My old self

 Today was too free. Took the liberty to read some of my old posts (back when blogging was an 'in' thing and etc). Wah... really... really speechless. I was so naive and immature. So emo and full of rage. Blinded by love and other small stuffs. I guess growing up and being in the working world will 'wake you up', sooner or later. I don't deny I'm still not fully 'mature' now. Still learning something new everyday. Unfortunately, that means learning both side of the coin, at the same time. One thing is for certain, the world is a much crueler place now than it used to be...

Reading my past post also made me remembered why I hated KH last time. I don't hate him now, but I don't like him either haha. He is kinda like the emo part of me that grew up into a nasty and honest but cruel me. I heard he is married now. Should have grown up like me. Good for him. We are two totally opposite side of a coin, so better if we remain apart haha

Looking back at some of the old posts, I remembered I was the 'happy go lucky' yet 'ignorant of the world' kind of kid haha. I don't understand when people was being sarcastic/real or not. I was treating everyone the way I wish them to treat me, truthful and kind. But it doesn't always work that way haha. Everyone need to wear a mask, it's just how the world move around now. It's the harsh reality, that eventually everyone have to adept... and slowly become a part of it.

I used to enjoy time with my friends everyday. Now that they are far away, I adapted to being alone or with my parents. Everyone have their own life to follow when they grow up. If I were to see my young past self, I would tell him 'Enjoy being young, for it will not last long'. Time to man up and face the world, now me...

P/S: YS confirmed have a bf now. Time to add another scar and move on, o heart of mine...

A good but sad CNY

 This CNY is good for dogs! Especially in the love department. True or not haha... Anyway, let's hope it's true (10 more months to go). A good news is a good way to start the year. But it wont be with YS. I heard she posted in Instagram with another 'mystery boy'. So should be got bf already lah. Good... very good. She f**king hates me anyway, haha.

Went to Genting during CNY. At first won 1k on the first day. Then slowly lose back on the second and third day, damn. Oh well, most important is spending time and having fun with the family. Dad lost a lot, again. Time to recuperate and DONT go Genting for a few months.

It was a good and enjoyable CNY until we got news of Uncle Lee getting really sick after CNY. Before that he even Whatsapp me like normal. So last week Sunday morning we went to see him at his house. He was bedridden and looks so pale and thin. His wife told us he cannot eat anymore. It was really sad looking at him like that. He did wake up for a few seconds to see us, before going back to sleep. 

Later we went to do our normal shopping and lunch before heading back home. But at around 2pm, they called and let us know that Uncle Lee passed away. So soon... just after we met in the morning. It was like he was waiting for us to say our last goodbye before he left. It was a really sad moment for me... RIP Uncle Lee. I know it was very painful for you those past few days. We will miss you dearly... 😭

Our bonus this year was the worse we have even received, with half a month or no salary at all (for high level management). Our workload wasn't less but why so bad? Something was wrong, and some workers could not take it. After bonus day, 3 person have resigned (2 before that). It's sad to see colleagues go, but I know it's for the best. I wish you all good luck. Waiting for my turn, 1 day haha...

CNY has passed and today is Valentine's Day. Not the best day for us singles yet I wish all couples out there Happy Valentine's Day. Please cherish your other half, else don't waste time and just break up, ok? Like they all say, better a short pain than a dragged long pain. Small arguments/disagreements don't count, so mend up! Until next time, adios~!