She just don't care

Sometimes I really don't understand LG... that day I already told her I'm sick, yet she still keep pestering me to sms another group member to discuss about our FYP related stuffs. Not even a word of asking if I'm ok or not, only bug me on work stuffs. Do she think that I'm lying or avoiding responsibility when I say I'm SICK?

And yet I still talk to her and treat her so nicely on MSN, when I should be mad at her. Sigh... I need to wake up from this dream/ nightmare... fast! T_T

Jimmy's house for CNY

Last Fri, which was a holiday (Awal Muharram I think), we went to Jimmy's house for 'pai lin'. Mr Daniel no car, so for the first time I fetched him to Kepong in my Waja, lol. I could because it's near my aunt's house.

Around 3.30pm arrived, inside was only Jimmy, WingC, SG and her bf. It was lesser than I thought. YL wasn't there but I know she won't come since CM went back hometown and she won't drive alone to Jimmy's house. But it's no big deal, since being with my friends was the main purpose, not with her, haha...

Watch some movie and played some cards. No money was involved since nobody wanted to play (only me, Jimmy and WingC). Later Mr KH came, which was a surprise. Throughout the whole day he only teased me a bit, which was waaaaaaay better than what he did last time. An improvement, very good. If he continues on like this then maybe our friendship can be recovered like last time, before he started shooting me blindly on my blog. I never wanted war in the first place...

After watching the last movie 'Saw 5', which was extremely gruesome... and funny, we planned where to have our dinner. Since SG's bf is a vegetarian, they decided to go to a vegetarian shop way far, in Cheras area. KH offered to drive us there if I can't drive that far, but then it would be a hassle if he will send us all the way back after dinner. So I said I can drive if Daniel know the way, and drive to Cheras I did (without asking my parents for permission 1st, haha). But later I told my parents too and they were ok.

The food was not bad... especially the taufu bakar (very nice!). Daniel didn't complain much too, even though he dislikes vegetarian stuffs very much, haha. Then for a second round, we decided to go fetch Oon and went for yamcha. Yamcha at Momo, the place we used to go with David and Jane for yamcha last time. It was renovated and somehow too bright for me. The yamcha didn't last long since Jimmy need to send WingC back, but it was still enjoyable.

Sat went for relative gathering at eldest aunt house. Seremban relative also came over, and we had some conversations between cousins. We even add each other in Facebook. Another reason FB is a MUST in this life, lol. Had our first 'yee sang' (home made) and a lot of nice food to be shared among ourselves. The best times come when family reunions like these appears.

Yesterday and today feeling a bit sick, sore throat... sneezing and running nose. Some more this weekend have to go Johor liao, have to get well asap! Being the director and group leader, a heavy responsibility is on my shoulders. How I wish I have a gf now to cheer me on, in these times of hardship... ><

A CNY gathering in YL's house

Yesterday was a fun day... at least most of it. Supposed to go to Yling's house at 2 but got delayed because she went out, thus postponing it to 3.30pm. After sending my bro and parked the car at Wangsa Maju, Daniel fetched me to YL's house. Even before stepping into her house I called her, just to hear her voice (and to confirm is she at home), although we are just a few steps to her front door, haha... XD


Reached there, only YL, her 2 sis and Oon was there. Jimmy and WingC will be late an hour. So we started to look at vacation pictures of YL going to Cambodia and stuffs. I would be more interested if it were only pictures of her, but most of it was boring snapshots of other stuffs. Yawn...!


Then WingC and Jimmy came. Soon we 'open table' and started gambling on the floor, starting with Blackjack and then In Betweeen. With the power of the golden elephant (YL's vacation souvenir to me, hehe), I won RM5++ that day. Guess it's true that people with no luck in love has better luck on the gambling table... >.<'' Then Daniel went to Summit to meet David to buy some Magic cards. YL also followed to buy some Mahjong paper. Although I wanted to follow them very much, I decided to stay and accompany them play some poker cards some more (else it would 'disband' due to less players). But soon, Jimmy and WingC also left as they need to go for a family dinner. Soon David and YL came, and we played a couple rounds of cards (no money involved this time) and then left as I am late for the FYP meeting.

Thanks to David I wasn't that late. I speed towards GK and reached Station One around half an hour late I think. All was there liao, and me being the leader was late... paiseh! >< So we discuss and discuss about the FYP... and in the end decided to do documentary. I wasn't sure if it would really work, but I hope it does, since it's quite an interesting documentary too!


So I sent LG home... at first it was because I need to fetch my bro from Wangsa too, but then he say he will go back by his own. I could have told Laihar so she will send LG back again, but... nvm. I sent her back and even walk her until the front door of her house, but it somehow feels... not that 'heart pumping' anymore. It feels more like a 'routine' than a 'I want to see her till the end' kind of thingy. Is it a sign that I am finally letting go of these feelings? If so, then we should celebrate! Haha...


Then went for yamcha again with David and Daniel, although near 12am liao. They played some Magic and then we chat about some love stuffs. I asked David to rank, and he said LG was the prettiest among them all. Although it was a fact, but I kind of felt sad for YL... in my heart, she will remain the prettiest of them all. Okok, stop vomiting blood you readers! Hahaha... XD

CNY season!

So CNY has passed a few days ago... this year was the worse, the feeling of CNY was so little it was hardly felt everywhere, except home. Still, I had some good memories this couple of days.

On Monday went to Raub, Pahang to find my kai-cow mou (step aunty, or something like that, haha). They own a pet shop and breed some pets themselves. The stench at the back of the house was unbearable for me (where all the pets are, mostly dogs). Then we went for lunch where they treat us to eat at a seafood restaurant, and later we return to their home for mahjong. They even gave us a bottle of red wine as souvenir, nice!

Yesterday was the most enjoyable one of all. After waiting for nearly a week, we finally get together to have a Japanese dinner, me and my 1st batch of TARC friends. Those that joined were Daniel, YLin, Jimmy, WingC, SGeng, Oon and the one year missing dude, Weng Foo! We had fun eating and chatting there... and continued playing 'police, killer and doctor' card game at Station One cafe (second round yamcha). Unfortunate that we can't gamble this year cause WF's schedule was fully pack and he's leaving back to Abu Dhabi this Saturday. See you again next year dude!

So what did we talk/ joke about during the 6 hour ++ reunion? Talk about me chasing YLin last time (paiseh!), talk about me still concentrating on YL when SG brought another leng lui with her last time (but CM more interested in SG's fren, haha!) and stuffs. A reliving the past moment, so fun... XD

YL... I should really REALLY forget her, sigh.....!

Updates... sem 5, part 1

Sigh... lately must be too free and did nothing much at home. Everyday it's been doing the same thing... doing some house chores, playing FB, Dota, Torchlight or Magic. Actually it's not that boring, but it is FREE... and when my mind is free, I tend to think about love stuffs again, sighhhhh!

LG's bday just passed a few days ago. I was so into the game (Torchlight) that I totally no time to check my FB, thus without realizing that her bday has passed until a day after. I still wished her happy belated bday in FB and SMS. Sigh... I do misses her sometimes, when we always hang out yamcha together. Now that I know she's in love with another person, my heart does ache... how much, you will never know. Go for your happiness LG, you deserves it...! T_T

YL pula... the more I go to Summit, the more I want to go see her at least once a week. No doubt she's the longest girl that I have loved in my life... and still am. I hate myself for feeling so much 'hope', that if I DO see her, my heart will have that special tingling 'good feeling' that it is so damn addictive... it is like a drug! No matter what ppl say, you still wants it badly... and I'm an addicter. I'm addict... I'm addicted to you~ ><

Haha, I can imagine the faces of my readers saying 'Oh no, not this again! When will he ever wake up!?'. Maybe soon... when I do have a gf. But that won't be anytime 'soon', so.....? Nobody knows, yay! XD

GL - YL - YL - LG, these 3 words! G, Y, L... why always this THREE words!?! What does it mean!!?!! ArrGGhhhHH!!!!

A dream in her house

Yesterday went to Summit USJ for Magic... then Daniel joined after his Japanese class. Yeah, it was fun scrolling for cards and then buying it, but I hate the shop owner who looks like he's giving priority to those buying 'expensive' cards and ignored ppl like us who buys cheap cards. What a bad way of doing business...

Then we went to YL's house. So unfortunate she wasn't there, as my heart wanted to see her so much... even if for a while, haha. We just hang around the house, talking to CM. Daniel was tired (or lazy? lol) so he went to sleep... making me wanted to sleep too (since CM doing some office stuffs with his laptop). We both slept on the sofa in the living room, quite soundly... haha.

Suddenly I had a dream... it was a dream of hanging out with my friends, in YL's house! But her house was much bigger in the dream, and like in real life, I was happy to see her too (lol...). I was happier in the dream... cause she was there. When I woke up, reality was being cruel to me again. She went back to her hometown... so there's nothing I can do. Then I told them of my dream and CM said it must be because I missed YL too much... WTH!? Since when did CM know about me and YL? It must be Daniel's fault... but nvm, as long as he don't tell her (which I think she already knew, lol).

A little happiness in my heart keeps me going forward... in this cruel world called 'reality'.

The holidays are here... where to go?

Ah, so my exams are finally over. I won't be bored as there will be a lot of things I could do, from improving my video editing skills to tuning my Magic cards. But as I surfed the net, I found out that a buddy of mine wanted to go to this 'party' (guess who?). As I checked out http://sensualalingerie.com , it made me interested too!

I wish I could join him for the Sensuala Calendar Girl Launch Party happening on the 28th this month... then I could blog in more juicy pics and experience too, haha. Rock on! XD

Damn tulan!

Shit! F**k!! CCB!!! I can't believe it... I have been neglected and conned into joining Robin's team for FYP! At first we agreed to discuss everything together, to be fair to everyone. Suddenly in today's meeting I found out that they already made up a story, and he even picked the position for everyone... which left me the worst position! F**k man!!! At least I was the Director of Photography in Muni's group... now I am just a f**king Director of... Casting!? Shit, shit, SHIT!!!!!

Damn I'm pissed and feeling regretful... I trusted the wrong person. Now I have to pay the price and work with THEM for FYP, damn damn! Argh... what did I do to deserve this!?! I shouldn't be so innocent and gullible... I should have seen through his fox skin!!! DAMN IT!

The name list have been submitted... should I continue on and live like nothing's wrong with THAT group for FYP!?! Or should I jump ship now before it's too late... but most of the group is occupied now... argh!

Really regretted my actions... sigh, sighhhhhh, sighhhhhhhhhhh!

Love... a blessing or a curse?

This couple of days see my bro keep on emo-ing because he broke up with his 'most loved' girl in his life, the girl which is now studying in the same class with him. On one side I pity him... because I would hurt deeply too if I broke up with the girl I love. On the other side I think that it is his own fault... for 1) having two gfs 2) did something which made the girl feel 'susah' to be with him. His emo-ness is really bugging me... ><

Yes, I hate players... who play with ppl's heart. In my opinion there is no 'sharing' love. You either love one, or you love none. More than one means you don't deserve to be loved... cause you're greedy. Greedy for food is ok, greedy for love is despicable! (I mean lover's love)

I have been super busy this semester until rarely update my blog, thus meaning I have no time for love either... haha. Maybe it's a good thing, since no love = no headache/ heartache. Yeah, once a while when I meet back YL, I do miss her... but meeting up with her and just hanging around her makes me very happy liao. She's getting prettier and prettier too, haha...

So busy I am at school that I even rarely meet LG. The longest time I spend with her this sem is when I celebrated my bday with her and on the showcase day, which she dressed up very uniquely. Ya, my love for her nearly becomes 0% liao (I think). Time really heals I guess.....

So next sem will be my final sem, then I will finally get my diploma liao. FYP, or final year project, isn't going to be easy. I want to produce a video that is way better than the successful MV that we did this sem. To produce a masterpiece, you gotta work your guts out. No hard work = no good work/ a normal work. I want to make ppl's eye pop up when they see the video, than stand up and claps their hands while screaming 'fuuyoo!!!!'. The feeling = PRICELESS! XD

Showcase was the bomb!

These couple of days were busy helping to prepare for the showcase, cause I'm one of the committee members (hospitality). Say only but mainly because I have the car, so I fetch them here and there to buy stuffs. I was tired but happy helping them, but damn tulan when the 'brat' did not appreciate it and keeps complaining stuffs. Emo rich brat, wat to do... -_-

Yesterday was the showcase. The night before we were doing our last minute 'hunting' and testing with the equipments in the hall. So, feeling tired cause slept late, I woke up early in the morning and dressed up as a 'cowboy sheriff' before heading over to fetch them at 8am. As expected they were late, some more I need to go up to the brat's house to help take stuffs... fine.

After all done, I help took some stuffs downstairs, into my car. There were super heavy stuffs, making me need to go super slow else my car would have hit the bumper while moving over it. I jokingly said 'Wahlao, so heavy... die lor my car'. Then the idiot brat said 'If u die then we didn't slept the night before die a long time liao lor!'. WTF!?! I wanted to tuut him back and call him to get down and walk to college! But I did not want any war... yet. So I kept quite to his f*cking sarcastic remarks. Emo brat... just let him be.

So a lot was done from getting ready the equipments to buying the food from Wangsa Maju (chicken chop rice). The first part was our TVC (tv commercial), which wasn't the best at all. After lunch it was MV (music video). This was our pride and joy, our precious production!

Last time when I heard that the lecturer said some of the team members cried when they look at their video being cast for the audience to see, I thought it was kind of over-reacting. But when I stand there, in front of all the crowds... and our MV was being projected for all to see, I was... stunned. Looking back on how much sweat, tears and energy was put on it, the feeling was... special. And when the part I suggested to be taken was shown, it looked damn 'yeng' until some of the crowd cheered at it! Suddenly I was so 'kam dong' until some tears came out of my eyes by itself... omg! Until the end of the MV, people cheered and I was more touched... our MV did it, WE DID IT!!! The feeling was AWESOME... damn!

Later when all MV was showed, all were given a paper to vote for the best mv and tvc. Best TVC went to the Avira group, and mc's group got 3rd place, shocking! Best MV was Ray's group, but WE got the THIRD place among 27 groups! YES BABY!! Another joyful moment I wouldn't forget... XD

Then the committee member's were invited to the front by the lecturer to give praises and salute for doing such a good job to make the showcase a success. I was happy that I am one of them... although we did not get much in return, I was happy to play a part in it. The brat of course keeps complaining and said he won't join anything like this anymore, which is GOOD cause I don't want to see him anymore! Why complain when you were the one who volunteered in the first place? STUPID! lol...

Took a lot of nice pics, including with LG who dressed so nicely, like a doll. She even created a fake hair out of cloth! Nice!! I also took the initiative to take some pics with W and CK cause they were wearing a mask, and CK dressed like a cat, lol. Ya... you could say that I forgiven them liao, haha...

Overall it was a superbly fun day, except those moments when the brat ruined some for me. Damn I hate EMO kids!!! The event ended nearly at 7pm, from 10am. I took some leftover foods back. Then at 10pm went out again to join Danny them for 2 hours of CS. Tired and AWESOME day for me...! XD

Gone 2009, welcome 2010!

Wow... somehow I dont feel the new year is here. On new year eve all I did was spending it at home with my bro... When the clock strike 12, I was playing DOTA in GG, haha. Maybe it's the busy-ness or the mood, some how I dont feel enthusiastic. No fireworks, no ppl yelling "HNY!", no ppl to celebrate it with. Sigh.....

Luckily yesterday, which is 1st of Jan, I went out with 2 group of friends. First Darren invited me and my bro to follow them to Summit USJ for some Magic cards spree. I asked Daniel if he wanted and so he joined. There were many cards there, but not enough cash in my pocket, haha. So I bought some cards totalled to RM19, Daniel even less, the most was Wai Long which hit nearly RM200 and Darren around RM100.

Bought some booster packs for drafting too. Then suddenly Jimmy asked if we wanted to go for Japanese dinner at night. I was reluctant due to the financial budget, but end up going also since its been sometime I have meet them. Daniel joined too, lol...

After finishing business there, we showed them the way and went to YL's house. It was very nearby only, so its better if we go there then go back and ask Sum to fetch us go again for dinner. We lepak at YL's house, but she wasn't there. Only Ee Ching (her sis) and CM. So I watched the anime that CM was watching, Daniel slept and EC + CM went out to wash car + buy dinner. It was actually my first time talking to EC then... and she looked elegant in the blue long dress.

Soon YL came back from her hair makeover. She rebonded + stylized her hair, which makes her even more beautiful than ever. Went up to change her clothes, she came down in... t-shirt and jeans!? Urgh... she would have looked perfect with nicer clothes, haha. So an 'A' to EC for clothings, an 'A' to YL for looks. Are they trying to be contrast among each other!? lol...

Dinner at Umai-Ya, opposite of IOI Mall. Ordered a variety of food, which mostly I didn't enjoyed as much. But hanging out with friends was my main purpose, so let it be. Jimmy used his coupon which entitle RM200 discount with RM400 and above purchase on foods. In the end all of us need to pay RM31, including all charges. Not bad, since they enjoyed it very much. I'm happy as long as they're happy, haha...

Then went to YL's house to lepak again. Daniel went to sit in EC's car, thus giving me a chance to sit with YL in Sum's car, haha. She kept complaining I should have sat in EC's car cause she's not sure of the road, haha... The best moment was when I and her walk under one umbrella, heading to her house, in the rain. Although it was for a short time... although it was 'nothing'... although I'm the only one feeling it... I'm still happy to do it. It's like a dream in the movies, haha.... Okok, I like to fantasize, so what? XD

In YL's house, we played Texas Hold'em Poker, which YL lost terribly, haha. Winner was Jimmy followed by me and WingC. Then we learned some 'messaging' technique from EC, she was pretty good! We had fun learning it, haha... Then we went back around 1am++.

Yesterday I talked the most with EC, since I meet her a long time ago. She wasn't that cocky or scary until you knew her, haha. It was a good thing too since she's fun to play with, like YL, haha. But among the sisters of course I still prefer YL la... cause I'm 'sick' ma, hahahaha :P

Happy New Year to everyone! No new year resolution cause I don't think it will be of any use at all, haha... Ciaoz!