Life... and FRIENDS

As time goes by, I slowly feel sad. Sad... because I see my friends 'disappearing' one by one. Sad, because they do not value friendship more than their work. Sadness... to see them going into the abyss and turning into 'robots'. I don't understand why friends to them, are nothing more than a 'tool' to hang out with when you are lonely or depressed, sad or stressed. No wonder these so called 'friends' will not remain long in a group and will not find their REAL 'best friends' in their life, forever. Then they will blame the world, their friends... but have they ever thought what have they themselves sacrificed to be a 'friend'?

To be a true friend, you need to sacrifice and do what a TRUE friend do... care for each other. If you can't even do the basics, are you qualified to be even called a 'friend'...? Don't give me those garbage excuses you call work, work, work... If you can sacrifice for work, why can't you do the same for your friends? That means you value the WRONG thing! Repent and do whatever you could for your 'sins' my brother and sisters... NOW!! Or forever changed with the time and turn into a 'robot' with no friends, no feelings, no happiness... ~JIL words on friendship~

What bird are you?

Curi from AceOne blog, hehe... quite true fact of me, so I decided to post it here ^^ Me:

Raven


Date of Birth : 25 Nov - 23 Dec

Characteristics : Always impressive, Raven peoples are tower of strength.They are more intelligent than their peers and are adapt problem solvers.They enjoy challenges are stimulated by wild and exposed places.

Chun leh? Hehe... If ace allow it I will post his blog shortcut here la, if u want to try also :P

Rainy days...

Uhh... lately keep on raining, and I'm not at home to enjoy it! The office is already cold, with the rain outside, I feel even more cold!! Brrrr... Lucky I drank coffee just now, now I'm wide awake. Long time no make coffee, accidentally put two whole spoon of nescafe into my cup, *OMG! SO PAHIT!!*... so after drank a few gulps, throw the rest into the drain. What a waste... but I don't want to force myself and in the end might end up fever tomorrow, lol.

Oh, yesterday started to play forums in the office... yeah, bad me... but cause the office is not giving me my pay (until now), so might as well waste their resources as my 'payment', wahahaha...! Sot like Daniel liao, lol... :P

~Scold me for not forgetting you, broke my heart for not accepting me... yet, I still madly in love with you. Call me a lovefool, but I will rise and free myself from your grasp, one day, someday...~ JIL Words of Wisdom

The death of crocodile hunter...

Some of you may know him, some of you don't. He's a well know animal lover that made a lot of funny and useful documentaries for us to see. His famous jokes and bravery made him a well respectable Australian. But all good things come to an end, he died yesterday when he was doing a documentary in Australia's sea, filming stingrays. An intimidated stingray used it's venomous tail and strike through his cage ribs into his heart. A very sorrowful accident indeed. Goodbye crocodile hunter... your fond memories will remain in a lot of viewers(including me) for a very very long time.

Korean dramas and me...

After watching the 8.30pm Korean drama for some time, yesterday only did I realise that I'm quite like the 'lovefool' character in it. There's this lovefool guy who loves a girl so much, he keep on helping her, support and loving her even though the girl rejected him and fell for the main actor.

But he's much more 'wai tai' than me. He let the girl's whole family live in his house, played with her son, lend her money and pay for her debts. He help her in everyway he could, although rejected millions of time by the girl. The main actor didn't help the girl that much, but because of one fact 'I love him more'... so the poor soul is neglected.

Thinking back, why am I like the lovefool... I dont want to love her, but something keep on making me thinking of her day and night. I don't want to see her, but my heart keep on missing her every second of my life. A lovefool I am, but a lovefool I will not remain...! >.<;

Sick these couple of days...

Aih... maybe overdoing it, but got sick after returning home from Jimmy's house on 31 August. As expected, it was an enjoyable night that day. It could have been better if Jimmy and the gang was earlier. We waited for more than 2 hours before they finally arrived! It was all because of SG's collegue giving her trouble so she need to do extra and in the end delayed the whole plan drastically. Also the stupid jam, as always.

After all was there (yeah, I was happy to see her with her Redang pink long sleeve shirt), we went to eat at the place where Jimmy recomended us (cheap and ok ok food). The food was really okok (some taste nice and special) but not as cheap as expected >.<>.<) Just talk a bit with her... to be honest, we talk with her sister even more than with her! Pity her... maybe cause we have nothing to talk to her about. And her sister is a bit friendlier (or she seldom come with us, so we got more things to ask her). Her sis also cut her hair damn short, like last time 'her' tomboy look! :P Well, it makes me easier to differentiate the two maybe. my God, you wouldn't believe how identical the two are!! More identical than Daniel and his bro man! Serious!! The face, voice, height, face, face (and everything) and weight... Unbelievable! O.O;

No chance to sit beside her during the scary movie as told by Kim (cause she sit with her sis). I was joking anyway, not like it's gonna happen... LOL. Slept late that night cause we see another scary movie called 'staying alive'. Wow, a movie based on a game, super cool! Then kena bite by mosquitoes, argh! Sam too, lol... Jimmy, now u know ur house got mosquitoes la!! Then wake up early the next day to eat dim sum. Wow, this year first time (and after a looooooong time) eat dim sum. So fun and nice, delicious food too. A bit expensive, but okla. Once a yearr right? LOL.

Then go back Jimmy house, play and chat a while before Sam send us home cause he need to do work (on Merdeka!) like 'her' and some other poor souls. I went back, sleep, then wake up with a slight fever, lol. Maybe cause 'overheat', so the next day rest at home (yeah, first day no go work! yahoo!!) and it becomes a 4 day leave for me, hehe...

But last night accidentally sprained my back (tall ppl sickness) and today went to school with each step pain like Hell. Every step I take is a stab to the back with a dozen needles! But I force myself to go cause today need to pass up project to lecturer. What a big sacrifice I did... T_T

That's all for now... until next time, ciao! :P

Today is the night...

Finally, I will be watching a scary movie at my friend's house with 'her'. Should I sit next to her so that I could calm her down when she is scared? No. Why you ask? Cause she's like me, not really scared of scary movies. I think scary movies as something funny, in which the director plays with special effects to scare the hell out of you. The only way I will feel scared is maybe... nah, that couldn't happen, lol. The point is she's not scared, neither am I.

In the bus today I thought to myself... why is it the more I try to hate and not miss her,but in the end I turn out to love and miss her even more? Looks like reverse phycology is in effect here! The more I hate, it becomes love. The more I wanted to neglect, the more I want to see her. My mind wants to hate her, but my heart miss her day and night. So the only thing I could do is... not think of anything at all!

Use yoga and control my chi... focus on work, study and games... nothing else matters. I will become a chi master someday, and any thought of her will be erased from my mind. Maybe like a monk, I will not think of love anymore and focus on bringing balance to myself and the world. Using the motto of a superhero, I will defend the weak and stop the evil from conquering earth. Who will join me? Everybody put your hands in the air like you just don't care! LOL

Stop with the crappiness... Time to go back to work, my collegues are coming liao. Ciao!

Life at work... vol 1

Argh... I know work is hard, but not THIS hard. Ideas rejected, deadline on the neck, look at the computer LCD screen 24/7. OMG, is this really what I will do for the rest of my life??!? Yes, no doubt... T_T

Tomorrow going to stayover at fren's house, so will be feeling better a bit gua. Didn't expect 'her' to go too, cause she is usually busy with her worklife and I thought entertainment is not that important to her. She works on Merdeka too, for crying out loud... Oh what the heck, she is our fren too, so calling her go is just normal. Guess I have to act 'normal' in front of her tomorrow too. Hard, but gotta swallow it. Adrenaline pumping, heart rushing, eyes key into her... but gotta resist it. It's do or die! For honour...!! Hiyeah...!!! (lol, wth am I saying?!?)

Sry for updating lesser and lesser cause I am just TOO busy... becoming a robot like Daniel soon, sigh...! Somebody help me! Argh!!! >.<

Getting better...

For those who missed my last post, nvm... cause I delete it liao. It's about me being depressed, and I don't think you guys want to hear it right? So I saved it as draft and only can be viewed by me, lol. Those who see it liao, keep it a secret...! ><; Last night I was feeling so down... but today I feel better, because of my family and new collegues. Got to know them better today, and it was fun hanging out with them. Some of the ppl that I hate was doing some work outside, maybe that's why I feel better today. Oh well, can't accept work to be fun always. Back to doing my work then... "You shall not have my love when you appreciate it AFTER it is lost, you shall have my love when you appreciate it BEFORE it is given."~JIL words of wisdom~

Depressed ver 1...

Sigh... today my works got rejected, so sad. I know it's a part of the working life, but my first reject was... painful, in the heart some more. >.<; sigh... hope it wont be frequent else I dont want to work here liao..... I'm all alone in this big office, cold and sad. When will something good happen and make me fill my life with energy and laughter once more? So depressing... T_T

Friend busy dota, dowan find me... -_-; left me alone wait in the office, write blog and wait they finish print only can go back... so cham!!! Lucky got a nice old fren from MIA teman me chat... talk about life, work... and how bad it is to be a graphic designer in Msia. The more reason that if I want to be successful, I should go work in UK or USA where GD is more respected and earn better. Sad, but true... T-T

Tomorrow work, second week...

Ah, so fast past 3 days... and my 4 days work starts again soon. Well, I'm not really bored of working there, but not that happy either. Maybe cause my 2 friends are not so 'friendly', so when I go to work and back, I usually slept in the car. They keep on chatting and think I'm an invisible man. So sad, so mad... -_-;

Lucky my work place collegues are nice and friendly, I am more friendly with them than with my school mates... imagine that! That's why I stick with them after lunch as they sit, chat and jokes around before going back to the office. It's better to stick with the pros right? :P

Wah, now have to do a small project but asap, cause they are giving us training to see how fast we can finish it in time. I hope I can finish it faster than the 2 of them! I will, I must, I can! ^^;