Blogging is not yet... dead??

Wow... 6 months no post. I'm amazed blogging still exists, lol. Practically what I always do last 2 years (blogging) now turns to Facebook-ing. The only reason why I post this time is just to paste an interesting article which I saw from the internet, to remind me myself, not to be as honest as I was, last time. Cause let's be true to ourselves, honest ppl doesn't survive anymore in this society. It a sad and sickening truth, and I learned it the hard way. Still I'm trying to be as honest as possible, most of the time. When I don't, you know it's because I'm FORCED to. Let's read on:

WHAT WILL HONESTY GET YOU?

#1: PEOPLE WILL STOP SPEAKING TO YOU

Forget personal branding. Start to dip your toes into personal  honesty. Let me tell you what will happen. Your family might stop speaking to you.
I have experienced this not just from myself but all of the bloggers I  consider “honest bloggers”. Some of your friends will also stop speaking to you. Some of your colleagues will avoid you. Some investors will shun you. Your personal “network” will transform and shift.

My own personal motto is: honesty to a point. I will never harm anyone. I believe in what Buddha said to his son Rahula the day after he showed upafter abandoning his son for 7 years: before, during, and even AFTER you say something, make sure it doesn’t hurt anyone.

But even despite that rule, people will stop speaking to you because not every hurt you can control. Historical is hysterical for many people.

#2 PEOPLE WILL THINK YOU ARE GOING TO KILL YOURSELF

The next thing that will happen is people will ask “are you killing yourself?” Because every blog post almost seems like a suicide note. 

#3 PEOPLE WILL THINK YOU ARE CRAZY

Then people will send emails to your friends, “is he as crazy as he  sounds?” And that’s how I make friends now because introductions will be  made and people will have to find out for themselves.

#4 PEOPLE WILL GET FRIGHTENED

So they will call you names. Oh, that guy is just trying to be a  “contrarian”, for instance. Or an “idiot”. Or worse. I’ve been called  everything. I had to call the Brown University Public Safety office the  other day because I got emailed a death threat and the guy didn’t think I  could track him. The guy was a senior and had also apparently  threatened the life of a librarian there.

They need to understand why you are telling the truth. Why you are  being honest about what you really think. In meetings at the office  everyone is quiet. You’re not supposed to speak up. So people will  dislike you, try to put you down, post comments, whatever. In many cases (but not all) these are what I call “crappy people”. And here’s how to deal with them. 

#5 PEOPLE WILL FIND YOU ENTERTAINING

Then finally, people will come back to you. Because you’re  entertaining – if 20000 people are lying and only 1 person is telling  the truth then that 1 person is going to stand taller than anyone. At  first people will come back to you for voyeuristic reasons. Why? Because they know if they watch Real Housewives they aren’t watching anything “Real” and they aren’t watching “Housewives”. But you’re real. So they want to know what you’ll do next.

#6 PEOPLE WILL TRUST YOUR ADVICE

People will also come back for advice. Not always because they agree  with you. But because they know the advice is coming from the heart and  not because there is anything for sale. It’s like Google can’t cure  anything. But they can direct you to all the people who can. So you go  back to Google because you might not always find what you want but at  least you know they are trying hard to direct you to the right place.

We’ve all hidden our failures in dark comets orbiting the peripheral  edges  of the solar system, where the sun is dark and faded. But when  someone brings their orbit close  to the sun we want to land there for a  brief moment and see if actual living conditions exist. And if so, then  maybe a small settlement can be formed, advice can be asked, a failure  can be related to, a friendship can be formed.

#7 YOU BECOME FREE

At first we hug our boundaries in chains. We think “if we tell the girl we like her, she might not like me back”. We think, “If I say I like this candidate, my friends might hate me.” If I say X, everyone else might say Y. And so on. But more and more we start to feel where those boundaries are and we push them out. We push them further and further away from ourselves. Until finally they are so far away it’s as  if they don’t exist at all. You don’t need money for that. Or a big house. Or a fancy degree or car. Every day, just push out those boundaries a little further.

We reach for that freedom. We never truly get there. We’re always striving to see how far they can go, just like a little child with her parents. But eventually, the boundaries are so far away we begin to feel the pleasures of true freedom.

And it feels good.


The article above I get it from http://jamesaltucher.quora.com, which I get from... u know it, FB. I wonder what will happen in the next 2 years? Will FB still be the 'in' thing? Only time can tell...

Dead blog!?

Omg... so long didn't update blog liao, last one was in February!? Wow... how time flies! Many things have happened in the past few months... Good ones, sad ones, happy ones, bad ones... most of the time is bad, but I try to keep my hopes up and live life as much as possible before I die, as best as I can.

Forgotten what month already but I tried to go for an interview in TARC for the post of admin. I thought there was a light of hope when they called me for an interview there. I was damn nervous while waiting in the room for my turn (only 1 girl before me). But sadly the one interviewed me was an old hag... keep asking me this and that as what I did for all the times wasted earlier (yes I know I'm not young anymore, so what!?). In the end dunno gave me an excuse or really their policy, saying they can't hire somebody who is still studying in the college, as I am waiting to repeat my FYP. The feeling of rejection wasn't nice, as expected. It's like I felled off a 12 floor building... splat! But I again keep up a positive attitude, and just live on life and push my troubles behind me.

So spent most of the time doing my bro's lawyer transcription thingy, which earns me really little. But at least for the first time I dont need to take any pocket money from my parents. Lately it gets even less and I couldn't bear it anymore, need to take some pocket money back else I really cant survive, damn...!

Watched a lot of manga and some animes lately, cause got so much time in my hands. One thing I learned from those are that life is always full of downs, although more ups in virtue life. So what can we do to go on with this hardship called life? Just do your best, life happily and with no regrets. I don't care if I suddenly die tomorrow, because I know I have done what I want to do with my life, and the future are extras in my 'what I want to do with my life' book. The world is getting too crazy, hard and brutal. I wonder when will the world really destroy itself, if they keep messing up like this?

A lot of news of ppl getting rob in bright daylight. Worse is it happens in public or at the most safe/un-thought of places. Damn they're brave! Ppl can't help the victims as they scare they will fall victim to them too, as some ppl died helping others in the news. Wish I can be Superman and whack kao all these suckers into jail for hurting or even killing ppl, just to get quick cash! Damn it, this world sucks!!!

Another 1 thing I learned is 'if you dont have a big head, dont wear a big hat'. It means we should only do whatever we can, not overdoing it. Like ppl who doesn't earn much but go on buying expensive items. Are they called shopaholics or just damn spoiled!? They should just be left alone without any help, thus eventually will lose their spending urge, or go bankrupt for not paying their credit cards, haha. All ppl have their own weaknesses, I know... cause I too got many weaknesses. But if you dont solve it yourself, nobody can help you, even if they try. Cause the main power is in your own hands! Not only shopaholics, but also drug addicts, bullies, rapist, murderer, thieves, etc...

I'm getting more and more philosophical lately, haha. Been playing much magic, and lately got into an argument with andy cause I was trying to help make more house rules, suitable for new players. But I got blamed and he deleted me from the McD magic group, then sendiri left my fb group. Then got the nerve to tell Razif I deleted him, big fat stinking liar! F**k him, I don't want a stupid fake liar as my friend. Lucky I noticed it earlier than later. He was a gangster in the first place too (knows a lot of bad friends). Better stay away from this kind of ppl else will drag me down with him one day!

I am very frank, and very truthful. If it's not nice, I will say it's not nice. I may upset a few ppl, but if they can't accept my truthfulness and rather I lie to them, then good riddance to you. Cause I dont want any fake friends either! I want long lasting, good and real friends. Those that will be with me through ups and downs, as I will for them. I will not use them, neither will them to me. That is why I kicked some fake friends away from my life... because my life will be much better without a few rotten apples to ruin it for me. If they turned for the better, I will accept them back. But if they remain the same, asta la vista baby!

Whenever I got free time and feel lonely, I will think of her, yes... yling, again. But luckily I kept myself busy with magic, games, FB and houseworks. The feeling of missing her, the pain of not having her, still lingers around... Stop it mind! Stop it heart! Somebody ask them to get married, fast!!! ><''

Finally got the call from Jimmy... thank God they ok, cause keep calling them but no answer. The plan is delayed but still on, so now going to celebrate WingC bday! Adios~! XD

Busy, busy...

Argh... getting busier and busier d. What to do, second last sem... preparing for FYP which is next sem. Then going to work d... so busy until no time for HoN, haiz~

So how's my life so far? Well... so busy that there's hardly time to think about love, that's for sure. Last week didn't go for yamcha as Daniel was busy and I was broke, due to the damn car no petrol and stop in the middle of the road for TWO times in a week, f**k!

Do I miss YL? A little bit yes, a little bit no. Luckily I am surrounded by my course mates which cures my loneliness and shift my attention to somewhere else, lol. Although there are young and definitely would not become my gf, I am very blessed to have them as my friends nevertheless. Loneliness... it's become a part of my life already, haha.

Magic is very hot now... with commander set just released and M12 coming, definitely I will go broke but happy with the new cards. What's the use of money when you are not happy, right? Besides, I don't have to support any gf which is really a blessing in disguise for a student like me, wakakaka... Laters~!

A lazy weekend

Argh... my friends have finished their intern but I am still stuck with 1 more week to go. This week Monday was a holiday, which I really enjoyed. Can't enjoy holidays unless u r working, haha. Then took 2 days off my myself to do some work at home. The video, second part, doesn't have sound!? Wth is the cameraman doing??! After much trouble and time wasting, I finally found out that the cameraman used another 'channel' to record the sound. The Mr Lee department was busy, so they can only help me convert it next week. Sigh... but 1 problem solved, okla :)

Yesterday kena tuut by the supervisor... saying she wont accept excuses. Does facts consider as excuses!? At first I signed into FNM, thought of learning the ups and downs of the production industry. But she said if you join FNM, it means u want to learn how to become a director... wtf!? She added that if you don't want to be a director, then you should go other places for intern. Urgh... sabar, sabar...! Now I know why the WHOLE FNM hates her, cis!

Forget that woman...! I tried my best to be good with her but she STILL makes me mad. Sien!!

This week no yamcha again because YL and CM going to Bangkok. Sad, but couldn't be forced I guess. But pre-release of the new expansion in Magic is tomorrow, yippee~! I hope I get an expensive card to cover my cost~ haha. Darren getting married in Penang this weekend, sadly I couldn't help him out as he needs to be in Penang on Sun and Monday, and Monday me and my bro also busy. Next week is my last week in FNM, yeah~! XD

A fun weekend with friends

Ah... another week filled with fun and laughter with my friends, without needing to worry about work and studies. Doing intern only but already I feel a little tension on work life... that is why I am not rushing to work at all, lol.

Anyway last week Sat we went to Malacca. Yeah it was a bit pain on the wallet but well worth it! Drove to Jayaone to meet with them, then drove my car to park at WingC's place. Me, SG and Jimmy went aboard WingC's car (but it was Jimmy that drove) and away we go to Malacca at around 11am~!

Traffic jam like siao... bummer! Looks like a lot KL ppl also have the same thought as us, "3 days of holiday should be spent outside KL!" Haha... So we chat along the way and in the end too tired and slept in the car (all except the driver). When we woke up, we were near Malacca, finally! So me and SG went down 1st and book a place to eat the "chicken rice ball", and luckily we were the last one! Need to queue and get number for a small restaurant like that, I was like... "Wow, really so famous meh?". Then we went to our sit while waiting for Jimmy and WC. They parked really far so it took some time for them to reach.

Finally our food arrived. I really forgot the last time I ate it (I was below 10 years old then) so I thought it was really nice. In the end we were given a couple balls of rice and a plate of chicken. I was like "WTF!? These only!??". And sadly, yes...! So I ate it, feeling extremely hungry. Ok... it taste nice and special... but OVERATED! It wasn't as super as I thought... just special because the rice was in the form of balls. WTF??!? Now I know I don't need to crave for this food anymore since it is just a bit special than normal... and damn pricey to boot!

Then we went walking around Chonker Street. Like Petaling Street in KL, there are a lot of stuffs there, and damn pricey to "chop" foreigners and visitors like us. I thought of buying some souvenirs but cancel it due to the price. I would have bought it for my love one, if I ever have one... haha. Anyway the best thing about the walk is we were able to try more special food, which is baba laksa and nyona curry (if I am not mistaken their names). Yes, this is good! Not too pricey too... I will take this anytime over that chicken rice ball!

SG wanted to buy some toto numbers, so we bought one using 1 number from all of us. But no strike though, haha... Then we walk back to the car. Poor SG walked painfully there because her high heels are not meant to walk far distance. I wished I could help her but all I could do is slowly follow her. Then when in the car WC borrowed her sandals to her, which she wore until we went back KL.

After the street we went to a shopping mall because Jimmy wanted to test the new IPad2. It was cool no doubt... but we were playing the games more than the functions, haha. Then we left for Seremban to buy Seremban Siew Pau.

Got a bit lost there but finally found one, called Empayer Siew Pau. But there was a restaurant there too, and the siew pau was inside it. Special place... so we decided to sit down and eat dinner there, since a lot of ppl was there too. And we were not let down, the food was fantastic! We ate belacan kangkong, one pork meal and a crab. It was pricey but all of us was happily full. So we count the daily expenses and in the end I paid RM50, which was a discount of RM7, haha... I think SG too. Thanks Jimmy and WC~! ^^

Thought of yamcha but cancelled as we were late when we reached and we decided to go for breakfast the next day. So the next day we went out again, Sunday (yesterday). I drove to Jimmy's house and parked my car there then followed them to Jalan Ipoh for dim sum and pau. I like it very much but they said it was "ok" only... haha, looks like my taste buds are way different from them. Apart from last night's gang, YL and CM also joined. We ate will we were full, sharing our meals. In the end all need to pay RM12 per person... not bad. I was happy because I was able to taste my fav cha siew pau again! hahaha XD

Then we went to Kepong Jusco to watch Thor. Actually I already watched it for free with Daniel on Friday, but since all wanted to go then never mind, watch again la. Before that we went to shop for SG's sweater because she didn't bring it and will scare cold in the cinema later. Finally bought a purple sweater, then we went for Old Town Kopitiam for lunch and yamcha before the movie starts. Jimmy complained that we should went for Coffee bean, but I suspect he anti old town, haha... Coffee bean cannot eat la, ol' buddy~! :P

After a nice yamcha session, we went for the movie. Watching it a second time makes me understand the movie more. All of them enjoyed it. Then it was time to say goodbye, and we split. Jimmy sent SG back before going back and then I drove back home myself. A fabulous weekend, its a pity Daniel couldn't join because he was busy with exams and flew to Bali on Sunday.

One thing I learned from the trip is that SG went for a fortune teller and what she said influenced her a lot. Debbie, the fortune teller, tell her that she needs to find a bf from outstation and need to give birth now or risk giving birth when she is 40+ years old. Because of this she thinks of going to the sperm bank... wth!? She is a nice girl and I enjoyed hanging out with her, but I really think she should have more faith in herself and not believing entirely what Debbie said. She should have more confidence in herself... love will find its own way, no use rushing it. Whatever her decision is, I hope she will have a bright future with her love one... ~The End~

Work life

So this is what work life feels like... I felt it once doing my intern last time, but have already thrown the bad past away thus forgetting it. Now living afresh, I can feel the meaning of 'working' again...

How does it feel doing intern in FNM but not getting paid? Good... maybe not the best, but I can say here is way better than when I am doing intern as a graphic designer in that stupid company in Cheras. Although 90% is Malay, that doesn't stop me from knowing new friends. I am quite happy studying while working in FNM, and hope I can work here one day, haha... XD

Getting less time for games and need to sleep early every night to prevent myself from feeling sleepy in the office. One good thing about working is I am too busy to think about love related stuffs. Wait... is that a good thing or a bad one? lol...

CNY has passed, and I wonder if YL have gotten a bf since that day she went for the other group of friends than ours. Useless to think about it, but you know I can't control myself when it comes to her, haha... Must try self hypnosis to myself one day! >.<

Hope by the end of the intern I really can become a successful director... or at least someone who can make good films, one way or another. I want to be different... not weird like Daniel, but different in a good way... cause non of my friends are involved in this field! Must be because of the crazy working hours or low pay? Hmm...

First day of internship in FNM

Yah, now I am blogging in Filem Negara Malaysia. This time must do private browsing, in case this 'secret' blog is discovered, haha...

2 days ago was the best day for this year. Had a bunch of joy and happiness with my old TARC friends. Although YL didn't go, Daniel also didn't go, it was still full of fun and laughter all the way... Heard YL dressed up very prettily for a gathering with her colleagues. Why she doesn't do like that for our group, I wonder...?

Looking back at some old post and pictures make me feel what a fool I am last time... maybe still am, right now. I know I am not perfect to complain about other people's weaknesses... so I won't. So I will just say it out as a whole, as a general...

Today is Valentine's Day. It is a day where people go out to celebrate with their love ones. I don't have one, so I will save money and celebrate it alone at home... haha. Anyway, love has always been the issue of debate, talks, arguments and gossip. Some of my friends are getting more 'intimate' with their love ones, thus I now understand the phrase 'love changes a person'. Some of my friends are heartbroken or broke up with their pair, thus the phrase 'love is fragile'. Then there are people who are still single or just having fun without being comitted, and they looked highly to the phrase 'give me freedom or give me death!'. LOL... so I'm the last one, wakakaka...

I think I fall in love too easily... maybe cause I am lonely, or maybe because I am easily swerved by people of the opposite sex that treated me well. Whatever the reason, I will remain single until the day I have a fix income. Because with no money comes no love... It's a harsh fact of life used by the famous 'Weird Dan'. I also uses it because I know with the current pocket money, there is no way I can go out dating, haha...

Signing off now. Happy CNY and Valentines Day to all my readers. Ciaoz~! ^^

Updates Nov 2010

Lately feeling a lot of pressure from studies. First part, which field am I heading for my future...? After much consideration, I feel that making movies is my interest. Since I did quite well for my FYP (got an A and I was the Director) and I have interest in making video, so production is my choice. I gave the demo reel assignment to the lecturer and she recommended me 2 production companies, which is good compared to some others who didn't have any recommended companies as their demo reel wasn't concentrated in which field they are interested in. Poor MC...

Then there is another assignment this semester which is linked to my coming FYP. I need to find a partner which is in the same interest as me, but none interested in production. The ones who did are not closed to me and have their own partners in mind. So, another assignment I need to solo... and I sent the proposal to the lecturer. Lucky I'm not the only one, so I'm allowed to solo in this min 2 person assignment.

Last week just finished a presentation. It was a role-playing presentation, where I am the chairman and we are discussing about the production of a movie in a meeting. My group of 5, I was the only guy. They made the presentation fun (in one part I was singing Oh My God, rather than saying it out), which I scared was too un-serious for a presentation. But the teacher like it very much! Our group got the highest among the whole class as we were fun, grab attention from the audience as well as loud enough to be heard. I was the best too, as the teacher only gave me good commenta, none bad ones (all the others have at least one bad comment). And he said I was a good chairperson as I was in control of the meeting and loud enough to be heard. Yay! Happy la... cause so long no praised by teacher liao ^^

In the love department... LG is definitely going out with that new pro guy. Always see her with him, wherever she goes. Sad? A bit... but more towards happy. Happy cause I am not 'tied' to her anymore, after that bad incident... Whenever a girl I like is 'possessed' by another guy, my feelings for her will automatically die (100%). Now I wonder if the guy can stand her, cause she barely have any skills while he has all of it (means he will do a lot of assignment for her, no doubt, haha). Sucks being him I bet, lol... I see a little bit of me in him, where we are too kind until we can't say no to helping people. I see him helping a lot of people doing this and that assignment, until being used also dont know. Maybe he wants it that way? I donno... good luck to him anyway.

Here's hoping I will be a successful Director in the future! (now that I think of it, none of my friends or family are involved in productions except me... which makes me scared and proud at the same time, haha) CHEERS~! XD

Now holiday!

Wow so long no update d, haha... finally free from all those assignments and exams. I think will get my first fail this sem, as the teacher even posted the answer on FB and I know I didn't do well. Oh well, at least pass assignments, if fail also need to repeat exam only. I hate assignments when you need to do it alone! ><

Love life have been dull these couple of days... A good sign maybe, since I know all my love is one sided, haha. The only time I miss her is when I saw her picture of face in FB. Cannot run, usually sure saw her picture de cause her sister using her account to play a FB game that I still play (RC). Miss only..... yes, just a missing feeling...

Have been active in the world of Magic lately. Not only does it use my mind power to create a good deck, it can really de-stress and make me forget all the worries of the world... just concentrate to eliminate your opponents! Actually I am easily troubled and worried about all the smallest things, for a long time... so being happy will make me think less.

Next sem worry again cause split class again. In one aspect I cannot see most of my friends... but in another I can meet and find new friends. Since I know I have no one really to team up with in the old class, maybe the new change will make it all better... I hope. Argh, don't want to think about it anymore... nothing can be done to change it. Just live my life the way I want, as good as I can!

Lately...

Lately life in college has been busy. A lot of assignments, one of them involving finding a real client and make a website (for free) for then. The client is our choice but must be in the category of charity house. First time need to do these kind of stuffs, wow...

And since I am in a new semester, I don't have a partner that will always be with me when we do group assignments. Don't have a partner of 2, sometimes have a partner when in groups of 4-5. I wonder why is it this way? When I asked one of my best friends (girl), she told me it's not my fault but due to the age gap thingy. I was shocked... and sad. Shouldn't have told some of my friends my age back then... now it's too late to take it back, sigh!

No matter... if the tide comes, I shall swim against it! If there's a group of 2, I believe I can do it solo! Yes... that's the only choice I have, for now... T_T

On the news with LG... she still haven't un-ban me in FB. Either she didn't know how to do it (highly doubt so) or she still don't want to do it. I even got to know that she banned me in her MSN too, haha. Fine... if you don't want peace, I don't give a damn too. Don't say I didn't try though, haha...

No, I will not feel sad because of this. It's so normal for me that in college, she cease to exist in my world. I don't look at her anymore (unless she's in my line of sight) nor do I consider she's around even if she's standing beside me. 99% cured of LG, yay!!!

So busy even no time for magic... and with the World Cup on now, I'm only able to watch some of it (cause most of it is being aired on midnights). Nearly all of my classes starts at 8 or 9am too, sigh...!

Updates

Wow... nearly one week since I updated. Yeah life is still as busy as usual... With the tension gathering more and more, even my group leader can't stand it anymore (so do us). He becomes bossy and sometimes egoistic, which often hurt our feelings as group members. But I still can handle it... the other group members are not so fond of his actions anymore (starting to complain his bad stuffs behind his back). Sigh... who says being a student is easy? -_-''

This week I noticed CK has been sick for a couple of classes. Yeah I shouldn't be bothered, but I did... and from FB I found out she was having a stomach ache. So after a couple of weeks of not chatting with her, I asked on how is her condition on MSN.

She replied, saying was sick nearly in the whole body, maybe due to not enough sleep. It was fun chatting with her again, although there is still the small torn in my heart from her past actions. Maybe I couldn't be angry with somebody for long... that's why I still cared for her (as a friend), haha. In the end she thanked me for caring, which makes me happier... XD

Even with W... I slowly don't hate her 'skin deep' anymore. Yes I still try to avoid talking with her but if she wants anything from me, I will talk with her 'normally' now. Her evil doings are far worse than CK's, so I don't think I will forgive her unless she did something that will make me change my mind, haha.....

Life nowadays is full of problems. Me busy with my assignments and school politics... the world is having a global meltdown... people still can't find jobs and Malaysia politics suck big time. When will the world be in peace once again, I wonder.....?

Busy like a bumble bee

Argh... this whole week really busy like siao. Tuesday went to gym at TARC for the first time with Robin and Patrick, but then it turned out I am the noobest there (expected). Get tired too easily, even stretching my hands too long feels pain. Maybe I overdid by taking weights too early and accidentally dislocate some muscles... causing pain. But the day after that woke up like a zombie... not enough sleep and tired all over, ouch!

Wednesday went to do recording at Muni's dad's clinic. His dad was a very polite and a gentleman, totally the opposite of Muni... I guess sometimes too much of rules makes ppl rebellious. Had fun taking pictures, sound and videos in the clicnic. Then went to the Tesco nearby and continue recording sounds with the video recorder. It was again crazy, as we had a trolley race... LOL. While we were doing recordings they were some police nearby looking what are we doing. Lazy bumps... sittingt there and not scouting around, policemen nowadays... sigh! Then went back to Muni's house, which is big since his dad's a doctor.

Took LRT and went back Wangsa, buy a RM10 bag for Wei Ming's bday. Plus 4 piece of wrapping paper that cost RM1.50 each, me and Robin each paid RM8 for his present. After finish wrapping, we went to the tea house in GK where we ate cakes, lunch and have fun with the gang. Took some pictures too... hope can upload it later here, haha. Although it was really painful for my wallet, these things is what made me feel that studying in TARC is the best! ^^

Yesterday yamcha with Sum, Daniel and David... almost 2 weeks no yamcha liao, if I not mistaken. Dont say yamcha la... these 2 weeks I only played Dota for less than 5 times! Record la, siao... -__-'' So busy, argh...! Sum and David were playing Magic, which I havent touch for ages. If I weren't busy with assignments I would have taken out my Magic cards and tune it, haha... maybe next time ><

Today early woke up and felt sick... so decided not to go school. But later need to go again for group discussion at 1pm! Walao weh, one day cuti also cannot... really got time to die, no time to sick!! X_X

Love updates: Since I was so busy, have less time to think about love liao... No use thinking about love too, since LG and W hates me... and CK a little bit. Friends also hard, love is totally out! Maybe it's my fault... for being too friendly, it made me look desperate? Too friendly scares ppl, I know. So I won't bug LG, since a LOT of ppl will bug her everyday. When in the tea house one of my friend asked 'Eh, no one asked LG come ah?'... Then I also thought 'Eh, yahor...". If last time sure is me, cause I want to make her communicate more with her classmates. But now no more... I am not her guardian, and she is not my angel. Goodbye LG, I know you will have a better life without my presence.....

~Penyek kau, emo! >0 Penyek! Penyek! *Penyek* X_X~ XD

That sicky feeling...

Argh... yesterday and today also feel sick. Have a bad sore throat and feeling weak all over... like going to fell ill any moment. Maybe it's because this week I went out for too much excitement liao. Long time didn't fell ill... and luckily school only reopens on the 5th. Had a check of my wallet and realized I used around RM100 in these 2 weeks... wth!? Happy... but sakit ><''

Yesterday had a chat with SP and gave her the link to my blog liao... so can't tease her in my blog liao (not that I did... did I? :P). Her wedding is coming soon, which fell on 10/10. Luckily I accepted her invitation earlier cause the next day another goof friend of mine also gave one, and they have the same day, same time! So sooooooooo sorry to my friend UmaShankar cause I can't go for your one as I already promised SP's side first. His bride is none other than Kavidha, haha... may God bless the two of you for all eternity! ^^

Oh no... the feeling of lovesick is slowly coming back... I can feel it. Luckily I don't see YL every week else I really will 'kena penyakit teruk' once again...! Please let her find a good bf as soon as possible... please dear God, please! I really wish for her the best... as my heart will be sad if she can't be with someone who can take good care of her for the rest of her life.

Thinking too much again...! *Piak!*

Sorry no updates...!

Lately really nothing much to blog about, so wait until I start back college on the 2nd of March... Maybe then will have more to blog about... just maybe, haha.

2 weeks LG free... it feels good when I'm not thinking about her. Why do I hate her in the first place? I'm also not so sure anymore. Maybe it's because she rejected me? Hmm... maybe. But knowing the reason upsets me even more than her just rejecting me. I didn't know she was the type to 'think' like that too. I guess she's 'normal' to think like that... sigh!

But what I didn't know was behind the innocent looking girl, she actually bad talks people... a lot! And it was even more foolish when you told somebody it was supposed to be a secret... Heck, you told a BUNCH of people not to tell anyone about it! This shows that paper cannot wrap fire, thus sooner or later, your bad doings will surely be known by others.

Sheesh, no more thinking about other people... time to enjoy my last week of holidays to the max. Boyah!

Life in the holidays

Wah... didn't update this blog for 11 days liao. But what can I say, nowadays holidays nothing to update! When at college at least I can write about my opinions and feelings, but at home... everyday become snake! Play PS2, dota, eat (repeat until sleep then repeat again). Oh, sometimes Mahjong too, since my parents still wants Mahjong after CNY >.<;

Lately no more thinking about LG... which is a good thing. Playing Persona 4 which acts like an RPG + courting girl game. One of the best game I have ever play! Truly one of the best game in PS2. Anyway, you can even learn from games about life, even increase ur knowledge through it! For instance, do you know which is the highest mountain known by human now? 

I'm also starting to accept the cruel facts of life which cannot be changed, no matter how evil or bad it is. And the hardest thing to accept is one's own weakness, deep inside... you may lie or ignore it, but it is still there. How many people can really accept their own deep, dark weakness? Very few... including me!

Ok that's all for now... enjoy life dudes!

Sorry no updates!

Wow, didn't know no update for one week liao. How time flies when you are busy doing this and that. Lately busy with assignments, playing Maple (cause got x2 exp) and last week Sat I worked for the first time as a Graphic Designer in my dad's company! Of course, people there don't know I'm his son... :P

I was a bit tensed, first day work as a GD, not doing practical this time... just part time. The place where dad is working is in USJ (near YL place again, wth) and it's actually an office and warehouse combined together. Luckily the work given to me was not that hard but their requirements are hard to be pleased. Work continuosly for the 5 hours, only went to the toilet for a break 5 minutes! Luckily only work half day... but then I need to bring the work back home do, swt. Until now still doing it cause the guy didn't send me completely the files I needed yet.

This Monday didn't saw LG as lecture cancelled. Tuesday also no see her cause she OVERSLEPT... o.O! Yesterday finally able to see her with her NEW hairstyle... My impression was... stunned. Before that some of my friend say she look nice while other said the hairstyle doesn't suit her. Since I like her, of course I would like it, most probably... And I did. Not only did she cut a 'special' hairstyle, she even straighten her hair. Now she doesn't tie up her hair anymore. My heart jumped a beat, but I kicked it back on the floor, knowing it will not happen... my feelings >.<

Oh, another happy thing was she gave me my bday present in advance! I don't know if I should open it or not in class, but since she gave the green light, I opened it... slowly and passionately, haha. It was a key chain that glows in the dark with the name 'Jason' (I seen it before). Touched, I thanked her a couple of times cause she even hand wrapped it for me. Unfortunately she won't be joining us for this Sat's karaoke with my first batch of TARC friends in Pavilion... but Sunday maybe will go out with THIS batch of TARC friends, so that one she will join... if it happens.

Argh, I'm lovesick once again...! Told myself to be like Daniel (don't invlove in feelings so much) but just couldn't. Wat... The... Fish!? >.<


P/S: My bday this Sunday, if you don't know...! XD

The exams are around and I'm stuck at home...

Lately doing nothing much except staying at home and study (a bit, lol). Last Sunday Jimmy, Sam, SG and WC came, and we took dinner at Feelings, the new Wangsa Maju one. Luckily there's live singing else the trip there totally sucked. The food was not nice and they use cheap hot dogs... blegh! Waste RM28 that night but worth it. So long didn't chat and meet them up liao. We can even play Big 2 or Uno there, nice! (Seems like a lot of 'cafe' is doing these too)


Since I no go out, takkan I update my blog with what I do at home right...? So I will update less lately, until the exams are over or when I got something to blog about. Exam start this Friday. No sms with LG nowadays, but got talk with W la... cause she online in MSN while LG hates to online. Another fact I dislike about her >.< Oh well, adios amigos!

Saved as draft

The previous post has been saved as draft to prevent any conflict or misunderstanding. It is not meant to be hurtful, but just as a self opinion diary by an innocent guy. Those who got google reader still can see la, lol...


Recently still busy with assignments, as usual. Dad went back to China today and he maybe coming back in two months to work in Malaysia, no more China. Got good and bad if my dad's in China, but that's another story... ciao!