled at her more. Second, I took up the guts to SMS her to know her result, haha. Third, I looked at her in the eye today, although she was busy... then said bye to her... felt like nothing right? Haha... Anyway, I will try to NOT avoid her more starting from today. Although we can't be lovers, we can still be friends. And friends are what that makes me motivated to study harder in college... XD

P/S: Now I'm in the same group with W! Dumped my so called 'group mates' and asked W if she wants a change in group. Coincidentally, she does! So now I'm in a group of 2 girls, with me the only guy. Must do more to show I'm a worthy teammate... I'm THE class rep after all! :P

1st week Sem 3 is over

So the first week of semester 3 has passed... out of the 3 lectures, 1 was very funny and friendly, 1 was very young and skillful and the last one was a lecturer from my first sem (standard). Overall it will be a fun semester, with 2 involving computers a lot and one is typography. The funny lecturer said I was his enemy (me MU, he Chelsea) but he say he will still teach me one... haha.

LG yesterday was sitting in the role behind me again, but a bit on the right. One incident happened is when she dropped her folder on the floor. So I was shocked and looked back, at her area. She looked at me and embarrassingly said 'Haha, sorry!... Sorry!'. I just smiled and turn my head back. -_-;

Then after lecture I can see her from the car park that she is far away, walking with her sis for dinner. She was not looking my way, so my eyes automatically looked... as she walked away. Then she suddenly looked my way, so I pretended to talk with another friend... Haha. Soon as my friend drove me to the gate entrance, she is STILL walking there. We passed through her, and she looked into the car, knowing I'm there. It was too sudden... and I didn't do anything. Should at least waved to her... Oh well, me, the slow reaction guy, haha!

Third day of new sem

Yesterday was a bit boring as there's no lecture. Nothing special, I just need to do my responsibility as the class rep and went all the way to the office to check why the teacher didn't came. Then they told us all the tutorials were cancelled, see the notice board. Wth?!? Do they expect us to see the notice board EVERYDAY!? -_-

Today was a bit more fun. Went for lecture in the afternoon, then it finished one hour earlier. (Warning: LG detected... do not look!) So my friends went for lunch n CC while I have to go to another CC alone in TBR, cause I got class in one hour later. When I went into the class, I was late (Dota, go figure...) by 15 min. The young lecturer who want us to call him by his name, not adding any 'Sir' or 'Mr' in front, was very pro as expected. I was able to catch up while most still a bit blur, luckily due to my PS background. Still, I learned a lot of new stuff that he found out, himself.

After that went to find my mom. Yes, today is finally the day where I will be getting my NEW.....

SECOND HAND CAR! XD

There was a bit of problem, but finally settled. My new (it is new to me!) black Proton Iswara, so cool, so sporty... yummy! But my bro was the first to drive us all 

back with it. But later I drove it back out as I got another lecture at 6-8pm. When I first started the car, it went dead! Lol, silly me... I forgot to step on the clutch! Yup, it was a manual car, that's why it's YM sport car! XD

Luckily I'm still not that old, still remember how to drive a manual car. Soon I got the hang of it and drove to school, parked it nicely, awaiting my friends. Later they came, so we went into the lecture hall together. The second lecturer which teaches us Sound and Audio Design was an Indian... but man is he funny and friendly! One of the best joke I remembered he said was:

Lecturer: Did you know you can stimulate your brain just by playing video games for half an hour? See... your brain works even when playing your PSP!

Students: Woooo...

Lecturer: Hmm, I wonder what will happen when you play it for eight hours? Then it will sure turn your brain around...!

Students: LOL ROFL

Haha... maybe it doesn't sound that funny here. But with him around, who says lecture is boring?

In the whole lecture, LG was sitting at the role behind me, far left while I sat a bit on the right, in the middle. I resisted fairly well by not looking at her, when I feel that she is also looking at me (to avoid eye contact) while I turn around to look at some other ppl. But I still failed (a bit) when I took at peak at her face when she is not looking (bad me). Then I resisted looking at her although a lot of ironic circumstances forces me to, haha. (My life starts to sounds like a mission, lol).

Then after hanging around a while in the lecture hall, I took the other door as a shortcut out. While I was approaching my friends, ANOTHER twist of fate happened. LG was SO coincidentally walking down the stairs, alone. I tried to find another friend to talk to, but no one was around! I tried to walk slower, but then it would make me look weird! So I take a deep breath and walked in front, to face her. 

She saw me, I saw her... we smiled to each other, and she said Hi... so I said Hi too. Then she paused a while, so did I. Then she smiled and said Bye! I was a bit stunned but then recovered and said... 'Oh! Err... Bye!'. And thus we left the awkward 2 seconds and she headed home. Why the heck I always fell into these kind of situations one!?! -_-;

Me and LG... (uploaded many times but the color still changes)

First day of sem 3

Finally college started again yesterday. My lecture started at 4 but my friends (which is in another class) had another tutorial earlier and they called me out after their class was over. So Danny fetched me and we went to eat at TBR. Ah... eating and hanging out with friends is so much better than rotting at home alone, haha.

After lunch we went to CC. Thought of playing 'Left 4 dead' but the graphics sucks big time, totally can't be played... plus laggy too. So switch back to Dota until near lecture time.

First lecture, we went in early. But we was a bit puzzled as why is there a student sitting on the lecture's place. Putting that aside, we chat with a couple of friends and see how their look changed in 3 weeks. W didn't cut her hair, which is now long and I teased her I didn't recognise her from the back + she looks like an aunty, which she countered angrily, but jokingly... haha.

Later the lecture started, and only 30-40% of the hall is filled with students. The student who dressed in t-shirt, long pants and wearing a hat who was sitting in front earlier was INDEED the lecturer, haha! We, the class rep, was called in front and asked for our hp numbers. The dude was only 23, younger than me! lol... But he was teaching image manipulation, which involves PS and Illustrator a lot, and that's what I wanted to learn the most in this course! :P

After lecture my friend sent me home, but Daniel called on the way, asking if I wanted to join him to Jusco later. So I agreed, and he fetched me and David later to go shopping in Jusco, while waiting for his bro. He was a bit lost in the carpark that night, don't know why, haha...



P/S: LG didn't come yesterday... but I wasn't 100% sure as I didn't ask my friend nor did I 'scanned' the whole lecture hall for her presence. A good sign... but will it last? Lol, I can't be certain either... XD

A busy week, fuh...!

2 days ago, which is Christmas eve, only slept around 4 hours. Yesterday also same, slept around 4 hours then Sam smsed me for our group's member name and ID number. I terus open my com and ask him if he found the sounds for the animation or not. He say no, and ask me do... wth!? Say earlier la, today hantar leh! -_-;

So do until morning, then terus go college. At college he later came to me for the CD, but I don't trust he can finish it alone, so I offered to follow and help. Go to another member's house to do the assignment, which we should pass up at 12pm. Do and do, memang a lot to do! I do the animation stuffs on Powerpoint, and we end up finished the whole thing at 3pm++, siao...

So passed the freaking assignment at 4pm, which is very late liao... Then only we go have our lunch at Steven Corner. After that I immediately joined Danny them which is already playing CC next door for some SDO. Then Sam them finished eating and we challenged them Dota. Lost terrible, cause GWei really too keng liao... he everyday play dota for hours one leh! o.O'

Soon night falls, we played until around 8pm++... and mom was calling me back for dinner. I followed them yamcha while they ate dinner, then Danny sent me back. Ah, 3 hours of Dota memang SYOK...! While yamcha I heard LG traded her gift (belongs to ChowKit) which was a cup with Alvin, the host... which got a pair of RED BRA, lol...! Really kind of her. And from a friend's blog, she looks down that night... I wonder why? Of course I didn't perasan it, cause I was busy looking somewhere else... XD

P/S: Today didn't see her at all, but saw that kns ChowKit... memang malang! It's a good thing I didn't saw her though... I think..... -_-;

Sadness comes one by one

Since after the exam, it seems like I talk to LG less and less... She doesn't look my way anymore, I need to take the initiative to always go meet her or 'bump' into her, she doesn't talk to me that much anymore... sigh, donno la. Since she DOESN'T like me, why should I even care?! And to make my day worse, while I was talking to her and trying to make her happy, she told me 'Eh, the modal one I dowan liao... you find another to be your modal ok?'

My heart was like squashed with a thousand pieces of glass shards... I keep a low voice and answered 'Ok... nvm' while doing a fake smile. Then I leave, doing my own things... how could she do this to me after all I have done for her?!? No justice, no gratefulness... only a simple 'Don't care/ Don't mind/ Don't want... BB'. How can my day be worse?!

But it DID get worse... Since I wasn't feeling well (cough and sore throat), I did a lousy presentation in the morning, LG treated me badly and FFK from being my model, I skipped a class to have lunch with my former classmates. (Yes, I'm human and I DO bad things sometimes!) It was happy to know that your friends are there for you when your heart isn't beating as happy as usual...

Suddenly when I came back for the next lecture, a friend told me that the class I skipped has actually started the second assignment. Some of the people there has already chosen their groups. Suddenly W told me that the 2 classmates that is usually in my team BETRAYED and went into her team! I was shockes... and FURIOUS. How could they do that to me!?

I went for an answer... and the so called 'friend' told me all kind of excuse, and in the end asked 'Eh, I didn't know you mind. Do you mind?' I was so F**KING pissed I thought of hitting back right at him! How will you feel if I suddenly do that to YOU!?! And I could have do that a day earlier, but didn't cause I wanted to remain faithful to the gang. And THIS is what I get in reply...

After I asked some other classmates, only did I realised that he is a selfish a**hole, who would do anything to save his own skin! Yes, I feel stupid that NOW only I realised... some say they already dislike him when they saw his face, the course rep HATED him... and now ADD ME to the list! I vowed to take revenge for this insult and mockery... one day, YOU... WILL...PAY!!!

So tell me... is my day today one of the worse days of my life, or is it not? It DEFINATELY is...! >.< T_T X_X -_-;

Nearly bocor rahsia!

Wah... today I finally finished the kns BM assignment, yesterday not enough sleep. Then after I come back from college, sitting on the computer... a friend MSN me. Then she say she is LG, I was like... WTH!? LG play MSN one meh??!? So I just try to chat with her normally, but then I feel something wrong... her English was not bad, plus it's not her style to reply me with those answers.

Then she later revealed that she is not LG! o.O OMG... Lucky I didn't say to much else the person behind the monitor would have suspected me. I was afraid because yesterday another girl asked me why I don't take her out yamcha, but only LG? O.O Why LG tell her one!?! Really freaking me out... please don't let this become a rumour and spread until the whole course knows. I hate it when that happens... -_-;

I shouldn't be worrying about this petty stuffs... A lot of projects are on the way, so is my bday! *End of the month... hint...hint* So I should enjoy the process of studying and do what I should do, as a student. FORWARD.... MARCH!!!


P/S: Daniel, will pass u back the camera asap... need to use it tomorrow, the whole week no touch it at all cause too busy...! Dont worry, I will take care of your wife like it is my life... XD

Finally my English presentation is over!

Yesterday was a funny night. Thanks to Daniel, he fetched me and LG then send some stuff to an ex-colleagues, after that took us yamcha at BRJ. He even lent me his prized DSLR camera that I used for the presentation today, thanks a lot dude! As a token of gratitude, I belanja everyone... mamak only, ok la. Oh, David came later and as we sat down, he and LG talked the most about those love related stuff. So long that it lasted until nearly 1am! But being the reasonable dude, I asked that we split earlier cause Daniel got work the next morning, LG need to go out the next morning and I got a presentation to do! We can continue the 'talk' next time David, but you drive! Haha.... XD

Ah, I can finally breath a sigh of relieve, because the English presentation is over! I presented stuff about DSLR camera, and I was all prepared until I reached school by cab and realised, I forget to bring my PowerPoint presentation! So I quickly go to the com lab and finished in an hour, then save it in my friend's pen drive. I was all nervous and scared during my presentation but tried to keep my cool as much as possible. Luckily the teacher only said my presentation finished too fast, overall ok! Man, I hate doing presentations the most!!!

Then I was shocked that my friend didn't ask me to join in his group but instead he joined another one, leaving me alone. Never mind, luckily I still got others to join but the fact that he dumped me just like that without a warning kind of... shocked me. I guess he wasn't my best friend in the class after all...

I guess life is not what you always expect it to be. What I can do now is life my life as best as I could...


P/S: Now did I realised LG's hair looks a bit like YL's hair (last time)! Omg... -_-

Life these days

Been a bit busy lately with homeworks and assignments. Then reach home straight play PS2 to relax and sleep liao. Wanted to blog a while but bro busy with assignments and keep haging the computer. Need to fix the other computer ASAP before my assignments due dates arrive...

Wednesday borrowed a DSLR camera from my bro's friend. Ah, holding a DSLR camera while taking pictures really nice feeling! Haha... Pity have to return it on the same day, at night, as he wants to use it back. It's a Sony, btw.

Lately LG have been busy doing accounts for her society. She doesn't join the society this semester YET she need to clean up last sem's accounts. I admire her for her dedication, if it was me, I would feel being 'used' for 2 sem straight! Occasionally when I see her I will say hi to her, if she were looking my way. Starting to have the feeling of 'wanting' to see her everyday, oh noooo...! >.<

But all is well, as some of my classes end then her class will be the next liao, so can see her more besides lectures. W still treats me like a normal friend, as so do I. Since I am the class rep, I'm starting to mix with the whole class, including one of the *ehem* girls that I *ehem*, a bit... Nothing biggy, just a little bit of *ehem*... XD

Dad's coming back today from China, looks like permanently staying and working in Malaysia from now on. Happy that mom won't be that lonely anymore, but worried because since dad will be driving the car to work, my transportation to college will become Hell again. Nuuuuuu...!!!

Class rep's responsibility

Ah, busy busy...! Need to compile everyone's name list into groups so that when I notify some of them, they will pass on the message so everyone will know class cancel, changed, etc. Today the Course Rep smsed me that class cancel, and I don't know who to tell so I randomly pick some of them. Then a guy called me to ask where the venue changed to, and I told him the class was cancelled. I need to compile the list ASAP so this kind of situation will not occur anymore... >.<

Last Saturday, after Jap class, went to Times Square with Daniel. Coincidentally my lecturer asked me to go there and ask about the price of a Canon DSLR camera too. It was actually a fair being held there in conjunction with Malaysia Photography Fair 2008. A lot of people was around, showing off their camera and taking pictures of models. I took some of the brochures for future use...

Then the model show was on, which Daniel was anticipating for. The first model came out and I look at her closely... isn't she... My Cousin!?! I was shocked, so I look a bit longer... and I'm 99% sure its her. Wow, she sure look hot and beautiful on stage, haha. Later I went backstage to find and had a little chat with her. I knew she was a model but never seen her on actual stage before. Cool...!

Then went to Lowyat with David (came later) to buy 2 LCD monitor for his dad's office. After taking it to his car, went to Daniel's church where his dad send us home. A fascinating and surprising day, tired but fun! Haha...

It's more about LG...

Lately since I feel like W is trying to avoid being close to me, so I decided to stick more with LG, and it's more 'pleasing' too. It's cause me and LG have a lot to talk about nowadays, maybe since we are not in the same class anymore. She still ask me when do I want to learn Mandarin, lol (the only thing I dislike most). Must buy some more choki-choki or lolipops for her next time, haha... It's not to woo her or what, just that I like to see her happy (...lame kan? :P )

Suddenly this week the photography teacher tell us that we need to buy a DSLR camera, each! wtfbbqkns...! He think we very rich is it? He says we can share, but how do you share an expensive stuff!? We are not talking about RM500 but RM1800 stuffs leh! If it were me, I would also think x1800 before lending or sharing a DSLR camera la... Sigh, headache. Who wants to lend me his/her DSLR camera? Any volunteers...? XD

Nothing much to do yet as a class rep, YET la... But more is bound to come very soon. That is a responsibility I must endure... yosha!

Promoted yesterday!

Yesterday was the first day where nearly all the classmates, both new and old, came for the BM Lanjutan tutorial. Before the teacher came in, the course rep, which shifted into our class, wants us to choose a new class rep. No one wanted it, scared of doing more work as a 'kuli', lol... Then she say since no one will volunteer, she will pick some herself. The first one she picked was... me. I was like 'wth!?', cause she got her own classmates, but instead chooses me that's not her classmate last year. Maybe because I know her (we were nominated for course rep last sem), so he chooses me. Another one of my friend was also chosen by her...


But then it was cancelled because nobody from the new class wanted to be nominated. So she thought of choosing again in the lecture hall later. Then the teacher came. Looks like BM got presentation too (Man I hate presentation!) and she asked who is the class rep, because she need to call him/her in case there's any changes in the subject in the future. We say we haven't elected one, so she decided in her own to elect one right then.


Again, nobody volunteered when she asked. So she asked the course rep to elect, and she mention my name AGAIN. -_-; And she mentioned another girl from her previous class. Then they immediately started voting, when I'm still in the class! I didn't see all who voted, but I was shocked that almost 80% of the class voted me... all my friends including some from the new class! Habislah, confirmed liao I'm the class rep... cannot lari liao! The girl became my assistant.


Actually I was eager to become class rep last sem, but after watching how much pain and suffering my ex class rep went through, I was a bit demotivated. My ex class rep even refused to be the new class rep in U6, giving the position to another friend of mine, Robin. Is it really so hard? I know I will waste a lot of money smsing and calling, plus responsibilities to help the teacher do this and that. But since I was given this opportunity, I might as well cherish it and try my best to be a good class rep. With power comes responsibility, like Hiro Nakamura... Yataa!!! XD

P/S: Thought of choosing W as my assistant but watching how bad she DON'T want to be, I was saddened. Looks like me and W is really drifting apart... friends is all we can be! T_T

Holiday still need to study...

After two days of relaxing, today went for Japanese class again. There is always this tiny fear I have inside whenever I go, because I don't know nuts after a few classes there! Damn, now I know studying and taking Japanese class at the same time is a big no-no. It's because you are inputting new stuffs from college, then do assignments etc... another third language coming in will have little input into the mind! >.< (or maybe it's just me)

After two hours of studying, we ate mix rice (RM4.50 for two lauk!?) and then I took the initiative to go visit W, who's working somewhere in Lot10. But Lot10 is so damn huge to find one single girl, so I smsed her, hoping she got on her hp during working hours. She do! So we go find her in Isetan, 3rd floor...

She looks boring indeed... Taking charge of a tiny portion of clothes, it really is! I can't imagine myself selling so few choices of clothes, and half of it is not cheap at all. To make it worse, the clothes are out of date and looks like for uncles to wear only. Neh... those one color, collar and short sleeve shirts! Lucky she got sell track bottoms and t-shirts, else donno how she can make any sales everyday...

I'm glad we could kill her boredom although it was for a while. Daniel even bought one of the t-shirts! I didn't cause it looks too small for me. Chatted nearly an hour++ with W, Daniel is the first to see W in real life. She's no beauty pageant, but talking with her is really nice and fun. She's a good 'girl-next-door' type of girl. My new 'very good' girl friend. Beats talking with YL any day! XD

Sorry couldn't go for Jiimy's bday celebration and David's youth event... hope you guys had a blast like I did! :P

English, sap sap sui!

Finally the easiest exam is over. English, as expected, is just what they say 'White Peanuts', lol... But it's strange that no one agrees with me, even from those scoring A in their SPM last year o.O I thought of looking at what W wrote for the exams but she doesn't let me see her paper >.< The one question I might get wrong was 'burned'... Isn't there a 'burned' word? Must it be 'burnt'?!? X(

After that took some of my friends to eat sambil yamcha in Wangsa Maju... The outing lasted for 2 hours, which was good as a 'relaxing from exam' event. Pity that W and LG didn't join only. The Chow Kuew Teow was still as nice and cheap as last time, yummy!

Even talked about the plan of going to Genting after the exams... but looks like a lot won't be joining, sad. Even talked about how gila my first batch of Tarcian are, where 13 of us slept in one First World Hotel room! Totally against the rules and we were squashed like rats in a hole... but it was fun!! I guessed not everyone can be as sportive as they used to be... :P

Next, Hubungan Etnik... Aaaargh, I hate sejarah-like subjects!!! >O