Today is the night...

Finally, I will be watching a scary movie at my friend's house with 'her'. Should I sit next to her so that I could calm her down when she is scared? No. Why you ask? Cause she's like me, not really scared of scary movies. I think scary movies as something funny, in which the director plays with special effects to scare the hell out of you. The only way I will feel scared is maybe... nah, that couldn't happen, lol. The point is she's not scared, neither am I.

In the bus today I thought to myself... why is it the more I try to hate and not miss her,but in the end I turn out to love and miss her even more? Looks like reverse phycology is in effect here! The more I hate, it becomes love. The more I wanted to neglect, the more I want to see her. My mind wants to hate her, but my heart miss her day and night. So the only thing I could do is... not think of anything at all!

Use yoga and control my chi... focus on work, study and games... nothing else matters. I will become a chi master someday, and any thought of her will be erased from my mind. Maybe like a monk, I will not think of love anymore and focus on bringing balance to myself and the world. Using the motto of a superhero, I will defend the weak and stop the evil from conquering earth. Who will join me? Everybody put your hands in the air like you just don't care! LOL

Stop with the crappiness... Time to go back to work, my collegues are coming liao. Ciao!

Life at work... vol 1

Argh... I know work is hard, but not THIS hard. Ideas rejected, deadline on the neck, look at the computer LCD screen 24/7. OMG, is this really what I will do for the rest of my life??!? Yes, no doubt... T_T

Tomorrow going to stayover at fren's house, so will be feeling better a bit gua. Didn't expect 'her' to go too, cause she is usually busy with her worklife and I thought entertainment is not that important to her. She works on Merdeka too, for crying out loud... Oh what the heck, she is our fren too, so calling her go is just normal. Guess I have to act 'normal' in front of her tomorrow too. Hard, but gotta swallow it. Adrenaline pumping, heart rushing, eyes key into her... but gotta resist it. It's do or die! For honour...!! Hiyeah...!!! (lol, wth am I saying?!?)

Sry for updating lesser and lesser cause I am just TOO busy... becoming a robot like Daniel soon, sigh...! Somebody help me! Argh!!! >.<

Getting better...

For those who missed my last post, nvm... cause I delete it liao. It's about me being depressed, and I don't think you guys want to hear it right? So I saved it as draft and only can be viewed by me, lol. Those who see it liao, keep it a secret...! ><; Last night I was feeling so down... but today I feel better, because of my family and new collegues. Got to know them better today, and it was fun hanging out with them. Some of the ppl that I hate was doing some work outside, maybe that's why I feel better today. Oh well, can't accept work to be fun always. Back to doing my work then... "You shall not have my love when you appreciate it AFTER it is lost, you shall have my love when you appreciate it BEFORE it is given."~JIL words of wisdom~

Depressed ver 1...

Sigh... today my works got rejected, so sad. I know it's a part of the working life, but my first reject was... painful, in the heart some more. >.<; sigh... hope it wont be frequent else I dont want to work here liao..... I'm all alone in this big office, cold and sad. When will something good happen and make me fill my life with energy and laughter once more? So depressing... T_T

Friend busy dota, dowan find me... -_-; left me alone wait in the office, write blog and wait they finish print only can go back... so cham!!! Lucky got a nice old fren from MIA teman me chat... talk about life, work... and how bad it is to be a graphic designer in Msia. The more reason that if I want to be successful, I should go work in UK or USA where GD is more respected and earn better. Sad, but true... T-T

Tomorrow work, second week...

Ah, so fast past 3 days... and my 4 days work starts again soon. Well, I'm not really bored of working there, but not that happy either. Maybe cause my 2 friends are not so 'friendly', so when I go to work and back, I usually slept in the car. They keep on chatting and think I'm an invisible man. So sad, so mad... -_-;

Lucky my work place collegues are nice and friendly, I am more friendly with them than with my school mates... imagine that! That's why I stick with them after lunch as they sit, chat and jokes around before going back to the office. It's better to stick with the pros right? :P

Wah, now have to do a small project but asap, cause they are giving us training to see how fast we can finish it in time. I hope I can finish it faster than the 2 of them! I will, I must, I can! ^^;

Four days of 'work' finally done...

Ahh... Sat is here at last. So damn busy the past week, have to go for class, then work at Cheras Plaza, endure traffic jam (and lost in traffic), do new stuffs (and learn) plus meet new working collegues. The working life is quite bad, as expected...

First day, I was assigned to sit with the 'big boys' while my two other fren sit in another section which is new and only got 1 guy stationed there. Oh well, the two r frens and they dont mix with me much (although I tried, but man... some ppl r just freaking unsociable and arrogant!). I was quite 'untung' cause the guy in charge of me sit just next to me, while the 2 fren is under another guy, who sits in front of me. We then are assigned to do some logo design. The day end with only 1 of my logo need 'improving' while the other 2 has no news whatsoever. Happyla...! ^^

Second day... Life getting more bored when we still sit and do the damn logo. Think until want to explode liao, still doing the same thing. Later our work are evaluated and all my works need to be 'changed', AGAIN... SIEN!! -_-

Third day... Given new project, do cover design (front and back) for an annual report. New stuff, so okla... not boring anymore. At the end of the day my work need to 'change' again, while the 2 is OK and need a bit chg only! Argh... Only then I realised, my work is changed a million times because one person like me do a way, then another like me do ANOTHER way... SO who's WAY is right!!?! SUPER SIEN...!!!!! >(

Forth day, yesterday, last day of the week... Still doing the cover when suddenly we are given a new task. To do the layout and design, of the inside! So we need to do a part of the annual report, using Indesign. Omg... I dont know how to use it liao, so long didn't touch Indesign! Luckily some senior teach us how, and we slowly become good again. It's a wonderful feeling to be able to learn something new, isn't it? LOL... The day ends and we say goodbye to our collegues. Until next Tuesday!

So what do I learn after working for 4 days? Well... working is hard, mostly stressed and not fun... but sometimes interesting too. The funny ppl (GD ppl is weird, like Daniel, lol!) in my office is also a motivation for me to learn and work in a stress-free environment. Next week I will continue learn new stuffs AND decorate my table. Wonder what should I put next to me, so I can see it everyday, for 4 days? Hmmmm...

First day of last sem...

Fuh... so long didn't study, today went for first day school after 'rehat' quite a while. It was quite diapointing cause I was the earliest to arrive, then waited for soooooo long alone, realised the class started yet STILL nobody came. So I go inside the lab, alone. 15 min later a girl came in, then I realised the class only consist of 7 ppl! Omg... all late, some even absent for first day!!

Then waited 2 hours for the next class, GD. Same little ppl came, and the teacher was even busy with other students, ask us go into the library to think what we want to do for our final project. Is that a lame way to ask us do something while he's busy? -_- Waited 2 hours then waited another hour by wasting my time in the library. Then go back to class and the teacher is STILL busy. Like that better dont put the class at 2pm but 4pm la!! Wasted another hour in the class then the teacher FINALLY came. Give our ideas, rejected, he talks some kind of crappy story... ten we go home at 5pm++. What a stupid day to waste, on my first day... >(

Today going for PC Fair near KLCC

Didnt wanna go but as Daniel pelawa me go, go lor... lol. Wanted to buy some empty DVD to try burn it soem DVD out too ^^ Maybe buy some new DVD games to try out how 'keng' my new computer can support those. No need to say Daniel must bring along his camera to 'catch' some live action and *ehem* models there... :P

Start school on Monday, work on Tuesday...

Ah, the time have finally come... My vacation is going to a halt, and I will start my studies and practical next week. By then, my only free time is on weekends. So, like those who's working (LY, YB, Daniel, etc) my blog will soon be updated more and more LESS. What to do, I need to do my final year project, work like a dog and try to relax at the same time. Sigh... :'(

Hope my working place isn't as scary as most GD companies... where u work like a dog, think of ideas until your head explode, ideas rejected until you want kill yourself, OT like siao and no extra maney paid AND you need to go back work early the next day! Robot meh? LOL...

Today went for private dentist, first in my life!

Went for my first dentist after years... The last time I went for a dentist is from my secondary school, where the government gave free ones. It was sooooo long ago, and like most dentist trips, it wasn't a pleasant one. This time I had a check up and 'tampal' one new hole and the old hole, which is getting thinner liao. And like I still remembered, the sharp noise and pain is still there. I was still calm and took the pain like a man, without any screaming or 'ouch, argh, stop that!' nagging. But my bro wasn't the same, lol...

After that, to my suprised, the bill for both of us are a whopping RM280!!! RM140 each... OMG! I have to say, the service was pretty good, nice environment and nice dentist... but for that amount, no wonder...! Then I went to find Lisa but she said she last time went to the dentist at Ipoh, cost her around RM60++ for 'tampal' 3 holes! SO CHEAP!! But it was because the dentist is her father's friend, lol... Still waaaaay cheaper than KL lo! When is the last time you went and cost how much?

Dream no. 8...

Finally, another weird realistic dream that I remembered... It's me and my gang of TARC (include Sum and Daniel) went to Genting. This time, me and YL were a couple! :P But weird... I realised that she weren't that 'perfect' I hope her to be, so when we DID couple, we are as close that time as we are NOW. Maybe my heart turned sour and finally I 'woke up', in my dreams! LOL..... I still love her (in the dream), but not as much as I am now. Maybe that's why they say a relationship isn't the same before and after it starts. Bummer...!

At that time, Genting sure turned super advanced. I only remembered the horrifying ride, in which you travel from one building to another (usually on cable cars) but this time just on seats! There is no cable car, just a couple of (super) ropes and a sit, and you're off! The cable was also moving fast, and we travelled through jungle and mountain areas without any protection!! As we are 'tangling' on the ropes, so the journey keep on swinging left, right, front, back, up and down! My heart nearly fell out when I finally were able to stand, on the other side of the building with my friends. I wonder if such an 'adrenaline pumping' ride will really exist in the future?? @_@;

When friendship turns to love...

I bet most of you have known, heard or even felt this before... yup, you were hanging out with your usual bunch of friends when u realised, 'hey, she looks pretty today' and slowly turns to 'I miss her, hope I can see her everyday' and finally... 'I will ask her to be my gf today!'. I know, cause I have been in the same situation (until now), and my friends are like that too. Heck, even the famous comedy sitcom 'Friends" show that 4 out of 6 of them end up together at last! That's a whooping 66% that friends end up together as lovers!! LOL!

Well... Maybe love is blind, so you can't blame it if it really happens. Some of my friends say it's a taboo to love your friends, because if the relationship end up broken, so will the friendship. That is why I advice you, my friend... to be serious, if you really love a friend. Do not be like the saying 'A man doesn't appreiate an easy love, but goes for a love that can't be reached'. Good luck my friends! :P

Yesterday was a nice bday celebration...

At last, it has passed... 'her' birthday was celerated with Daniel's, and it was all over in a blink of an eye... The day started when I went to find Sam with Sum and Lisa to eat lunch near his place. We ate Thailand chicken rice, Thailand Friend rice (man was that HOT!) and two kinds of Japanese mee. The Japanese mee suck, Lisa and Sum say it was really Japanese instant noodles made 'fancy', and sold for RM6! The big hearted Sam belanja us, so nice...! ^^

Then we wait for the gang at KTM Salak Selatan. YL, WingC and SG is coming from Kepong (I donno how but the 3 of them meet there after finishing their own business) while Daniel is driving from home. The 3 girls arrived, but as there is only one car, the 3 girls chat outside. When I saw YL coming out of the KTM station, I felt... 2 feeling. One is happy, cause I haven't seen her for ages (not sure how long is that). The other one is let down... cause I was wishing she would turn prettier by wearing the cute and lovely white dress like before, but instead just wear a white decorated singlet shirt, black working pants and brown working shoes. Wth... did she just finished her work or what?!? She would have look better if she wore her sweater (which she didn't until inside the cinema).

Oh well... Watching the 3 poor girls chatting outside below the tree shades and on a hot sunny day, me and Sam decided to 'teman' them and went outside to chat with them. Chat for less than 10 min and YL said she wanted to go into the car and sleep in the air-cond car. Argh, I know that would happen! So the 4 of us talk outside, while YL, Sum and Lisa slept in the car. Around 20 min later, Daniel came... and we took off to Leisure Mall to see "Tiger Dragon Door". As I walk around in Leisure Mall (cause YL and the other car haven't arrive), I thought of buying a cute small doll for her, as her bday present. But then, I think too much and said to myself "What if she later come into this shop and saw I just bought a cheap doll for her?", "She doesn't appreciate it even if I buy it" and "Stop! I'm trying to forget her, not miss her!"..... So I didn't buy anything in the end, LOL... >.<;

Later they came, we walk around a little and then went for the movie. The movie was full with action packed fighting kungfu special effects... and I like it very much. Then we split into two cars again and meet at the 'Good Friends Restaurant" where we ate buffet ala steamboat style. Not that expensive and the chicken wing was delicious! Well worth it I say... We belanja YL and Daniel the dinner and movie ticket, as their bday present! ^^

After we ate until our belly was full, we decided to have a walk at Taman Tun Razak, a recreational park... in the middle of the night! Not bad... took some photos as we have a scroll down memory lane, as we chatted and jokes around. We even sit on nearby the dark lake, and Sam told us some of the horror ar scary movies he saw before. While doing that, I played some 'shadow tricks' on his face, LOL! But the scary storry telling in a dark silent place at that time was eerie and horrifyingly nice!! As its getting real late, we decided to head home. Sam fetch the 3 girls (to Kepong where she left her car) and Oon back, while Daniel fetch me, Sum and Lisa home. The night ended nicely though we wish we could spend it a little more longer. Cheers to everyone who made it happen!! ^^

Today going to celebrate Daniel and 'her' birthday...!

Today is the day... yup, 'HER' birthday. Daniel birthday also near, so our gang celebrate it together ^^ Our plan is to watch a movie (Dragon Tiger Door) at Leisure Mall, then eat dinner somewhere near Cheras. Eat buffet, steamboat style... Not sure where cause it's my friend who will bring us there by car.

Haven't seen for a while... and the love/hate feeling is coming back. She didn't come for my birthday, don't know why I come for hers. No, it's not that I'm counting, but I feel that she doesnt really care for anyone's birthday anymore. Whether she wants to save money or just dont care, I also dont know. The last birthday she went for was... so long, I hardly remember. Maybe it's early this year, SG's bday. Nvm, the point is... she just dont care anymore!

Sigh... why do I even care? It's Daniel big day too! So I will shift all my negative thoughts and enjoy this day like it's Daniel's birthday only. If 'she' chg her attitude for the better, maybe I will treat her better. Who knows? It maybe impossible... >.<;

Today is a sad sad day...

Sigh... A sad sad day today. Can't write it in my blog cause private matters... Life is full of ups and downs, so didn't expect such a 'big' impact struct my life today... A bit sad and mad, but sigh... that's life. What really pissed me off is we got cheated by a damn Indian guy (or group) of our money... That SOAB, MF no D AH... I wish he and his 'gang' will suffer a miserable death and punished for all the crimes they did, suffer a miserable death and rot in Hell!!! DTHUPGDMFSOAB!!!!!!! >( I curse them all to Hell...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rainy days...

Looks like it's going to rain soon... The dark gloomy weather, the blowing cold wind and the thunder clapping... it makes you feel relax or lonely at times. Like the song said... "Rainy days and Mondays get me down..." Sigh, too much free time, keep thinking of *tuut*... Can't wait to get myself busy on 14th, so I wont feel this 'nostalgic' and 'lonely' anymore...! -_-;