A dream in her house

Yesterday went to Summit USJ for Magic... then Daniel joined after his Japanese class. Yeah, it was fun scrolling for cards and then buying it, but I hate the shop owner who looks like he's giving priority to those buying 'expensive' cards and ignored ppl like us who buys cheap cards. What a bad way of doing business...

Then we went to YL's house. So unfortunate she wasn't there, as my heart wanted to see her so much... even if for a while, haha. We just hang around the house, talking to CM. Daniel was tired (or lazy? lol) so he went to sleep... making me wanted to sleep too (since CM doing some office stuffs with his laptop). We both slept on the sofa in the living room, quite soundly... haha.

Suddenly I had a dream... it was a dream of hanging out with my friends, in YL's house! But her house was much bigger in the dream, and like in real life, I was happy to see her too (lol...). I was happier in the dream... cause she was there. When I woke up, reality was being cruel to me again. She went back to her hometown... so there's nothing I can do. Then I told them of my dream and CM said it must be because I missed YL too much... WTH!? Since when did CM know about me and YL? It must be Daniel's fault... but nvm, as long as he don't tell her (which I think she already knew, lol).

A little happiness in my heart keeps me going forward... in this cruel world called 'reality'.

The holidays are here... where to go?

Ah, so my exams are finally over. I won't be bored as there will be a lot of things I could do, from improving my video editing skills to tuning my Magic cards. But as I surfed the net, I found out that a buddy of mine wanted to go to this 'party' (guess who?). As I checked out http://sensualalingerie.com , it made me interested too!

I wish I could join him for the Sensuala Calendar Girl Launch Party happening on the 28th this month... then I could blog in more juicy pics and experience too, haha. Rock on! XD

Damn tulan!

Shit! F**k!! CCB!!! I can't believe it... I have been neglected and conned into joining Robin's team for FYP! At first we agreed to discuss everything together, to be fair to everyone. Suddenly in today's meeting I found out that they already made up a story, and he even picked the position for everyone... which left me the worst position! F**k man!!! At least I was the Director of Photography in Muni's group... now I am just a f**king Director of... Casting!? Shit, shit, SHIT!!!!!

Damn I'm pissed and feeling regretful... I trusted the wrong person. Now I have to pay the price and work with THEM for FYP, damn damn! Argh... what did I do to deserve this!?! I shouldn't be so innocent and gullible... I should have seen through his fox skin!!! DAMN IT!

The name list have been submitted... should I continue on and live like nothing's wrong with THAT group for FYP!?! Or should I jump ship now before it's too late... but most of the group is occupied now... argh!

Really regretted my actions... sigh, sighhhhhh, sighhhhhhhhhhh!

Love... a blessing or a curse?

This couple of days see my bro keep on emo-ing because he broke up with his 'most loved' girl in his life, the girl which is now studying in the same class with him. On one side I pity him... because I would hurt deeply too if I broke up with the girl I love. On the other side I think that it is his own fault... for 1) having two gfs 2) did something which made the girl feel 'susah' to be with him. His emo-ness is really bugging me... ><

Yes, I hate players... who play with ppl's heart. In my opinion there is no 'sharing' love. You either love one, or you love none. More than one means you don't deserve to be loved... cause you're greedy. Greedy for food is ok, greedy for love is despicable! (I mean lover's love)

I have been super busy this semester until rarely update my blog, thus meaning I have no time for love either... haha. Maybe it's a good thing, since no love = no headache/ heartache. Yeah, once a while when I meet back YL, I do miss her... but meeting up with her and just hanging around her makes me very happy liao. She's getting prettier and prettier too, haha...

So busy I am at school that I even rarely meet LG. The longest time I spend with her this sem is when I celebrated my bday with her and on the showcase day, which she dressed up very uniquely. Ya, my love for her nearly becomes 0% liao (I think). Time really heals I guess.....

So next sem will be my final sem, then I will finally get my diploma liao. FYP, or final year project, isn't going to be easy. I want to produce a video that is way better than the successful MV that we did this sem. To produce a masterpiece, you gotta work your guts out. No hard work = no good work/ a normal work. I want to make ppl's eye pop up when they see the video, than stand up and claps their hands while screaming 'fuuyoo!!!!'. The feeling = PRICELESS! XD

Showcase was the bomb!

These couple of days were busy helping to prepare for the showcase, cause I'm one of the committee members (hospitality). Say only but mainly because I have the car, so I fetch them here and there to buy stuffs. I was tired but happy helping them, but damn tulan when the 'brat' did not appreciate it and keeps complaining stuffs. Emo rich brat, wat to do... -_-

Yesterday was the showcase. The night before we were doing our last minute 'hunting' and testing with the equipments in the hall. So, feeling tired cause slept late, I woke up early in the morning and dressed up as a 'cowboy sheriff' before heading over to fetch them at 8am. As expected they were late, some more I need to go up to the brat's house to help take stuffs... fine.

After all done, I help took some stuffs downstairs, into my car. There were super heavy stuffs, making me need to go super slow else my car would have hit the bumper while moving over it. I jokingly said 'Wahlao, so heavy... die lor my car'. Then the idiot brat said 'If u die then we didn't slept the night before die a long time liao lor!'. WTF!?! I wanted to tuut him back and call him to get down and walk to college! But I did not want any war... yet. So I kept quite to his f*cking sarcastic remarks. Emo brat... just let him be.

So a lot was done from getting ready the equipments to buying the food from Wangsa Maju (chicken chop rice). The first part was our TVC (tv commercial), which wasn't the best at all. After lunch it was MV (music video). This was our pride and joy, our precious production!

Last time when I heard that the lecturer said some of the team members cried when they look at their video being cast for the audience to see, I thought it was kind of over-reacting. But when I stand there, in front of all the crowds... and our MV was being projected for all to see, I was... stunned. Looking back on how much sweat, tears and energy was put on it, the feeling was... special. And when the part I suggested to be taken was shown, it looked damn 'yeng' until some of the crowd cheered at it! Suddenly I was so 'kam dong' until some tears came out of my eyes by itself... omg! Until the end of the MV, people cheered and I was more touched... our MV did it, WE DID IT!!! The feeling was AWESOME... damn!

Later when all MV was showed, all were given a paper to vote for the best mv and tvc. Best TVC went to the Avira group, and mc's group got 3rd place, shocking! Best MV was Ray's group, but WE got the THIRD place among 27 groups! YES BABY!! Another joyful moment I wouldn't forget... XD

Then the committee member's were invited to the front by the lecturer to give praises and salute for doing such a good job to make the showcase a success. I was happy that I am one of them... although we did not get much in return, I was happy to play a part in it. The brat of course keeps complaining and said he won't join anything like this anymore, which is GOOD cause I don't want to see him anymore! Why complain when you were the one who volunteered in the first place? STUPID! lol...

Took a lot of nice pics, including with LG who dressed so nicely, like a doll. She even created a fake hair out of cloth! Nice!! I also took the initiative to take some pics with W and CK cause they were wearing a mask, and CK dressed like a cat, lol. Ya... you could say that I forgiven them liao, haha...

Overall it was a superbly fun day, except those moments when the brat ruined some for me. Damn I hate EMO kids!!! The event ended nearly at 7pm, from 10am. I took some leftover foods back. Then at 10pm went out again to join Danny them for 2 hours of CS. Tired and AWESOME day for me...! XD

Gone 2009, welcome 2010!

Wow... somehow I dont feel the new year is here. On new year eve all I did was spending it at home with my bro... When the clock strike 12, I was playing DOTA in GG, haha. Maybe it's the busy-ness or the mood, some how I dont feel enthusiastic. No fireworks, no ppl yelling "HNY!", no ppl to celebrate it with. Sigh.....

Luckily yesterday, which is 1st of Jan, I went out with 2 group of friends. First Darren invited me and my bro to follow them to Summit USJ for some Magic cards spree. I asked Daniel if he wanted and so he joined. There were many cards there, but not enough cash in my pocket, haha. So I bought some cards totalled to RM19, Daniel even less, the most was Wai Long which hit nearly RM200 and Darren around RM100.

Bought some booster packs for drafting too. Then suddenly Jimmy asked if we wanted to go for Japanese dinner at night. I was reluctant due to the financial budget, but end up going also since its been sometime I have meet them. Daniel joined too, lol...

After finishing business there, we showed them the way and went to YL's house. It was very nearby only, so its better if we go there then go back and ask Sum to fetch us go again for dinner. We lepak at YL's house, but she wasn't there. Only Ee Ching (her sis) and CM. So I watched the anime that CM was watching, Daniel slept and EC + CM went out to wash car + buy dinner. It was actually my first time talking to EC then... and she looked elegant in the blue long dress.

Soon YL came back from her hair makeover. She rebonded + stylized her hair, which makes her even more beautiful than ever. Went up to change her clothes, she came down in... t-shirt and jeans!? Urgh... she would have looked perfect with nicer clothes, haha. So an 'A' to EC for clothings, an 'A' to YL for looks. Are they trying to be contrast among each other!? lol...

Dinner at Umai-Ya, opposite of IOI Mall. Ordered a variety of food, which mostly I didn't enjoyed as much. But hanging out with friends was my main purpose, so let it be. Jimmy used his coupon which entitle RM200 discount with RM400 and above purchase on foods. In the end all of us need to pay RM31, including all charges. Not bad, since they enjoyed it very much. I'm happy as long as they're happy, haha...

Then went to YL's house to lepak again. Daniel went to sit in EC's car, thus giving me a chance to sit with YL in Sum's car, haha. She kept complaining I should have sat in EC's car cause she's not sure of the road, haha... The best moment was when I and her walk under one umbrella, heading to her house, in the rain. Although it was for a short time... although it was 'nothing'... although I'm the only one feeling it... I'm still happy to do it. It's like a dream in the movies, haha.... Okok, I like to fantasize, so what? XD

In YL's house, we played Texas Hold'em Poker, which YL lost terribly, haha. Winner was Jimmy followed by me and WingC. Then we learned some 'messaging' technique from EC, she was pretty good! We had fun learning it, haha... Then we went back around 1am++.

Yesterday I talked the most with EC, since I meet her a long time ago. She wasn't that cocky or scary until you knew her, haha. It was a good thing too since she's fun to play with, like YL, haha. But among the sisters of course I still prefer YL la... cause I'm 'sick' ma, hahahaha :P

Happy New Year to everyone! No new year resolution cause I don't think it will be of any use at all, haha... Ciaoz!

Suffering inside...

What an innocent thinking I have... I thought I will only suffer from love problems, which is out of my control. Now I am having problems with college, and it's killing me inside too. Everyday I think of it I feel 'fan', resah, unmotivated... Why is it people are so stubborn and egoistic, that they don't even know that their actions are hurting people?!?

First, the biggest problem of all, is my group leader, Mr M. He's an egoistic bastard that rules with an iron fist. Yesterday we started our music video shooting, and he seems... 'calmed down'. He acts as though nothing has happened and we did the shooting peacefully. He even smoked weed in the process, which maybe the reason he's not that 'moody' that night. After all is done, we sit down and talked, as a whole team.

Shocked, he suddenly admitted his mistakes. He's sorry for all the troubles he has caused and give some excuse about moving out of the house and received 'bad influence', thus becoming another man from last sem. I was happy he regretted, but then he said if he didn't do like that, we wouldn't have made it this far... which is crap. Some of his words are nice to hear, while some other shows that he is still egoistic and bossy inside. Whatever it is, I decided to forget our quarrel, since the 2 other member (1 didn't come) agreed with him and he said sorry for f**king me out that day. His words didn't recover my trust in him, so I will work with him for the last time this semester. I don't want to feel the tension from him again next semester, which really influenced me a lot (I even grew some white hair because of him, shit!).

Then today morning another one of my idiotic friends 'tuut' me out in FB, because I didn't return his DVD game this morning. It's is partly my fault for delaying it so long, but it was HIS too! First, he didn't reply me that he will come for the class. Second, he only sms me he's coming this morning, when I am still sleeping! Do you think I will respond to that!?

Even if it's my fault, he doesn't need to tuut me in FB until all can see it, right?!? Another rich bastard that has nothing to do... But on another hand, I am quite happy to MAKE him angry, since last time he did something to me that made me pissed at him... and he pura2 like I don't mind. Mwahahaha, now I don't give a damn about what you post, I will pretend I didn't see it and return your fu**ing game tomorrow! Ahh... the taste of vengeance is sweet! Hahahahahaha!!!

Updates, updates...

Wah... nearly 2 weeks no update liao. Wat to do... busy with assignments, PS2, magic and some more my bro rosakkan one of the com's hard disk, so now left 1 com to share 3 person. Susah betul! ><

Let's rewind back all the way back to my bday on 30th Nov. It's a Monday, and after the last tutorial, we decided to go to Cola Club at 7 for dinner to celebrate my bday. Before that some of us went for CC while some went back home. I even took the initiative to sms LG if she wanted to join us. At first she declined, saying no bus from her house to school. So I offered to fetch her, and she agreed. Was I SUPER happy she came? Hmm... hard to say. Maybe it's just me, thinking that the more the merrier. XD

So poor LG only sat there and watch us play CS for 2-3 hours. But she did 'talk' with Robin while Robin was getting head shot a lot of times, due to listening to her while playing, haha. Lucky she's not sitting next to me then! After CS at WCG, we walk over to Cola Club Genting Klang. It was a bit like the one in Wangsa Maju but more spacious, cause there's no stage for live singing -_-'' The Maryland Chicken I ordered was HUGE, and very fulfilling maybe due to a lot of fat covering the chicken (or flour). If I am full until the top of my head, u know that's way too much for normal ppl, haha... But nice nevertheless. And the Cola Shake was not bad too.

Suddenly I was suprised... it looks like the planner, Pilla, took the initiative to buy me a cake! It was a blueberry forest cake I think... not too tasty but I was very happy, since she bought me a t-shirt before that. And I received one of those 'head shaking, solar powered doll' that you usually put on car dashboards. Pilla also included a small greeting card in it, which I just jokingly suggested (a bday card). I was very happy although it was just a small card, because the thoughts' what really matters to me... ^^

Then to top it off, they even belanja me makan, which cost nearly RM20, thanks a lot guys!! Oh, all of those that joined were Pilla, Robin, Juno, Pokupie, Chew Yee, Kae, Douglas, Ee Fan, Danny, Lian Gim, Wei Ming, Kelvin and Kid. It's so fun to celebrate a bday with friends... ^^

Ok, no more bday story... lately there have been a lot of troubles happening, especially involving teammates in group assignments. I'm having a tough time with my egoistic group leader, who even charged us for using his video camera. Bloody money-sucking bastard! Lian Gim is having problems with Robin, some misunderstanding and miscommunication. Sigh... who says studying is just ALL about fun!? -_-''

On the love section... maybe too busy, so not much time to think about love anymore. No more W since I hate her... I don't miss LG like crazy already, only feel a 'little' is still there. YL... nothing I can say but hope she will find a good husband asap. So live the bachelor life is what I can do for now... enjoy while I still can! XD

Bday celebration!

Yesterday was a fun filled night... the day I have been waiting for the whole year that only happen once (per year). Yup, it's my early bday celebration with my old tarc gang. Those that attended was Daniel, Yee Ling, Seng Geng, Wing See, Siew Peng, Jimmy, Ah Ming, Chong Ming and Ronnie. It was a karaoke buffet session, that should start at 6pm but we were late cause we need to wait for SG and then fetch her from Taman Melati LRT station. After that fetched Ah Ming and we straight go for our destination in Puchong.

IOI Mall seems larger and newer looking than the last time I saw it... but still not much ppl there, sadly. The four of us went into the room and saw the gang. Yup, I was very happy to see YL there too XD The buffet was quite nice... a lot of variety food to eat, and I ate a LOT, as usual. Maybe that's why suddenly my belt broke (because old liao), haha...

Siew Peng and her husband was the 'suprise' when they suddenly entered the room. I thought of asking her myself but then thought that since she is married now, it will be near impossible. But it did happened... and I'm very glad too. We sang our hearts out... Ah Ming sang the least. Siew Peng and her husband did sang a little but they ate before coming, which is kind of a waste. Lucky they did ate some fruits and tit-bits else they really rugi for paying so much.

Daniel at first said don't want to sing... but after I 'force' him to sang a little, slowly he sendiri took the initiative and sang (but pick a lot of weird songs to sang), haha... He sacrificed the most as he was on a 'saving budget' mode, but still came (the total for each person was RM59, include paying my part). Plus he sent all of us home (including SG who lived the furthest away) and we stayed till 2am++, although he has church the next day. Thanks a lot dude! I can only show my appreciation by paying for him the toll two times, haha... :P

Wing See and Jimmy sang their hearts out as usual... thanks to them too for being the planner. Seng Geng was my favorite singing partner, as most of the English songs I sang was with her. CM enjoyed singing his fav songs, which is sometimes a bit weird like Daniel's selections, haha. Poor Ah Ming only sang a little, but he was happy-go-lucky and went for a walk himself to pass the time, plus he brought along his PSP.

Yee Ling... the person I 'eyed' on most of the night. At first she was normal... then become jolly maybe due to the alcoholic drinks, but in the end became tired and sleepy. I was the happiest when singing next to SG on one side, and having her singing with me too on the other. She was bored, so tried to sang a lot of songs she don't know by reading the lyrics. I'm happy she tried her best to stay awake most of the time although she seems very bored. So what if I can't have her... as long as she's by my side, I will be more than happy and grateful already. YL... the girl I love the most and longest in my life, sigh.....

Me, being around so many of my friends, became more hyper and semangat. I sang a lot of songs and even rapped with some Linkin Park songs. Although I just had a little alcoholic drink, I was much braver and sang some songs alone... with vocal of course, haha. Sometimes no vocal I still sang alone, without caring if my sound sucks or not. Having keyakinan diri is important when singing alone, and this is the first for me, haha. But sang (plus yell) too much until my throat dry and painful liao ><>

Fav songs: Nan ren nv ren, Kau ilhamku, Fall for you, Heal the world, In the end

Updates

Wow... nearly one week since I updated. Yeah life is still as busy as usual... With the tension gathering more and more, even my group leader can't stand it anymore (so do us). He becomes bossy and sometimes egoistic, which often hurt our feelings as group members. But I still can handle it... the other group members are not so fond of his actions anymore (starting to complain his bad stuffs behind his back). Sigh... who says being a student is easy? -_-''

This week I noticed CK has been sick for a couple of classes. Yeah I shouldn't be bothered, but I did... and from FB I found out she was having a stomach ache. So after a couple of weeks of not chatting with her, I asked on how is her condition on MSN.

She replied, saying was sick nearly in the whole body, maybe due to not enough sleep. It was fun chatting with her again, although there is still the small torn in my heart from her past actions. Maybe I couldn't be angry with somebody for long... that's why I still cared for her (as a friend), haha. In the end she thanked me for caring, which makes me happier... XD

Even with W... I slowly don't hate her 'skin deep' anymore. Yes I still try to avoid talking with her but if she wants anything from me, I will talk with her 'normally' now. Her evil doings are far worse than CK's, so I don't think I will forgive her unless she did something that will make me change my mind, haha.....

Life nowadays is full of problems. Me busy with my assignments and school politics... the world is having a global meltdown... people still can't find jobs and Malaysia politics suck big time. When will the world be in peace once again, I wonder.....?

Busy like a bumble bee

Argh... this whole week really busy like siao. Tuesday went to gym at TARC for the first time with Robin and Patrick, but then it turned out I am the noobest there (expected). Get tired too easily, even stretching my hands too long feels pain. Maybe I overdid by taking weights too early and accidentally dislocate some muscles... causing pain. But the day after that woke up like a zombie... not enough sleep and tired all over, ouch!

Wednesday went to do recording at Muni's dad's clinic. His dad was a very polite and a gentleman, totally the opposite of Muni... I guess sometimes too much of rules makes ppl rebellious. Had fun taking pictures, sound and videos in the clicnic. Then went to the Tesco nearby and continue recording sounds with the video recorder. It was again crazy, as we had a trolley race... LOL. While we were doing recordings they were some police nearby looking what are we doing. Lazy bumps... sittingt there and not scouting around, policemen nowadays... sigh! Then went back to Muni's house, which is big since his dad's a doctor.

Took LRT and went back Wangsa, buy a RM10 bag for Wei Ming's bday. Plus 4 piece of wrapping paper that cost RM1.50 each, me and Robin each paid RM8 for his present. After finish wrapping, we went to the tea house in GK where we ate cakes, lunch and have fun with the gang. Took some pictures too... hope can upload it later here, haha. Although it was really painful for my wallet, these things is what made me feel that studying in TARC is the best! ^^

Yesterday yamcha with Sum, Daniel and David... almost 2 weeks no yamcha liao, if I not mistaken. Dont say yamcha la... these 2 weeks I only played Dota for less than 5 times! Record la, siao... -__-'' So busy, argh...! Sum and David were playing Magic, which I havent touch for ages. If I weren't busy with assignments I would have taken out my Magic cards and tune it, haha... maybe next time ><

Today early woke up and felt sick... so decided not to go school. But later need to go again for group discussion at 1pm! Walao weh, one day cuti also cannot... really got time to die, no time to sick!! X_X

Love updates: Since I was so busy, have less time to think about love liao... No use thinking about love too, since LG and W hates me... and CK a little bit. Friends also hard, love is totally out! Maybe it's my fault... for being too friendly, it made me look desperate? Too friendly scares ppl, I know. So I won't bug LG, since a LOT of ppl will bug her everyday. When in the tea house one of my friend asked 'Eh, no one asked LG come ah?'... Then I also thought 'Eh, yahor...". If last time sure is me, cause I want to make her communicate more with her classmates. But now no more... I am not her guardian, and she is not my angel. Goodbye LG, I know you will have a better life without my presence.....

~Penyek kau, emo! >0 Penyek! Penyek! *Penyek* X_X~ XD