All is said and passed...

My mom call me from her work place this evening and looks like she knew about my story. I think dad told her either by phone or on the email to her. She also took it ok and advice me to keep trying hard, etc. Fuh... I'm relieved all is past now, and my goal is to continue with my studies and finish my diploma asap. Please dont come out anymore bad suprises, I dont need another one...! >.<

But my parents was supportive and I'm glad all turned out fine for me. Oh well, on with life..... CHARGE! :P Thx to all that supported me through these few hard days... appreciate it very much. Ciao!

Not yet break the news...

omg, havent told my mom last night too... cause my fren David asked me to go play Magic cards, so I thought it would be good to release some 'tension' so I went, thus not yet telling my mom. Tonight then... :P

Last night went to Sum's house and saw his dog, so cheerful and playful. Makes me want to own a dog to... a dog could be your companion, u can tell ur problems to her/ him and he/ she will just sit there and listen with those cute little eyes (I want those breed)... Later when I got the money maybe, sigh... T_T

Wonderful last night...

Yesterday was really nice... I went shopping and bought a yummy Secret Recipe cake, have a feast at night when we celebrated my mom's bday. Ate fried meehoon, fried chicken (kentucky flour, nice!), agar-agar, cake and red bean tong sui. I was so full I couldnt take another bite! It was a happy day, and for the first time, a visitor celebrate with us. Oh, in case u dont know, my mom's fiend's daughter is living in our house now (first time a girl living with us). It's because she's going to work at Mid-valley and my mom will train her first before she work at the new branch. She just came last Sunday and will be with us for 2 weeks or more.

About my 'problem'... just talk with my dad on the MSN, and it looks like he takes it slowly. He was very supportive and asked me to try harder next time. Ah, it makes me feel so much better now. Hope my mom can take it like my dad or I'm sure to get it tonight... will I tell her tonight? I wonder.....

Today's my mom's birthday...

Sigh... the news havent told my mom yet, cause I wait after today, which is her bday. Going to Wangsa Maju later and buy a cake from Jaya Jusco at Secret Recipe. Though my heart still feels sad and my mind keep on thinking about that bad incident, I have to pretend nothing has happened and last though this important day for my mom...

Well, I dont want to say it... but here goes. The cause of my sadnest these past few days is because I called the company on Monday, and the fu**ing CD told me my contract has ended, and I don't need to go for practical training anymore. WTF!? I was waiting for their call cause they were fixing the comp, but when I called... they say I'm out!?? Oh man... I was hit by a ton of bricks and dont even know why. The b**ch just said if I wanted to know anything more, go find my teacher. Is that how you stop me from working? With not even an excuse why!?!

I really didnt expect it to happen... cause all I did wrong was one time. At that time, we did a project like usual... I passed up my work, but got rejected because I didnt do it correctly (yeah, I admit I'm a noob... -_-). After rejecting my work, I continue to fix it, but it was getting late. I havent finish correcting my work and the girl who sends me home wants to move out liao. What am I to do? Foolishly, I followed... but then when I packed up everything and prepared to move, a senior asked me why don't I finish it first. I was shocked, cause the deadline hasn't come and I thought of finishing it when I come back the net week. THEN he told me the deadline is on Monday!! WTF man... I have to follow her back, else I will do it until night time and have to take the bus, LRT and taxi home alone later (Cheras and my place is sooooooo far!). So I leave with a guilty heart and hope they could use other's ppl ideas instead of mine (3-4 ppl r doing that project, including me).

The next week I came back, I thought I dont need to continue with the last project, cause it was already handled down to the client. When I was surfing the net and waiting for the next project to come, the as**ole Art Director came to me and scolded me for not finishing my job. But I said isn't it passed up to the client liao? He fu**ed me and say "I dont care, I still need you to pass it up to me cause I want to show it to my boss!". I was shocked... cause is he trying to give a damn stupid excuse to humilate me and force me to do the job?... or is it his stupid excuse really REAL?!?? First time kena shit from a shithead... So I do it and pass it up, and everything went on as usual then. Until I was suddenly expelled...

Is one wrong doing and misunderstanding can determine my whole actions and cause me to be expelled? I didnt believe it, but now I know it could. That small incident made a huge impact on me, and the fuc**ng AD and CD dislike me already (I think they r lovers... no wonder they group up and 'kill' me -_-). I did all I could, I learn from my mistake and give 110% in my efforts. Hell, it was not good enough for them! They want very good graphic designers, when we are only trainees!!! Fu** them, I don't need a stupid company that is bias and... worse of all, I didn't even get ANY pay from them, after working for a month and a week...!!! Damn stingy and cheapskate company!!!!!

Ater today, I have to tell my mom of this 'bad' news, and find the teacher on what I should be doing later (and find out the reason why I was expelled). I should work until the end of next month, but now... sigh! And I should ask the teacher if they have the right of not paying me a single sen, after i worked for one month!!!

The world is cruel... and now I know it more. And ppl, please dont post bad comments, I will REALLY not appreciate it now. Thank you.

Saddest day of my life...

Sigh... today could be the saddest day of my life. I feel so down... down until the pits. Feel like just die and don't need to give a damn about the world anymore... So sad, because of one fu**ing phone call. Omg... I didn't know I could feel this 'deep' down in my life. Maybe cause I'm still young and inmature, or first time experienced 'it'. Sigh... don't feel like talking about it, but soon u will know. I am tring my best to look happy and calm in front of my friends and bro, but deep inside... my world is shattered and I felt so sad, so down, so so so... sad. No one to comfort me, I know... and tonight, my wound will end up deeper as I 'get it' from my mom and my family. I tried... but I failed. And now I will suffer, again. When will the nightmare ends? ...................................................

Holiday for 4 day...!

Wow, unexpectedly... I have 'taken' 4 days of holiday from work. Well, not that I wanted to say it but... IT FEELS GREAT!! Never would I realised I will appreciate holidays as much as now from work (cause I never work before :P). Tomorrow has finally arrived, where I will go for Magic The Gathering Pre-Release once again, my 2nd time. It will be super cool and I have waited for it until my hands itchy liao...!

Next week I will start my boring life of school and 4 days work again. Wow, I dont even want to think about it anymore... now already bored, later sure die haha. Oh well... life must go on! >.<

Rest at home, day 1...

Hmm... my first day of rest after more than a month working. Hate to say it, but I love and enjoy every moment of it...! :P Ahh... now I know why working ppl can't wait to go for holidays and vacations. It is SO GOOD not to WORK, lol. No stress, no workload, no boringness and no sleepy eyes. Maybe cause enjoyed the 'holiday' too much, didn't do any of my projects today >.<; But I shall start it tomorrow, hopefully...! rofl

No work... for how many days?

Just received a call today from my company saying I don't need to go for work these couple of days... no, I'm not fired! It's just that one of the PC in the office is down, and you know how important is a PC to a Graphic Designer. So the guy will be using my PC until his is fixed, and then the company will call me back to continue my training. Oh well, holidays for a few days then...! And just in time, cause I need to do the freaking 3D animation project which is due next Monday, and I couldn't possibly finish it if I work the next 4 days! :P

The 'face' tree

I bet you guys got see the newspaper (or maybe not) about the famous 'tree face'. It's a normal coconut tree (not sure) but on the tree trunks (green area) grew out a lump which is like a human face...! Some say it's a message from God, but the fact is it's just a coincidence... a kind of 'defect' maybe. 3 days ago, the face tree 'opened' it's eye, yesterday the eye closed liao. Wow, it's kind of amazing... yet ceepy at the same time. Imagine a 'face tree' outside your house, looking at you 24/7, sometimes open eye, sometimes closed. Won't it be... 'cool'? LOL ^^

Eating in the office...

Here I am, all alone eating bread in the office... Wanted to save some money and diet at the same time. Plus, I don't want to eat together with the damn AD (he is AD, not CD, my mistake). So I untung 3 things at one go, thats y I prefer eating alone in the office, haha... In the office somemore can play internet without anyone watching, and write my blog like I'm doing it now... So free, alone... well, sometimes I do feel the loneliness, but there are my songs to teman me and the internet too. Maybe I will go CC and chow kei today? Waste RM2 but saved RM4... good deal wat, LOL :P

Just another day...

Boring... do work, bla, bla, bla... maybe fortunate cause no kena scold today, but didnt pass up any work, thats y >.<; sound like always kena, lol... donno la, kena once feels like forever liao. stupid CD!!! Ruk going Indonesia, make me even more boring for the next 2 week... have to play games at home lor, what else? My friends sot liao, want to play back magic, a card game, back... so expensive! If really happen, maybe I will become sot and join them too... >.>; Why dont they stick to playing cheaper things like free online games or dota? -_- oh well, I feel so much tension now, anything to make the pain of work go away... hiyeeaahhhhh!!!