The end of sem 4 is coming

Hmm... donno should I be sad or happy. Yes, the end of semester is coming... I will be doing my last presentation tomorrow, then wait for next week Sat to take one exam only (English), which should be a walk in the park. Then I won't be able to see my college friends for 3 weeks + -.....

Doing this final assignment with W made me felt a bit guilty and sad. It's because I did not have a laptop, and all of them went to W's house to finish the assignment... and all I could do is finding sounds/editing them and pass to W through MSN. Also searching for some ingredients from the supermarket.

What I did, was it sufficient for the flash assignment that they did for the whole night without sleeping, until 7am? Guilt is consuming me... and I don't know if they think I'm worthless in this assignment. Thought about finding another new group next sem... if they really don't find me helpful in the team. Sigh... why am I doing this to myself? They don't really think that... do they!? >.<''

Argh... watever! Really need to stop making my ownself miserable by thinking too much... T_T

A day with LG

Yesterday was a tiring day... the day before I only got 2 hours worth of sleep, doing the freaking MSN and story Flash assignment. Then I realised I cant link it all together... and none of my friends know it because I use action script 3.0 -__- So no choice, called LG and ask for her help cause she using 3.0 also. So I went to the library to find her.

Thought she was the only one there, bit looks like JH, the guy I thought she like last time, was also there. He's very close with LG and is one of her team member in doing group assignments. We chatted and see each other's project. LG's MSN was better than mine but my story assignment was better than hers. Turn out she couldn't help me after all cause her one is helped by another friend thus she don't know how to do it at all. Oh well... T_T

Then the 3 of us went to TBR to eat, buy and print some stuffs. It was fun as we chat and talk about stuffs (including me teasing LG in numerous times, and JH 'helped' me, haha...). It's funny how I am able to mix in with their group so easily... cause most of their classmates didn't. Whatever the reason is, I am always happy to mix with more groups than concentrating on one. I like to be the 'Jack of all' than the 'King of one'... XD

Although I know she likes a guy from her hometown (not told by Daniel but my 'informer'), although I'm a bit sad deep inside... but overall, I still wish to be good friends with her. Yes, I maybe upset by her actions in the past, but when you want to be a true gentleman, you need to forgive and forget. So I can only keep the pain inside and show the happiness out... no, I will not reveal the sadness out nor shall I be labelled 'emo', the type of people I hate the most! ><

As it was a tiring and happy day, I later went out yamcha with the two Ds in Cola Club, which is now renovated and looks way better than last time. The atmosphere was very relaxing, with the 2 live people singing. They were talented and the songs they sang was all top notch + my favourite songs. Hanging out like that is what I love to do with my buddies... ^^

I didn't feel tired at all although only slept 2 hours... but later when I reach home, I was dead sleepy. Happy day... end! XD

Friends are best

Yesterday should be a day to celebrate Yling and Daniel's bday, since the weeks before both of them were busy. So in the morning after sending my bro to the LRT, later went to cousin's house in Kepong to visit them and my grandma. She fell down and hurt herself, I felt so sad for her... poor grandma. Then later went back to prepare going out at night.

Called Daniel, no answer... sms him, no reply... That guy always like that de. Since he went for Angeline's convo which only starts at 5pm, I presume he won't be joining us out. Even if he join us, I doubt he will come all the way from UM to fetch me then go to Kepong. No transport... how am I to join my friends in Kepong!?

Last resort... I asked my mom permission to drive there, cause I drove there quite frequently last time. She agreed! So this is OFFICIALLY my first time driving out of Wangsa Maju area, on my own! Yeah!! So I drove to Jimmy's house and parked my car there. Then went into his car and we went for buffet steamboat, somewhere in Kepong. Those joined were me, Jimmy, WingC, SG, YLing and CMing.

The food was ok... quite a good place for steamboat buffet. I ate a lot, especially the Wall's ice-creams. Pistachio ice-cream... yum yum! We chat and joke around for hours. Daniel at last smsed me and say he couldn't make it (expected). Bday boy couldn't make it, a lost for him indeed... (but he would just say 'dont care/ dont mind', haha...).

I don't know why but I was really happy enjoying with them... forgetting all the problems of the world. They are some of my rare friends who appreciate me for who I am, who understands me and doesn't look down on me for some mistakes I did in the past. Thy enjoy my company as much as I appreciate having them around. These are what true friends are... and should always be. I hope this gang would last longer... before all get married and busy with their family then, lol...

Went back around 11.30pm... Jimmy sent me back to his house where I took my car and drove back. Speeding like the wind, I feel freedom... driving on the streets by my own, haha. Reached home in less than 30 min, it was fast indeed. Hope to see them again in our next outing, which should be when celebrating CMing and SP's bday... can't wait! XD

P/S: It felt good when Yling praised me for becoming so considerate and kind for taking nice food for the gang, which I myself don't even eat. Hope she will be happy and able to find a good man, soon... God bless her.

Hard to be mad...

It's strange... I was very pissed on Thursday night due to LG. Then on Friday while I was waiting to fetch CK to Wangsa Maju, I saw her at the bus stand. I know she's going to Wangsa Maju... and my mind says 'Don't need to bother her... she will go there herself. She won't appreciate even if you offer to send her there!'. Yup... I think so too. But my heart just couldn't bear it... being evil even for a little bit is so hard for me. After getting myself a headache of asking her or not, I decided to do what I will do to everyone, not only her... and that is to offer a ride. -_-

But I did not do 'too' much. I just send her to the LRT Wangsa Maju, where I need to pass the car to my bro, and he will fetch my mom there. So she needs to go back home herself... which is quite far away. Again my devil and angel side said 'She deserves to walk far, it's nothing compared to the mockery she did to me!' and 'Ah, so dangerous... I wish I could walk with her home'. Haha... with one swipe, the two thoughts dissapeared... as Daniel's car has reached to take us for yamcha and dinner. Funny is when I get into his car, I totally forgot about LG...

It's silly and stupid of me to think so much for her when she doesn't give nuts about me. I guess that's why I'm a lovefool... stupid and innocent. Hanging out with CK and W is way more fun than with her, so I should not think so much anymore. She won't be joining us for yamcha anymore unless the D's ask her out... yay >.>

Today W ponteng class so didn't come to college at all. Suddenly a friend was teasing me last night with her, cause she trusted me and send me her whole English assignment file. I said it was nothing but he kept teasing me this and that with W. Oh no... I hope this rumour won't grow 'bigger' else I might lose the friendship bond between me and W! I don't think it would... will it? Sigh... I think too much again! >.<

Sick and tired of helping

Ok... maybe it's my fault. I did the wrong thing by trying to make a joke or to make her laugh... in the process of trying to make her happy, I looked like a fool... an idiot... an 18 year old kid! It's funny how people judge you, no matter how good or bad you are. When you are boring and quiet, they say you are anti-sosial and shy. When you are friendly and likes to join the crowd, they say you are talkative and childish... I just don't know wtf do humans want nowadays.....

Maybe it's her way of kicking me back from me teasing her forgetful and old style. Maybe I am imperfect and full of flaws that she feels pissed and don't want to say it at my face, so she said it behing my back in another language and thought I don't know how to listen (people are so naive). Or maybe I am sooooo stupid that I thought of giving her advices to become more like-able, end up firing it back on my face...!

F it... I'm so stupid for falling with a girl that is scared of SOOOO many things which she made it happen upon herself, then blame it on others and ask for people's help... but don't want them to 'over' help and keep complaining this and that. I would have x1,000,000 more fun playing games and chatting with my other friends that hearing her talking craps like that! Say I doesn't give up and always want to be the right one, then isn't her doing the same thing!? >_>

Shit, and I went through all the trouble of calling her and fetching her, only to make myself more miserable. I'm not lying when I say I wanted to call her out is so that to make her more 'happy' cause she's always stuck at home, and so she can chat with D more. But all the kindness means nothing because... it's nothing/ useless/ un-useful!

Next time I will stick to hanging with the boys or ck/fong OR playing facebook and sdo with w THAN asking her out for yamcha. Mr D, next time it's your job to ask her if you want, I dont give a damn anymore... woohoo! XD (Ahhh... feels like a burden is off my chest, YeS!!!) ^^

A happy day added with sadness to ruin the day

Yesterday was a happy day, in the beginning. It's because I helped W to check her English assignment for grammar errors which took me hours to complete, the night before. It was worth all the kindness when she kept thanking me for the big help ^^. So yesterday was her presentation on English, with her group. I even took the initiative to record down her whole team's presentation in video on my hp... just her team's :P

To celebrate, we went to Taman Melati McDonald after class for breakfast. It was actually my first time eating breakfast in McDonald (see, I told you I RARELY got to eat McD, haha) and the cheapest set was worth RM4.20... for a small hamburger and a refillable coffee. The food wasn't that great but I enjoyed the atmosphere the most, where 9 classmates hang out happily together in an air-conditioned restaurant. We chatted and joked, from games, movies to random stuffs...

Then it's time to split. I went for another class but W went home as she has nothing to show to the teacher (it's usually the other way round for me and her, haha). I was happy to know the teacher accepted my idea and give some comments on how to improve it... so I went home after that.

Surfed some internet, and I went to sleep. Woke up, continued surfing the internet. To suddenly ruin the day, I saw some annoying comments on my FB. It all started like this: I posted some announcements for my classmates on the cancellation of a class. Then CS (my nominee for the 2nd KH) came and give advise that I should make a FB group and invite all my classmates to join it, then post the announcement there so I don't need to keep repeating the announcement on FB. It wasn't a bad idea but it still doesn't work for those that don't surf FB regularly. But what I am most angry is how he ends the 'advise' with 'You play too much game you don't know this function is it? Use your brain'. WTF!? Seeing this kind of mockery really spoils my mood, no matter what advise or joke it is behind it... I immediately deleted his f**king post.

Since I just woke up from a nice sleep, that kind of shit pisses me off even more. But one thing I learned from all these years is to be patient. Sure I can be like any barbarian on the streets and tuut him back for the stupid comments he wrote, but I wont. It would only make me sound more like a kid and the 'fighting' will become a joke to whoever that sees it, ruining my reputation as a class rep and a person. But still, I'm pissed...

So I wrote on my FB wall 'A friend who doesn't respect you doesn't deserve to be called a friend'. This phrase is given the thumbs up by my friends in FB. Then Mr arrogant CS came in and give another mocking remark. He wrote 'I know you are saying me. If you got balls come say at my face'. Hoh... hohoho..... that does it. Not only did he not learn from his mistake, he sounds as though I'M the wrong here! This idiot is so free that he wants to find trouble with me on FB... which I will not give in. What should I do now?

Following the advise from a book I read that says 'Kick away all the people that gives nothing but negativity into your life. They will only make you miserable', I decided to do just that. I went into CS's main page and click the 'Delete from buddy list'. Voila! No more negativity in my life!! XD

Doing this really is something I'm not proud of at all. In fact the incident made me feel uncomfortable throughout the rest of the day. How can a man I once called friend do these kind of things to me? Are they really so ignorant, arrogant and egoistic that they think hurting another friend's feeling is a noble act to do? Do they think mockery in public is something light to be taken as? I am sorry, but these kind of people will not be in my list of friends. Until they change for the better, I would not mind losing 2 person in my life that will make me feel more depressed in the future. Good riddance!

Life is hard

After the tedious presentation, I can see some of my friends not feeling happy and relaxed. Some have the problem of being backstabbed by their own teammates for not doing their part of the work well... some being complained behind their back for asking too much help from friends to do the assignments... others got sick/ tension because of their own life's problems/ future assignments.

Argh, I am nearly going crazy because of assignments too...! But I know doing that will not help, so I calm myself with games. Although yesterday I had a lot of fun playing SDO with W, I know we could only remain as good friends. Sad she doesn't feel 'more' than I wished for... happy that I and her are best of friends... Life doesn't always go the way you want.

I had another 'funny' moment yesterday when CK and I played some random FB quiz. Determined by some random bot, I and her both got no.1 for each other in the quiz 'Best Friend Forever'. Suddenly the bf saw it and became angry, and tuut another guy who teased us for getting no.1 among each other. I was amazed yet laughing at how childish and emo the bf is...! It's just a quiz, like that also jealous? Haha... kids.

Time to take a breather!

Ahh... finally some time to relax after rushing for those damn assignments for nearly 2 weeks. I was so busy that I couldn't even play Dragonica, haha...

Let's talk about what I was thinking when I had a lot of free time in school today, as I waited for the lecture to start. Eh wait... it was actually after presentation. LG presented before me, and somehow I can feel I'm different from last time. Why? Cause last time whenever LG presented, I will take out my hp and record down all of it. Now... I don't even think of doing that. Wow... looks like I'm really is treating LG as a normal friend now.

W... there's up and downs with W, although mostly ups. She's like a very good friend which I like (note: LIKE) very much. Talking with her is so fun as she's enjoying talking to me too. This kind of feeling is hard to come by since I'm either too shy or the other side is scared of me (or some other reason). Maybe because she's very friendly to not only me but all... that's why I like her very much.

My mind went a little too far again when I compared LG and W in a situation... If both of them were to feel into the sea and are drowning, who am I to save first? Weird... but in the end, I choose W over LG. Is W really such a nicer friend compare to LG now? Yup, I think so...

Haha, there I go again, ranting about love stuffs... just a little ranting on my online diary, don't mind me... XD

Celebrating WingC's bday

Yesterday was a tired and full of fun day. Early morning Daniel sent me to Sg Wang where he went for his Japanese class (got exam) and I went for karaoke. In Green Box Sg Wang room 30, I saw SG and her friend (which they say were beautiful, I didn't notice, haha), YLing, CMing, Jimmy and of course WingC. We sang our hearts out and I was happy that now SG prefer English songs over Chinese (yay! an English kaki, haha!). The food was sucky, lucky there were free flow of drinks (from soft drinks to hot drinks like Milo). They even had some beer which was free from a coupon.

After karaoke we went for window shopping. It was fun helping and looking how girls buy clothes. SG tried a few gowns that I recomended, which looked stunning on her. Pity it was expensive else she would have bought them. I must say... girls in dresses or gowns are absolutely beautiful!

We then splitted because SG and WingC had to go for massage and body treatment. So the rest of us went to Borders to have a look at some books/ magazines and SG's friend left. It is suprised that I accidentally found a book which gives a lot of meaningful phrases. One of them is 'Keep away or kick away bad people which makes you feel down or stressful. No point in keeping bad apples that only hurt you more than they do good.' I agree... these 'people' are better left leaving in their own world, that doesn't involve me! XD

Then we went for yamcha at some kopitiam style restaurant. We chatted a long while, and Daniel joined us soon after buying some stuffs from Lowyat. We sat there for quite long, since WingC even joined us and later when we left, it was nearly 2 hours after WingC came... to find SG. After joining back the whole group, we went for a little more window shopping before heading out for dinner at Friendster Cafe somewhere near The Curve area.

Again we had a blast there. The food was nice but expensive. Then I saw the game 'Taboo" which I asked to be played among us. And indeed it was the best choice. The game went on for hours and we all laughed happily due to the way we answered or guessed the questions. I thought me and Daniel would dominate the game since we are more fluent in English but end up WingC was the champion, haha... We left nearly around 12am and Daniel sent SG home.

This morning woke up around 5.30am and followed Daniel for his run at Dataran Merdeka. I did not joined the run but was just the cameraman (and baggage keeper, lol). There was a lot of people but not a lot of pretty girls, haha. I tried to took some photos but most of them went blur because I was noob in taking moving pictures. Kena 'tuut' by Daniel, lol... ><

Daniel finished in 1hour and 6min, which was a bit slow due to going up the hill that he didn't expected. The fastest runner finished in nearly half an hour... which was amazing for a 10km race. Most of them (the top 7) were foreigners. After Daniel reached I had some Milo, he continued to take some pics and we left for brunch in Wangsa Maju. Went back terus sleep for a couple of hours because damn tired. Oh no, got projects to do... Ciao!

P/S: YLing is getting prettier and prettier, and I'm happy for her. I do not put anymore hopes, just glad we are still friends... including in LG and W. Friends is what I need for now, not love...

Lately...

So what's been happening lately? Busy with assignments as usual... But I was sad when the teacher suddenly announced next week need to present and pass up an assignment which I barely touched. Not sad because I need to rush doing it, but sad because I have to cancel my plan of joining Pilla and LG going to Pulau Ketam. I really scare can't finish it or rushing it too much that the project will end up looking really bad. And Pilla was a bit mad that I FFK her... which added my 'pain' of disappointing a friend. LG going wor... and I can't go! You think I not sad meh... T_T

But on the other hand I am able to go for WingC's bday celebration which is held earlier cause she will be busy for the coming months (donno why). It's been quite some time since I last saw them, and going out with friends no matter how many times will always be a good (and happy) thing for me.

Today I even accidentally saw one of my old MIA teachers... actually I hated him last time due to something he did but when I saw him, I was suprised. We chatted a while and found out he was teaching part time in TARC too, under Mr Chen, wow. Time heals hatred too, haha...

Although I did my best to be as good as possible, there are still some rotten people out there who hates me for my guts. It is really surprising how some people just like to get into fights for no apparent reason. I try my best to ignore them but like pesky flies, they always come back. No one is perfect, including me... but why do they want to keep 'shooting' my weaknesses (which most are not true)... when they themselves have weaknesses? Do they feel more superior doing such childish acts? Are they so bored and nothing to do? Why don't they get a life and go bug some other people? Tsk... Tsk.....

Haha, I think I have said this more than once liao... but since this is my online diary, I can say whatever I feel like writing. Ups and downs, good and bad... It's my life, so go get your own!

A word of wisdom

"Different people different thought, different attitude different action,different style different life and yet, only these thing that overcome it; honesty, happiness and positive thinking..."