Forgotten what month already but I tried to go for an interview in TARC for the post of admin. I thought there was a light of hope when they called me for an interview there. I was damn nervous while waiting in the room for my turn (only 1 girl before me). But sadly the one interviewed me was an old hag... keep asking me this and that as what I did for all the times wasted earlier (yes I know I'm not young anymore, so what!?). In the end dunno gave me an excuse or really their policy, saying they can't hire somebody who is still studying in the college, as I am waiting to repeat my FYP. The feeling of rejection wasn't nice, as expected. It's like I felled off a 12 floor building... splat! But I again keep up a positive attitude, and just live on life and push my troubles behind me.
So spent most of the time doing my bro's lawyer transcription thingy, which earns me really little. But at least for the first time I dont need to take any pocket money from my parents. Lately it gets even less and I couldn't bear it anymore, need to take some pocket money back else I really cant survive, damn...!
Watched a lot of manga and some animes lately, cause got so much time in my hands. One thing I learned from those are that life is always full of downs, although more ups in virtue life. So what can we do to go on with this hardship called life? Just do your best, life happily and with no regrets. I don't care if I suddenly die tomorrow, because I know I have done what I want to do with my life, and the future are extras in my 'what I want to do with my life' book. The world is getting too crazy, hard and brutal. I wonder when will the world really destroy itself, if they keep messing up like this?
A lot of news of ppl getting rob in bright daylight. Worse is it happens in public or at the most safe/un-thought of places. Damn they're brave! Ppl can't help the victims as they scare they will fall victim to them too, as some ppl died helping others in the news. Wish I can be Superman and whack kao all these suckers into jail for hurting or even killing ppl, just to get quick cash! Damn it, this world sucks!!!
Another 1 thing I learned is 'if you dont have a big head, dont wear a big hat'. It means we should only do whatever we can, not overdoing it. Like ppl who doesn't earn much but go on buying expensive items. Are they called shopaholics or just damn spoiled!? They should just be left alone without any help, thus eventually will lose their spending urge, or go bankrupt for not paying their credit cards, haha. All ppl have their own weaknesses, I know... cause I too got many weaknesses. But if you dont solve it yourself, nobody can help you, even if they try. Cause the main power is in your own hands! Not only shopaholics, but also drug addicts, bullies, rapist, murderer, thieves, etc...
I'm getting more and more philosophical lately, haha. Been playing much magic, and lately got into an argument with andy cause I was trying to help make more house rules, suitable for new players. But I got blamed and he deleted me from the McD magic group, then sendiri left my fb group. Then got the nerve to tell Razif I deleted him, big fat stinking liar! F**k him, I don't want a stupid fake liar as my friend. Lucky I noticed it earlier than later. He was a gangster in the first place too (knows a lot of bad friends). Better stay away from this kind of ppl else will drag me down with him one day!
Watched a lot of manga and some animes lately, cause got so much time in my hands. One thing I learned from those are that life is always full of downs, although more ups in virtue life. So what can we do to go on with this hardship called life? Just do your best, life happily and with no regrets. I don't care if I suddenly die tomorrow, because I know I have done what I want to do with my life, and the future are extras in my 'what I want to do with my life' book. The world is getting too crazy, hard and brutal. I wonder when will the world really destroy itself, if they keep messing up like this?
A lot of news of ppl getting rob in bright daylight. Worse is it happens in public or at the most safe/un-thought of places. Damn they're brave! Ppl can't help the victims as they scare they will fall victim to them too, as some ppl died helping others in the news. Wish I can be Superman and whack kao all these suckers into jail for hurting or even killing ppl, just to get quick cash! Damn it, this world sucks!!!
Another 1 thing I learned is 'if you dont have a big head, dont wear a big hat'. It means we should only do whatever we can, not overdoing it. Like ppl who doesn't earn much but go on buying expensive items. Are they called shopaholics or just damn spoiled!? They should just be left alone without any help, thus eventually will lose their spending urge, or go bankrupt for not paying their credit cards, haha. All ppl have their own weaknesses, I know... cause I too got many weaknesses. But if you dont solve it yourself, nobody can help you, even if they try. Cause the main power is in your own hands! Not only shopaholics, but also drug addicts, bullies, rapist, murderer, thieves, etc...
I'm getting more and more philosophical lately, haha. Been playing much magic, and lately got into an argument with andy cause I was trying to help make more house rules, suitable for new players. But I got blamed and he deleted me from the McD magic group, then sendiri left my fb group. Then got the nerve to tell Razif I deleted him, big fat stinking liar! F**k him, I don't want a stupid fake liar as my friend. Lucky I noticed it earlier than later. He was a gangster in the first place too (knows a lot of bad friends). Better stay away from this kind of ppl else will drag me down with him one day!
I am very frank, and very truthful. If it's not nice, I will say it's not nice. I may upset a few ppl, but if they can't accept my truthfulness and rather I lie to them, then good riddance to you. Cause I dont want any fake friends either! I want long lasting, good and real friends. Those that will be with me through ups and downs, as I will for them. I will not use them, neither will them to me. That is why I kicked some fake friends away from my life... because my life will be much better without a few rotten apples to ruin it for me. If they turned for the better, I will accept them back. But if they remain the same, asta la vista baby!
Whenever I got free time and feel lonely, I will think of her, yes... yling, again. But luckily I kept myself busy with magic, games, FB and houseworks. The feeling of missing her, the pain of not having her, still lingers around... Stop it mind! Stop it heart! Somebody ask them to get married, fast!!! ><''
Finally got the call from Jimmy... thank God they ok, cause keep calling them but no answer. The plan is delayed but still on, so now going to celebrate WingC bday! Adios~! XD
Finally got the call from Jimmy... thank God they ok, cause keep calling them but no answer. The plan is delayed but still on, so now going to celebrate WingC bday! Adios~! XD
