(A long part of this original post was 'cut' to prevent boringness... lol)
Today was hanging with the new group and 'W' was there too. We have fun eating, chatting... and later I even took the initiative to follow her gang to another friend's house to hang around. We played 'cho tai tee' and I managed to be in a winning streak of 7 round, while the another two friends won 2 time and 1 time each. She never won before, poor her... XD
Then we split up at school when we realised the teacher cancelled class. With an ironic twist of fate, LG comes up! I thought of just saying hi as she was far away, but the moment she saw me saying hi, she come walking towards my place pula! -_-; Sweat... oh well, since another friend of mine was there, we chat for some time there.
It was a long talk... we discovered more stuff about ourselves than ever before. Then suddenly a big punch was hit on my face... I discovered that her parents don't like her to have a bf, and she agrees too! Bloody Hell... was I being played all this while!? I... I... I didn't know what to do but act normally right then. But deep inside, I was shattered and punctured deeply... how could she be sending me all those false signals when she can't even have a bf!?! WHY!?!
What can I say, my trust for girls have went down by a notch again... I can't believe I was tricked by a simple girl like her. I must be either too stupid or just plain blind. Although it was short lived, I can still feel the pain inside. Wonder how long will it recover this time. Looking at the bright side, I'm now 'free' again... but is that what I really want? .............................. 'W'
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
A busy week has passed, but more to come...!
Last week was super busy week... need to pass up assignments, then thought I do one while my other two friends do another... and they couldn't finish it! So we again do it together in school and later pass up an uncomplete work, sigh.....!
Then to mark the end of coriculum activities, everyone need to do a 'final' stuuf for their sports, in which mine was tennis competition (others also mostly competition or 'exams'). So Saturday I skipped my Japanese class and went for tennis early in the morning at 8.30am. It was a long match, in which our team need to compete against another 5 teams.
We won 4, lost 2... but sadly didn't get into the semi-finals because just lack of TWO marks. I was pretty impressive that day with my special 'hit technique' that was like badminton style. Although weird, it did the trick well and most of the ball I hit back to the opponent was a 'high' ball, making them unable to predict when to hit... and so I won, most of the time :P
Finished nearly around 4.30pm, thats EIGHT hours! Got some sunburn on my arms, but the competition was really fun and exciting. No more tennis makes me kind of sad cause it's a sport that I enjoyed playing... and the coach was fun too. We also took a group photo before disbanding.
On LG... lately didnt do much stuff except talking to her. She does not have enough sleep, so am I. The only thing I did was SMS her on Friday, when she balik kampung. I noticed that when she talks to me, she is the one who does most of the talking... but when I SMS, I am always the one who does the typing...! Her SMS is like... just for the matter of replying, no other stuffs, full stop.
That is why usually I SMS her first, she reply, then I reply again and say goodbye, finish... no more SMS! It's either she's busy, dont like to SMS or... I donno. Boring... is that how she feel when talking to me? lol...
Maybe we are not..... aih, I also donno. Somebody up there give me a signal, don't let me 'float float' clueless again leh! Wo chiu chiu ni! >.<
Then to mark the end of coriculum activities, everyone need to do a 'final' stuuf for their sports, in which mine was tennis competition (others also mostly competition or 'exams'). So Saturday I skipped my Japanese class and went for tennis early in the morning at 8.30am. It was a long match, in which our team need to compete against another 5 teams.
We won 4, lost 2... but sadly didn't get into the semi-finals because just lack of TWO marks. I was pretty impressive that day with my special 'hit technique' that was like badminton style. Although weird, it did the trick well and most of the ball I hit back to the opponent was a 'high' ball, making them unable to predict when to hit... and so I won, most of the time :P
Finished nearly around 4.30pm, thats EIGHT hours! Got some sunburn on my arms, but the competition was really fun and exciting. No more tennis makes me kind of sad cause it's a sport that I enjoyed playing... and the coach was fun too. We also took a group photo before disbanding.
On LG... lately didnt do much stuff except talking to her. She does not have enough sleep, so am I. The only thing I did was SMS her on Friday, when she balik kampung. I noticed that when she talks to me, she is the one who does most of the talking... but when I SMS, I am always the one who does the typing...! Her SMS is like... just for the matter of replying, no other stuffs, full stop.
That is why usually I SMS her first, she reply, then I reply again and say goodbye, finish... no more SMS! It's either she's busy, dont like to SMS or... I donno. Boring... is that how she feel when talking to me? lol...
Maybe we are not..... aih, I also donno. Somebody up there give me a signal, don't let me 'float float' clueless again leh! Wo chiu chiu ni! >.<
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Ups and downs... so complicated!
Today was nearly walking like a half zombie because slept 3 hours only last night... but when she comes into the classroom, my body was powered up and I don't feel fatique anymore. Another power of love? lol...
We chatted more today, on works, assignments and even her busy schedule life stuffs. I finally got the chance to give her the choki-choki (although I said no to eating it numerous times) kept in my bag. When I asked 'Do you want a choki-coki?', she smiled while nodding her head vigorously 'Yes! Yes!'. She was happy, so was I... XD
As we walked side by side down the stairs after class, I know my friends are watching from the back. But I don't care anymore, I enjoyed every moment with her and any mockery seem to be just small beans. But she have to go back to her hostel, so I walked until the final step with her and bid her goodbye...
I must learn to acccept it... No use forcing, no use envying... all is fate and destiny. So if she has no fate with me, doing anything will still not change the fact (will it?). Argh, I will just move with the flow, no use worrying, no use thinking so much. Love memang 'thau thong' lah! >.<
We chatted more today, on works, assignments and even her busy schedule life stuffs. I finally got the chance to give her the choki-choki (although I said no to eating it numerous times) kept in my bag. When I asked 'Do you want a choki-coki?', she smiled while nodding her head vigorously 'Yes! Yes!'. She was happy, so was I... XD
As we walked side by side down the stairs after class, I know my friends are watching from the back. But I don't care anymore, I enjoyed every moment with her and any mockery seem to be just small beans. But she have to go back to her hostel, so I walked until the final step with her and bid her goodbye...
I must learn to acccept it... No use forcing, no use envying... all is fate and destiny. So if she has no fate with me, doing anything will still not change the fact (will it?). Argh, I will just move with the flow, no use worrying, no use thinking so much. Love memang 'thau thong' lah! >.<
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Doubts and jealousy
This is the story of my friend. Doug chases a girl. She doesn't reject him and didnt even say a word when we tease her with Doug in front of her. Today they went to JJ, I thought to they can finally be a couple at the end of the day. But he was struck dead when she told him he already got a bf (wtf!?) after jalan2 with her the whole afternoon.
As we talk about it over lunch, she smsed him. She said her bf dumped her, and she is sad. She ask where is Doug and wants to have a walk with him... and he... agreed!? (another wtf!?)
Witnessing how love is so unpredictable, I got myself scared. Today I didn't give her the choki-choki because there was a lot people around us all the time. Still, we chat a lot (most of the time about assignments). But after the last class ended, she asked me if I am going home, and I said yes. The rumored boy who is her bf was standing next to her that time!
I asked where she was going, and she said she is heading back to the college hall to do her society club stuffs again. With so many assignments due tomorrow, she STILL needs to go. And the boy needs to go too, because he is in the club too... >( As they walk together to the college hall, I can feel my heart being pierced, again and again..... T_T
Yes, I know I'm being jealous... but that's natural, right? Although she told me they don't have any relationship whatsoever, I still feel 'green'. Spending most of the time together in the same club, how can I feel nothing? Now I'm having doubts if she just likes me, or really love me... both are totally two Big Different Words! And with all the bad experience I had + my friend's case earlier, fear and doubts are rushing in.
Tonight me and my friends are going to be gods (no need sleep), but I still have time to worry about these petty stuffs. Sigh... why do love exist!?!
As we talk about it over lunch, she smsed him. She said her bf dumped her, and she is sad. She ask where is Doug and wants to have a walk with him... and he... agreed!? (another wtf!?)
Witnessing how love is so unpredictable, I got myself scared. Today I didn't give her the choki-choki because there was a lot people around us all the time. Still, we chat a lot (most of the time about assignments). But after the last class ended, she asked me if I am going home, and I said yes. The rumored boy who is her bf was standing next to her that time!
I asked where she was going, and she said she is heading back to the college hall to do her society club stuffs again. With so many assignments due tomorrow, she STILL needs to go. And the boy needs to go too, because he is in the club too... >( As they walk together to the college hall, I can feel my heart being pierced, again and again..... T_T
Yes, I know I'm being jealous... but that's natural, right? Although she told me they don't have any relationship whatsoever, I still feel 'green'. Spending most of the time together in the same club, how can I feel nothing? Now I'm having doubts if she just likes me, or really love me... both are totally two Big Different Words! And with all the bad experience I had + my friend's case earlier, fear and doubts are rushing in.
Tonight me and my friends are going to be gods (no need sleep), but I still have time to worry about these petty stuffs. Sigh... why do love exist!?!
Monday, August 11, 2008
No credit!?
Last week sent her one of those special 'I miss you' sms, but she no replied. Today early morning sent her another one asking if she's going for the lecture, and still no reply. After lecture she come and find me and told me her phone no more airtime credit liao... ha!? No wonder she no reply la... -_-
Thought of treating her 'choki choki' that I bought earlier, but she left when I was busy talking with my friends about some stuffs. So I smsed her again and said I will treat her the choki choki tomorrow, lol... Aih, what silly stuff ppl will do when they fall in love! >.<
P/S: It's the heart that matters, so don't say I'm a cheapskate for giving her choki choki ONLY, lol...
Thought of treating her 'choki choki' that I bought earlier, but she left when I was busy talking with my friends about some stuffs. So I smsed her again and said I will treat her the choki choki tomorrow, lol... Aih, what silly stuff ppl will do when they fall in love! >.<
P/S: It's the heart that matters, so don't say I'm a cheapskate for giving her choki choki ONLY, lol...
Saturday, August 09, 2008
The days of hardship is coming... soon!
Oh no... what I feared the most is finally approaching. MSNed with my friend and he asked if I like LG. From the conversation I found out a lot of things that is shocking. Looks like some of my friends are 'discussing' if I like LG or not, behind my back. Luckily that friend told me that so I can be 'prepared' for any 'attacks'. Earlier they even suspect me of liking 'Penang girl' (her name is SF)! Then they were clueless why I shifted to LG... Omg, the sweatness! -_-;
I told her I do 'like' her, but must keep it a secret cause I don't want to scare her away. We still have a long way to go and she's busy this semester with her club activities. Hope I can 'control' and not create more suspicion among them, but that's so hard to do... I want to talk to her so much! >.<'
I told her I do 'like' her, but must keep it a secret cause I don't want to scare her away. We still have a long way to go and she's busy this semester with her club activities. Hope I can 'control' and not create more suspicion among them, but that's so hard to do... I want to talk to her so much! >.<'
Friday, August 08, 2008
I am on the move... a little
Today finally first time wear fully formal and went to do presentation for HE in the morning. Luckily finished the powerpoint in 2 hours else die kao kao. As expected my presentation suck big time because all the data I only got it from the internet 2 hours earlier... but still, our team managed to be the first group that don't need to do any redo! So happy, the nightmare finally over (I'm damn stage fright that I got chest pain when waiting for my turn to present!)...
So to celebrate the occasion, went out with a group of friends to BRJ eat, then to Jusco where they go to the arcade center and play a lot of games that were actually meant for kids. Wow, sporty bunch of fellows...! After that go back for lecture and saw 'her'. I asked where she was sitting and sat behind her.
I felt a little guilty as my friend, who was waiting for me outside the lecture hall earlier, wanted to sit with me. But when he saw the girl and me wanting to sit there, he sat another place with another friend (smart dude!), saying the place is too 'bright', swt... So I chat with LG a while and sometimes I'm still too shy to look her in the eyes when she is looking at me *slap*.
Man, I need to cure my shyness before it gets worse...! >.<
So to celebrate the occasion, went out with a group of friends to BRJ eat, then to Jusco where they go to the arcade center and play a lot of games that were actually meant for kids. Wow, sporty bunch of fellows...! After that go back for lecture and saw 'her'. I asked where she was sitting and sat behind her.
I felt a little guilty as my friend, who was waiting for me outside the lecture hall earlier, wanted to sit with me. But when he saw the girl and me wanting to sit there, he sat another place with another friend (smart dude!), saying the place is too 'bright', swt... So I chat with LG a while and sometimes I'm still too shy to look her in the eyes when she is looking at me *slap*.
Man, I need to cure my shyness before it gets worse...! >.<
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
I was NEARLY suspected
Monday was a good day. I sit next to her (there was an empty sit in between) and we chat about a lot of stuffs. Actually, I was trying to hear what the lecturer was trying to say (it IS a lecture at that time) but she keep ask me this, talk to me about that... in the end (to not spoil her mood) I also joined in the conversation. Lasted nearly one hour, just the two of us talking to each other... not bad, haha.
Tuesday wasn't that good cause there was only one class and she was busy inputting numbers into her hp (she is DAMN busy with her sosial club, sigh)...
Today slept for 3 hours doing assignments... In college, I was shocked to see her drawing of the eagle was very nice. Even a friend of me said it was fantastic. Then I chat to her this and that like normal. And when I go back to my friends (after class), he asked if I liked her... WTH!? Being me, of course I denied, haha...
Later, as I was hanging out with my friends to do work, I was stupid enough to tell them some other stuffs about her (like she went back to her hostel to do her art work before coming back for the next class), and they 'suspect' me even more... But I said 'nola, nola... don't merepek lah', and it cooled them down... -_-'' But for how long?
Although I'm in the process of wooing her, I still have my doubts and disbeliefs... Will it sail smoothly from here on... or is this another nightmare waiting to be happened? I can't be sure, and I won't know until the finalle comes. What I can do is wait for tomorrow and 'action' more... but tomorrow I got tennis exam and HE presentation on Friday! Sigh, sigh...!! >.<
P/S: She plays the keyboard, in a band (consist of her family members) and sometimes jam for her cousins... now how cool is that!?! O.O And she STILL wants me to talk to her in Mandarin (to improve me) and she talk to me in Cantonese (to improve herself). Very... hardworking girl! ^^;
Tuesday wasn't that good cause there was only one class and she was busy inputting numbers into her hp (she is DAMN busy with her sosial club, sigh)...
Today slept for 3 hours doing assignments... In college, I was shocked to see her drawing of the eagle was very nice. Even a friend of me said it was fantastic. Then I chat to her this and that like normal. And when I go back to my friends (after class), he asked if I liked her... WTH!? Being me, of course I denied, haha...
Later, as I was hanging out with my friends to do work, I was stupid enough to tell them some other stuffs about her (like she went back to her hostel to do her art work before coming back for the next class), and they 'suspect' me even more... But I said 'nola, nola... don't merepek lah', and it cooled them down... -_-'' But for how long?
Although I'm in the process of wooing her, I still have my doubts and disbeliefs... Will it sail smoothly from here on... or is this another nightmare waiting to be happened? I can't be sure, and I won't know until the finalle comes. What I can do is wait for tomorrow and 'action' more... but tomorrow I got tennis exam and HE presentation on Friday! Sigh, sigh...!! >.<
P/S: She plays the keyboard, in a band (consist of her family members) and sometimes jam for her cousins... now how cool is that!?! O.O And she STILL wants me to talk to her in Mandarin (to improve me) and she talk to me in Cantonese (to improve herself). Very... hardworking girl! ^^;
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Happy Bday to Daniel...!
To mess with me is like... hey, I look so cool, you also want to mess with me ka?!? Cha dou...
No need to thank me for the 'awesome' picture... It's my bday present to you (better than treat you Dota, right?) lol... To top it up a notch, here's a poem for Mr Danny!
D is for the dude he is, good and... strange,
A is anxiety that he is having... for a cute Japanese gf,
N is for not in time, which u should cure!
I is international fame that you are craving so much to be,
E is for entai... hey, no H there! XD
L is lasting, which your friendship I will always treasure... (so belanja me more, lol)
See, I busy also waste so much time to do this for you. Don't give me alasan forget when my bday come! Happy Birthday and wishing you will get that 'girl' ASAP! ~Sayonara~
Saturday, August 02, 2008
To Foong Yei
Dear Foong Yei,
Daniel said you wanted to apologize to me, but I should be the one apologizing. Looking back at my old post, I felt embarrassed that you read it. It wasn't mean to criticize you or whatever, it's just that me 'expressing' my sadness and dissatisfaction at that time. I treat this blog as a diary thus I will write whatever I feel or think when the time comes. I hope we can still be friends and forget the past. I'm not mad at you, don't worry! Wishing you happiness and joy over there, thx for visiting!
Jason Soh
Daniel said you wanted to apologize to me, but I should be the one apologizing. Looking back at my old post, I felt embarrassed that you read it. It wasn't mean to criticize you or whatever, it's just that me 'expressing' my sadness and dissatisfaction at that time. I treat this blog as a diary thus I will write whatever I feel or think when the time comes. I hope we can still be friends and forget the past. I'm not mad at you, don't worry! Wishing you happiness and joy over there, thx for visiting!
Jason Soh
Friday, August 01, 2008
First attempt nearly succeeded
Today after lecture I saw her then asked her if she ate already, she said no. Then I asked her if she want to join us for lunch. She thinks a while, then said ok. So we move out near the entrance of the college to see who wants to join us go eat at TBR too.
But then we realised most are either going home or ate liao. Left me and my boys gang (4 boys), I think she feel embaressed. I also understand why she feel like that, cause one of my friend also asked 'She joining us??', thus scaring her away. So then she changed her mind and say going back to her hostel... sigh >.<
Oh well, at least she said ok for half way... I think I should have asked her for lunch, just the two of us... but then it may seem a bit too 'rush' and fast. Maybe later, sometime in the future, I will do that..... depends on the situation!
But then we realised most are either going home or ate liao. Left me and my boys gang (4 boys), I think she feel embaressed. I also understand why she feel like that, cause one of my friend also asked 'She joining us??', thus scaring her away. So then she changed her mind and say going back to her hostel... sigh >.<
Oh well, at least she said ok for half way... I think I should have asked her for lunch, just the two of us... but then it may seem a bit too 'rush' and fast. Maybe later, sometime in the future, I will do that..... depends on the situation!
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