Suffering inside...

What an innocent thinking I have... I thought I will only suffer from love problems, which is out of my control. Now I am having problems with college, and it's killing me inside too. Everyday I think of it I feel 'fan', resah, unmotivated... Why is it people are so stubborn and egoistic, that they don't even know that their actions are hurting people?!?

First, the biggest problem of all, is my group leader, Mr M. He's an egoistic bastard that rules with an iron fist. Yesterday we started our music video shooting, and he seems... 'calmed down'. He acts as though nothing has happened and we did the shooting peacefully. He even smoked weed in the process, which maybe the reason he's not that 'moody' that night. After all is done, we sit down and talked, as a whole team.

Shocked, he suddenly admitted his mistakes. He's sorry for all the troubles he has caused and give some excuse about moving out of the house and received 'bad influence', thus becoming another man from last sem. I was happy he regretted, but then he said if he didn't do like that, we wouldn't have made it this far... which is crap. Some of his words are nice to hear, while some other shows that he is still egoistic and bossy inside. Whatever it is, I decided to forget our quarrel, since the 2 other member (1 didn't come) agreed with him and he said sorry for f**king me out that day. His words didn't recover my trust in him, so I will work with him for the last time this semester. I don't want to feel the tension from him again next semester, which really influenced me a lot (I even grew some white hair because of him, shit!).

Then today morning another one of my idiotic friends 'tuut' me out in FB, because I didn't return his DVD game this morning. It's is partly my fault for delaying it so long, but it was HIS too! First, he didn't reply me that he will come for the class. Second, he only sms me he's coming this morning, when I am still sleeping! Do you think I will respond to that!?

Even if it's my fault, he doesn't need to tuut me in FB until all can see it, right?!? Another rich bastard that has nothing to do... But on another hand, I am quite happy to MAKE him angry, since last time he did something to me that made me pissed at him... and he pura2 like I don't mind. Mwahahaha, now I don't give a damn about what you post, I will pretend I didn't see it and return your fu**ing game tomorrow! Ahh... the taste of vengeance is sweet! Hahahahahaha!!!

Updates, updates...

Wah... nearly 2 weeks no update liao. Wat to do... busy with assignments, PS2, magic and some more my bro rosakkan one of the com's hard disk, so now left 1 com to share 3 person. Susah betul! ><

Let's rewind back all the way back to my bday on 30th Nov. It's a Monday, and after the last tutorial, we decided to go to Cola Club at 7 for dinner to celebrate my bday. Before that some of us went for CC while some went back home. I even took the initiative to sms LG if she wanted to join us. At first she declined, saying no bus from her house to school. So I offered to fetch her, and she agreed. Was I SUPER happy she came? Hmm... hard to say. Maybe it's just me, thinking that the more the merrier. XD

So poor LG only sat there and watch us play CS for 2-3 hours. But she did 'talk' with Robin while Robin was getting head shot a lot of times, due to listening to her while playing, haha. Lucky she's not sitting next to me then! After CS at WCG, we walk over to Cola Club Genting Klang. It was a bit like the one in Wangsa Maju but more spacious, cause there's no stage for live singing -_-'' The Maryland Chicken I ordered was HUGE, and very fulfilling maybe due to a lot of fat covering the chicken (or flour). If I am full until the top of my head, u know that's way too much for normal ppl, haha... But nice nevertheless. And the Cola Shake was not bad too.

Suddenly I was suprised... it looks like the planner, Pilla, took the initiative to buy me a cake! It was a blueberry forest cake I think... not too tasty but I was very happy, since she bought me a t-shirt before that. And I received one of those 'head shaking, solar powered doll' that you usually put on car dashboards. Pilla also included a small greeting card in it, which I just jokingly suggested (a bday card). I was very happy although it was just a small card, because the thoughts' what really matters to me... ^^

Then to top it off, they even belanja me makan, which cost nearly RM20, thanks a lot guys!! Oh, all of those that joined were Pilla, Robin, Juno, Pokupie, Chew Yee, Kae, Douglas, Ee Fan, Danny, Lian Gim, Wei Ming, Kelvin and Kid. It's so fun to celebrate a bday with friends... ^^

Ok, no more bday story... lately there have been a lot of troubles happening, especially involving teammates in group assignments. I'm having a tough time with my egoistic group leader, who even charged us for using his video camera. Bloody money-sucking bastard! Lian Gim is having problems with Robin, some misunderstanding and miscommunication. Sigh... who says studying is just ALL about fun!? -_-''

On the love section... maybe too busy, so not much time to think about love anymore. No more W since I hate her... I don't miss LG like crazy already, only feel a 'little' is still there. YL... nothing I can say but hope she will find a good husband asap. So live the bachelor life is what I can do for now... enjoy while I still can! XD