Colleagues comes and goes, like love...?

 Early this month a new colleague join my team, as the last one was forced to quit due to sickness (I think cancer, at such a young age, really pity him). He was in for only 1 month plus. As I train the new guy, another old colleague, Muizz, suddenly quit due to finding another prospect else where (2 times his salary now, wow... higher than mine!). Luckily he quit at the end of the month, so I got some time to train the new guy, hopefully. Man, I feel like quitting too... working here is really stressful and not so high income too. Just hang on a while, maybe next year will be better...

Travel ban has been lifted and I went to Perak to visit mom's friends (sick) with dad. Was a one day trip, a bit tired, but was able to eat and buy some food back. A mediocre kind of trip, I would say. Would have been better if I was with my loved one (if I have one) haha...

Got a toothache now, argh! Maybe will go to the dentist if persist tomorrow. Work has been hectic, no luck in the love department as always, but games are good (a new super robot war was released, yay!). Grateful for having a peaceful life here with my parents, wish I... nvm, got or not, life goes on. All the best, cya~!

Another one 'gone'

Another girl I fancied, Susan, just got married. I am happy for her, although there is a little sadness in my heart. She is one of the girl that is really kind to me with no bad traits at all, actually the best among all. Wont swear or emo, always smile and won't get angry. I wish her all the best with her loved one. She deserves the best of the best.

There's only 1 girl I fancied which hasn't marry yet, but she's a bit 'spicy'. Won't be chasing her since she always gives me the cold shoulders and already have a bf (and younger than me 8 years too). I always fell for the wrong ones, I know, haha...

So MCO is going to be lifted soon. Travelling cross states will be opened and finally, maybe, I can go back KL as my bro's wife is busy with work and can't get leave or something to come Pg. Been cooped up at home for months, which doesn't bother me, but sure many wants out now haha. The covid cases is still plenty but as all 3 of us are fully vaccinated and no kids around, shouldn't be a problem. Just need to follow SOPs.

Been busy working as usual. Bought some nice 'waifu cards' I found on shopee haha. Also bought a new card folder because of it (cheaper than you buy in shops, man I should have done this last time!). Bought Diablo 2 remastered and playing with Jimmy on weekends, sometimes, if both of us are free. Long time didn't go gym so getting a bit weaker and rose like 2kg. Our office was once 'raided' by 3 cops, checking if we break any SOPs (because we opened the main shutter door). Nothing happened, luckily. 

What made me pissed is recently... well work related, nvm. Work is not easy especially when you need to take care of 4 people under you. Being too hard they complain, being too soft they trample over you. Life as an executive but work like a manager, bah humbug~!

That's all folks. Stay safe everyone~!

Aik So Cute!

Just now, when I was about to leave the office, I opened the door and was surprised to see 'Sun' there. So I let out a sound 'Aik?' with surprised. She then replied back 'Aik', which should be just for fun imitating what I said. Then she went back home and I went back upstairs to my office.

Now thinking back, it was cute when she said that... really cute that it keeps repeating in my head a few times. This must be the after effects of not talking to any girls these past few weeks due to work from home. Wake up man, wake up! It's just an 'Aik', nothing more! Sigh.....

One of those nice dreams

Actually nothing biggie, just want to write down for fun. Last night I had a good dream (yeah, quite a long time no dreamt this good) where one of the girl I admired, Susan, was in it. Nothing fancy or dirty happened in it, just me and her chatting something (forgotten what, hard to recall). Then me, being me, tried to make her happy and wrote a poem for her, in which she happily smiled and praised me. We were not dating nor are we a couple, just me and her as friends, even in the dream. I remembered it fondly as I was happy when I woke up, which again, was rare nowadays. It was sweet, it was nice, it was... a dream.

I know it was my friend, loneliness, that paid me a visit, yet it was still... a nice short moment I needed to boost myself up, in these mundane and sometimes stale moments... I call life.

A good start for the year?

 Today got my pay slip. It was unusually big, so I know it must include the long awaited 'increment'. I opened the envelope, check the increment letter and I was semi-shocked (as my dad got hinted to me before) that the percentage of increment was around 23%! Yeah, not bad, woohoo~! Actually my salary was quite low, so adding this much is a big step up. Plus it's already delayed (last year no increment). With more money I can buy more figurines, haha... Just joking, I usually limit myself to buy 1 per month or 2 ONLY.

I wonder if I'm eligible for taxing now or not? Still not yet hit the ?? mark, I don't think so. And with the CNY coming, 1 month bonus should be coming too. Maybe I should treat myself to a PS5? Maybe later...

Covid in Malaysia is hitting record high with passing over 5k cases per day. Looks like CNY this year will be spent without going anywhere (no Genting too). Damn, my new Magic box (share with bro) have to wait longer before can be opened together.

Just now on the way back from home, after lunch, I hear one of my favorite songs on the radio. Why I love it is besides the nice tune, the lyrics best describe what I wanted to say to YL. It goes like this:


I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you...


Yeah, life goes on even if YL is already married and have kids of her own. I have moved on, but a part of me will always be with her. I seriously think I owe her something in my past life else I wouldn't... Oh well, wish her all the best. Time to live my life for my parents, my home, myself..... and hopefully my 'future life'.

New Year 2021 is here~!

So another year has gone by, just like that. It was a horrible year indeed. With Covid spreading and chaos happening here and there, it was a year we truly do not wish to repeat. Many things happened, new SOPs to follow (to curb the spread), people losing their jobs, companies and shops closing down, price of items increased, etc. I hope 2021 will be kinder to all of us...

So what GOOD things happened to me in 2020? Let's see:

1. Worked at home a few months (yay~!)

2. No salary cut but workload increased (yes!/wth!?)

3. Bought myself a super expensive Samsung Galaxy Tab S7 (3k, ouch) but happy with it

4. The TV spoilt, changed to a new 4k HDTV (really big color difference, wow~!)

5. Bought myself some figurines (mostly Rem, haha) and 2 'special' ones

Some BAD things, that I remember, are:

1. Health deteriorate (need to eat 1 medicine everyday, damn)

2. Need to FURTHER control my diet (eat less, less sugar/fat)

3. Wasted my gym money as only go less than half (due to fear of covid) and expired now

4. Stress and workload adding up (working with an idiot CEO, figures)
5. Still no luck in my love life (getting used to it already)

Still, I am grateful as I am already more lucky than most people out there now, living moderately and enjoy my life as happy as I could. Maybe being single is not so bad, at least I have more money for myself (planning to buy another big thing this year, maybe PS5?). Parents are starting to enjoy life more now too. Go out eat at Japanese shop a few times, and other expensive shop s too. Not kidding, before this we never do that... or a few years only do once. Enjoying life is a good thing, why save so much for? Save enough will be efficient. Balance is key.

Actually liked a girl in my office, but was told by my one colleague that I don't suit her. Maybe he got ask her if she likes me. I believe him as she doesn't smile to me whenever we meet, and only greet me when I greet her first. Heard this year dog is not a good year, except financially. Aii..... life goes on. See ya~!

Getting aged without realizing it

Wow, how time flies without me realizing it. Still feel like I'm in my 20s or early 30s. Then when I register for the government financial aid thingy, which need me to enter my age. The horror of realizing how old I am now (shriek!). No wonder some of the people that don't know me (like cashiers) will call me uncle (noooo!). Haha, don't know if I should be laughing or be sad. How time flies when you're living life as full as you can be.

Nah, who says you must act o** even when age tells you that you're o**? Just live life as happy and vibrant as you choose it to be. Life will be young and energetic or o** and boring, as you want it to be. Urgh, damn white hairs, else people wont call me that 'aged' now.

Live life young, that's ONE of my life's motto haha. Ciao~!

Corona oh Corona...

It's been a few months since Corona have hit the world by storm. Malysia and the world, for the first time has created MCO (movement control order) where we help save millions of lives by just staying at home (to prevent the virus from spreading). Needless to say, work also transferred from office to home, which is a good thing! For me, as a gamer and an introvert. For office workers, to bond with their families more. For the environment, less human to pollute the earth and let nature heal. The bad thing is less out equals less work equals less money for nearly everyone, which causes a lot of people out of work, change jobs or went bankrupt. It's a money or life decision, which makes everyone suffers no matter what.

Life is quite normal for me this few months. More time for games at home, working sometimes piles up and sometimes normal (never less, sigh). Yup, logistics never goes down even when an epidemic hits the world. Being single maybe helps me too as I dont need to entertain any kids as schools are closed. Loneliness is as usual my biggest nemesis, but usually I'm able to kill it with a good game or two. For that I'm grateful, which is kinda sad if you think about it more deeply. Oh well...

Still misses YL whenever I'm free, skip. One thing this epidemic brings is it sometimes unveil the inner selfishness of human being. People hoarding food and masks, idiot Donald Trump lying everyday just to make himself look good, some people balik kampung even though the government forbids it, etc. Maybe this is how nature punish us humans, like Thanos snapping his fingers. Overpopulation of greedy and stupid human beings will really destroy us all in the end, seriously.

Let's hope a vaccine will be invented soon. To end the suffering of good people and to continue the lives of hardworking citizens. While waiting, let's continue with CMCO now. Be good people, ciao~!

It's getting worse...

A few weeks have passed and it's looking worse. First there's the sudden 'jump ship' politicians, which causes the government we voted for (and won) lost the majority, thus making the losing side the new government now. Bloody traitors... I really hate backstabbers.

Then the Corona virus, which were already depleting in Malaysia, suddenly spread even more worse in KL. Soon we will be like Singapore, hoarding on goods and staying at home... disastrous!

From my side, I did leg day last Wednesday and boy... I regretted it so soooo much. Legs were so in pain that I climbed up the stairs even slower than my parents, walking down the stairs was like Hell, and etc. I admit, my legs is the weakest part of my body. Then to make matters worse, my mom suddenly became sick and vomited too. Maybe due to eating toxic leftover food. Me in pain while doing house chores = really really... PAIN. At this time my mom is ok already but my leg is still recovering, damn...

So what is the good thing that happened these few weeks? Nothing I can really recall... except for the news that PS5 is coming out this year (I will DEFINITELY buy it, muahahaha). With the car fully paid, thought of getting a new big family car... like the Aruz, haha. Maybe wait for the next version.

Everybody is busy with their own lives, as usual. Me still thinking of YL, as usual. Ok, back to work, ciao~!

A burden off my shoulder

Huurah, finally paid off my last car installment! So now officially one debt of my shoulders! Although this is a small achievement as it's only a small Axia, but that's the reason why I bought it. Cheap, save petrol and small (to fit in small places) and no need worry to pay a looooong debt off. With the monthly extra 'income', I can save more money for... something. PS5 definitely in my list... maybe a house too? I'll think about it later, haha...

So Valentine has passed, and the few days of watching people's 'romantic posts' sometimes is a bit annoying. 30 over years and still never wasted any money on Valentine. Don't know if I should be happy or sad. Oh well, the 'loneliness' indeed subsided after V-day, thank God...

A new motto I invented, here goes:
"Man live to work 5 days a week. Those that doesn't are either lucky or lazy"

How true is that? Work can be either a man's job or a woman's responsibilities at home. Either way, we live to work. It's a never ending cycle that stops when you're retired... or couldn't work anymore... or dead. Because of this we must appreciate the time off we have! Don't waste it on more working because life is too short for that. Enjoy living... not working!

Enough lecture, people live their own lives. Telling them this is pretty much useless anyway, haha. Men are selfish, one way or another. It's the degree of selfishness that makes a man, a MAN. The world is changing because of men's selfishness. For the worse. I wonder how long until we really reach the point of no return? Because men never awakens until they are at the brink of death. Now where have I heard this before? From some movie, must be...

Time to sip my cup of RM2 McD iced latte and back to work. Adios~!

First sickness of the year

Urgh, had a bad night on Friday night where I woke up suddenly while sleeping and vomited in the bathroom. Then diarrhea. Then vomit again. Maybe due to indigestion, felt better after all those painful moments. Luckily still able to work on the next Saturday morning (half day), then travel to KL some more (for my mom's friend's son wedding lunch on Sunday). If I was unfit as last time, I'm sure I would have been locked on to my bed for a few days. Thanks gym-days!

Found a new girl friend on FB dating. Not young, 36, but who am I to choose now haha. Looks a bit baby fat, okla. Chat in English, very nice! But lives in Penang island. Will this be the start of a beautiful friendship? Only time will tell...

That's all for now, adios~!