Because of you

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery

Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

This song really shows a lot what I am feeling inside right now. Not all, but most of it... It's a wonder that how an individual can give you everything but at the same time could cause your world to crumble into ashes anytime too. That is why I should learn to stand tough, forget those precious moments and memories before it could really cut me skin deep... I am no one to her, why should she be my Goddess? Forgive and forget..... tsk, easier said than done.... But it must be done, it must!